Raptorsin7

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    @saffron  How long have you been meditating? It takes time to realize the effects meditation will have on your life. If you can meditate comfortably for an hour while recognizing when you are lost in thought then I would recommend starting self inquiry work on top of your meditation. The problems you have are coming from YOU and self inquiry will help you wake up to who you really are not what you think you are.

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    @d0ornokey Nothing at the moment, my undergraduate degree is in biology but I have no interest in pursuing a hard science. I'm planning on doing Leo's life purpose course for an hour a night or for a few hours on weekends throughout the school year to try and get the ball rolling on an alternative. I've been in school my whole life and I don't have any real work experience outside of working for my parents, but I don't consider that valuable work experience because I was basically a nepotism employee that didn't work hard and showed up whenever I wanted.

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    @saffron Hey man I've felt a lot of the anxieties and dread that you are feeling right now and I know what it's like to look around and be envious of others while reflecting on how much your life sucks In comparison. I also understand a lot of advice people will give will sound stupid and not resonate with where you at in life. Keep trying to be better and don't get down too much I believe life will get better for you and I think you also believe eventually life will get better. I think you need to understand that even the rich and beautiful people you idolize aren't as happy as you think they are, everyone has problems and those characteristics you value aren't actually that important in determining the quality of one's life. It will take time for you to realize the current version of yourself is only a blip in your overall journey, but have faith you will eventually look back on your life and smile at the things you once thought were important. As for practical advice, I STRONGLY recommend developing a meditation practice and find a way to stick with it no matter what. You don't have to do it EVERY day, so don't beat yourself if you a miss day or a few weeks etc, but long term this habit will be invaluable to improving the quality of your life. Your end game hopefully will be enlightenment work and meditation is a necessary step in that direction. Good luck man, you are on the path whether you realize it right now or not.

     

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    I'm about to start my first year of law school, but I'm having stronger reservations because most of the reasons i'm going to law school in the first place are shallow/egotistical. Given everything I've learned from Leo about life purpose and enlightenment, I just can't see myself enjoying something as mundane as litigating corporate mergers or some other type of "prestigious" legal work. However, I brought up my anxieties with my parents and they were very distressed and want me to continue through and at least finish the 3 year program before I do something else. I am also very lucky because my parents are paying for the entire program and living expenses, and if I treat law school like a 9-5 job I will have at least 3-4 hours for all the stuff i'm currently interested in (self inquiry/enlightenment, yoga, other interests that may arise). Any insight or advice would be appreciated.

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    @SriBhagwanYogi Does the ego go beyond the feeling of "I" in the mind? I no longer feel identified strongly with the "I" in my mind even though most my life still operates through this "I". So do you think I have incorrectly identified the witness during my self-inquiry and when I turn attention on the witness I am simply turning attention towards more ego? 

    I will begin to watch Mooji, thanks for the recommendation.

     

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    Hi, I've been practicing self inquiry recently by bouncing my awareness between two points, like my visual field and my hand for example, and then by trying to turn this awareness on itself or on the general sense of perception I feel during meditation. However, whenever I do this I feel a lot of resistance and I can't maintain the attention for more than a few seconds. I understand single pointed attention on awareness itself over time is what will lead to an enlightenment experience, but i'm wondering if there is something I can do to increase the amount of time I actually spend focused on awareness itself. Does this sound like i'm on the path or is there anything i'm missing? Any insights would be appreciated.

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    @Neorez Hey I've been a scratcher and a nail biter almost my entire life, and recently I've gone long stretches without biting my nails so Ill try and give some advice based on why I think I've stopped. First, don't beat your self up about the habit and i'd recommend coming to peace with the behavior and don't demonize yourself or it. Second, I would take up meditation so you can become more aware of the circumstances surrounding the nail biting. There is likely some feeling/thought pattern that is occurring that is prompting the urge to nail bite. You don't nail bite 24/7 so clearly there are times where you aren't thinking about it and then bam you get the urge, try and understand and observe that pattern and I think it will help a lot. Good luck.

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    @Skanzi @Nahm @d0ornokeyThank you all so much for your thoughtful replies, this is my first post on the forum and the fact that this is the level of detail that I received on the first re few replies is pretty astonishing. A quick follow up, since the "high" point of my life I've been meditating diligently for ~ 2 years, and for the past few months I've begun with self inquiry meditations, so in many ways I agree with the sentiments I am more evolved now than I was in the past, especially considering the fact that never in my life before this had I really taken spirituality or enlightenment seriously. I have no desire to go back to a point in my life whereby I didn't understand the potential of a practice of meditation/enlightenment, but at the same time its difficult more to me to accept that in the meantime I am not enlightened and there exists a version my self that is more confident, has higher esteem, etc that I don't have access too. My plan is to continue with the contemplation about this "higher" state, and I will also contemplate on why I feel I need/want this state in the first place.

    Also, given that I don't really have anyone to discuss these things with in my life I feel like i'm going to be asking a lot of questions on this forum, but at the same time I don't really know what the limits are for clarification/insight. I feel like I could ask for 1000 clarification points on this thread alone but that seems very selfish and isn't fair to other people here. Any insight on how to balance the desire to seek thorough advice, without sucking up too many resources would be appreciated.

    Thanks a lot guys.

     

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    Hey, I recommend trying to cultivate more positive habits like and meditation, rather than trying to focus on actively removing the negative thoughts. I think whatever habit patterns you are engaged in right now, whether you're aware of this or not, are contributing to your negative thoughts. If you can change your habits/physical circumstances then you may be more successful in removing the negative thoughts. 

     This video really helped me overcome similar negative thinking patterns, and I think if you can really internalize and act on this advice it will make a huge difference. Keep looking for solutions, eventually you will move past this. Good luck man.

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    Hi, would it be unwise to use contemplation  as a way to progress through different spiral stage, like advancing through orange or advancing from orange to yellow. Additionally, I had a period of my life where I was very depressed and suffered from very low self esteem, and then I kind of hit a low point that prompted to try many self help techniques over a short period of time, like "fake it until you make it", cold showers, and intense exercise. This transition from depression to non-depression led to feel the best I had ever felt in my life for about 6 months post depression, whereby I got my grades back up and sort of recovered many superficial/material marks of success that I lost due to depression. The issue is it has been a few years since that transition and I feel like in many ways i'm back to a level of consciousness that I was at before the depression, but not quite where I was at in the period immediately following the depression. I've thought for a while about how I can practice techniques that could get me back to what felt like an elevated level of consciousness, and I've recently begun the practice of contemplation. So basically, I'm wondering of using contemplation as a way to understand exactly what I did during my depression that led me to feel much better than I have ever felt Is a misguided approach; part of me feels like a drug addict trying to get back to a previous high, but at the same time I feel like that period of my life was incredibly valuable and if I could get my consciousness back to that level it would only serve to enhance my self-actualization journey. Sorry for the ramble, I've never really expressed this with anyone and I'm curious to what people on this forum think of my dilemma. Thanks.