Leonid

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    Hello Liris, I also have had a strong social anxiety, inferiority complex, shyness and all that. 

     

    But now I'm constantly putting myself out there, being social, meeting people, going to different events and so on, and it's becoming better. 

     

    But it takes a lot of courage and fearlessness on my side, especially considering I don't drink alcohol.

     

    But I really wish you luck, I think you can visit way more social events in Finland than I am in Russia ( not moscow)

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    @OctagonOctopus that's a good point. I mean, I've kinda tried to do it when I was reading Thomas Campbell's 'My big TOE', but it went well over my head unfortunately. 

       I think I'm ready for the experience, cause I mean, you either develop your consciousness or you stagnate. I don't want to be stuck on that level as I intuitively feel there is just SO much more. Been interested in this stuff from age 8-9 I believe. 

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    @OctagonOctopus oh thanks bro, yeah I mean, but there is this stigma about non-duality, being sober we cannot really ever accept even the idea that we are not our body. It almost feels like wishy-washy thinking from ego perspective, and that's what scared the shit out of me when I experienced it for the first time, because I just could not accept the idea that I'm every person I see, and every non-living object I see, so radical of idea it is. Takes enormous open-mindedness. 

      Thanks for reply tho, I thought about analysing my belief system, but IMO to really see through it takes a lot of awareness

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    Hello everyone!

    I have 170 ug of LSD, and a couple weeks ahead of the next trip. Backstory - I tried half of that couple days before, and was able to almost sustain that blissful and aware state that LSD provides, by meditating 40+ minutes a day. 

       I have had a non-dual experience when sober, and am now able to sustain thought-free state almost 50% of the day. I would say I'm in 580 LOC according to Ramaji's book, which means I'm not in non-duality, but may be there if I would be able to sustain thought-free state all day and surrender the ego. 

       So, the question is, will 170 ug of high quality LSD be enought to put me through a couple levels of consciousness until I can actually reach 600+ and feel non-dual state of awareness for extended periods of time? Maybe even try to stabilize there 

       If yes, what should I do before the trip to achieve that? Meditate for 2 hours a day? For 4 hours a day? Read books about non-duality before the trip? Any help or advice from psychonauts or spiritually advanced people would be greately appreciated, thanks. 

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    Day 7. No urges

    Here's the 7th day! Benefits start to kick in. Skied yesterday, and I have to say man, I greatly underestimated sports. I really felt like more energised and more aware, in a way. It's because I was skiing in the forest, and the sun was shining, and I've meditated in yesterday's morning, and I felt the beauty of it. 

    The cool thing about meditation is when you meditated a couple of years even 20 mins can get you really high in terms of awareness. Even if you behaved like a degenerate for weeks.