Yeah, Vegas gots to makes its monies. The fancy hotels don't pay for themselves
Micro-dosing a psychedelic would be far preferable to drinking. Cheaper, healthier, and more fun.
Modafinil is also a nice supplement for PU. Increases verbal skills and creativity.

That's right, the stronger your focus the more psychedelic your visual field will become.
That's a tiny taste of how psychedelics work.
Imagine that multipled by 100.

Illusion is that which is, but isn't.
Another good word is hallucination: an appearance without any underlying substance.
Or, of course, a dream.
Illusion = hallucination = dream

@MrDmitriiV Well, when all tricks fail, confront the devil head-on with mindfulness.
By this I mean, just sit there and mindfully suffer the sound until you surrender.
Sedona Method should also work well. See my Letting Go video. In the end you're gonna have to let it go one way or another.

4 grams, but you have to keep in mind that I am much more sensitive to all psychedelics than average people. About twice as sensitive. So 4g is probably closer to 6-8 grams.
Yeah, it's a puzzle.
5-MeO certainly helps. But it's not the only factor. Perhaps even more important it the contemplation work. I find making sense of the trip very important. That clears things up in the mind, allowing for deeper trips every time as puzzles get resolved and settled.
They definitely get existential insights but most people have such a poor theoretical foundation that they don't understand the significance of what the trips show them. They play around in it for a while but then they drop back down and the whole thing is treated as some wacky alien experience at a party. It's not taken seriously enough or deeply contemplated.
And of course some people DO contemplate deeply even at raves and grow themselves spiritually. Just because it's a rave doesn't mean it can't transform you.
Sounds like the trip took you exactly where you needed to go.
If you are afraid of dogs, how are you gonna face death & God? You must slay that demon before going deeper.
It varies. I always want to be tripping more but lack of time prevents it. I should be tripping more than I am.
My intentions are to do a lot more research.
Yes, absolutely.
Yes, that's still something I'm tinkering with.

Yup
You can also gently question/wonder: "What is this thing?" "How can it exist at all?"
It's basically not. It is a form of meditation but in this case not on a body sensation but on a visual phenomenon.
Both should work.
Just be conscious of the hand's existence. Try to "feel" or register the mystery of it existing there.
Yes, that's your goal! The more you become conscious of it, the more mysterious and unknown it will become. Don't try to demystify it. Rather you are becoming more and more conscious of the mystery of Being/Existence/God.
That hand is God! Try to notice that. What does it mean to say that the hand is God? Wonder about that as you stare at it.
WONDERING is a crucial aspect of this work. You need to genuinely and deeply wonder about existence itself and every object in it. Don't take anything for granted, not even your hand. How do you even know it is "your" hand? Who told you? What is a "hand" anyway? What remains after you remove all ideas, beliefs, stories, memories, labels, categories, and other projections from the "hand"? What is the hand made out of? What is its substance? (Hint: not cells or atoms.)
Be very patient and persistent with this process. Also, be gentle about it. Do it in a calm and relaxed state of mind without demanding some immediate answer. Look at your hand as though you're seeing it for the first time in your life. Don't take it for granted as a given.

Sounds like it was a genuine experience in the moment, but as soon as you came down you lost track of it almost completely because you haven't gone deeply enough into the contemplation work.
The point is not just to trip. The point of a trip is use that window of expanded consciousness to contemplate and gain understanding about how consciousness/reality works. If you do that, after many trips you will develop a deep understanding which can be retained even when you're not in the trip. The understanding extends into sober material reality. But this takes serious contemplation work. You have to be interested in understanding the ins and outs of consciousness. Psychedelics are just vehicles for the exploration and understanding of consciousness.
It is like traveling to America by sail ship in the 15th century from Europe. How much of America can you understand after one voyage? Not even 1%. Which is why explorers took many voyages and kept careful notes and deeply studied and contemplated what they saw there. All exploration works this way. We are doing this with Mars right now -- sending new voyagers there every few years, and we hardly know anything about Mars even after 20+ trips. Scientists are hard at work back on Earth digesting and contemplating the results of every voyage every year. They spend more time contemplating the results of the voyage than they do on the voyage itself.
Take clues from this exploration process as to how to go about exploring consciousness.

It's not just any cactus. It must be San Pedro or Trichocereus "Torch" cactus.
There are instructions available online for how to blend cactus into a smoothie/paste.

Mostly existential issues such as the sense of going insane or losing one's mind.
That is especially problematic until you realize that there is no material reality and that everything is Infinite Imagination.
And a few times the trips just felt "off" for some unknown reason. Like they had a bad, negative body vibe to them. I'm not sure why. Maybe it was interference from certain medication I was taking or just something in my mind going sideways.
And sometimes if the dose is too strong, material reality melts so much that it can become scary in itself.
In total I've had maybe 6 "bad trips" out of 80+
One I attribute to early arrogance and too high a dose (with mushrooms), which led to sense of going insane One I attribute to interaction with a medication I was taking (with LSD) One I attribute to eating some food right before the trip (with 5-MeO-DMT) One I attribute to simply very deep existential insight which creates such deep mindfuckery it becomes uncomfortable (with 4-AcO-DMT, although I don't really consider this a bad trip) One I attribute to a panic attack reaction upon first time taking 5-MeO-DMT, fearing it might be terrible One I attribute to taking a new research chemical which had an awful body load Some other trips were uncomfortable or shocking, but I wouldn't call them bad.
And in the big picture, all of them were necessary and perfect for my growth. Especially my worst trips.
If you get a bad trip, that's God trying to teach you a lesson. You only have to figure out what the lesson is and obey it next time. Then the punishment stops. For example, you dose too high because you are cocky and aren't patient enough to ramp up doses, God punishes you. You learn your lesson and never do that again. Everything goes smoothly.
If I dosed less carefully I would have a lot more bad trips. Moderate dosing is crucial.

Your craving for sex isn't transcended simply by withholding from sex.
Denial of your sex drive only doubles your problem by adding on an additional layer of guilt and self-hatred.
The sex drive is not an addiction in the same way smoking is. The sex drive is still there even if you stop. It's more similar to hunger. It's also not unhealthy, like hunger, unless you take it overboard. The sperm your body generates is going to leave your body regardless, so you certainly aren't "saving it".

Good!
What's even more of a mindfuck is when you realize that anyone who has authority was given it to them by only one person: you!

Hehehe....
That's the whole trick. Money is survival. Business is survival. If it wasn't for that, LP would be easy and everyone would be doing it.
The whole trick to following your dreams is that you also have to be extremely pragmatic about it. You can't just dream shit up, you have to make it fly in the real world given all the limitations and restrictions of the real world. In other words, if you want you dreams to be actualized, you need to find a path for their survival on the material plane, otherwise they will remain merely ideas floating around in your mind. The hard part of life is creating a material thing which can sustain itself and yet still not be so evil as the destroy everything in its path.
To actualized your dreams is not much different than creating a baby, expect it's harder because now God doesn't do it automatically for you. Now you have to engineer it yourself and you must make sure it can survive. Now you are consciously playing God. What kind of God will you be? What kind of monstrosity will you create?

There are ways to work behind the scenes, but if you're going to contribute to the world in a meaningful way then naturally people will come to hear of you and your work.
Don't think of it as pursuing fame. That's silliness. Rather, you're just executing your vision for the world and whoever hears about it will hear it about, it shouldn't bother you. And probably you want your work to touch many people, otherwise what's the point?

Dalai Lama spent his whole life fighting for Tebatan nationalism.
Given the era he was born in, you'd expect him to have nationalistic tendencies. And of course he is a cultural icon of Tibet. He embraces his culture.
Enlightenment does not free the mind of its cultural programming and biases.
More broadly speaking, transcending culture does not mean all cultures disappear and you cannot tell the difference between Japan and Mexico or Brazil and Italy. You just stop creating an identity out of any one particular culture.
I can acknowledge American culture, for example, without attaching myself to "being an American". I am not an American because I am the whole Universe. So are you.

1 - When  Samadhi state is achieved, and your concentration is Total on a particular object, does it feels like "your" existence cease to exist as a body, like your whole body never existed? (and also, that the whole reality seems like a movie screen without any particular participant involved)
2 - Does the Awareness is experiencing my body exactly the same way that is experiencing a chair? And I know that there is this thing called democracy between objects and the body, so the body are on the same importance for awareness such as a chair I suppose.
3 - I remember in one of Leo's videos, he mentioning that Humans are puppets of the universe, what does that exactly mean? Does that mean that Humans are some kind of Awareness toys to play around in the material world, but both objects and humans are mere illusions?
 
Maybe none of this makes sense and I'm playing around with self deception, but I is important to me to share it, it will help me to evolve.
enjoy your friday*
 

@7thLetter You're not realizing the power of these subatances. Whatever your mind focuses on will become actualized, since that is the mechanism by which God creates the world.
If you do not use your mind properly, you will get nightmares come to life. If you don't want nightmares, think pure thoughts. If you cannot help but think impure thoughts that is because you have not done sufficient growth, development, and spiritual purification work.
Impure mind comes from bad karma.

@AwakenedSoul444 You are overthinking things. There is no solution to this issue other than to just approach anyway, despite the fear and excuses.
The anxiety goes away AFTER you make a few approaches. Not before.
Push yourself to approach even if you have 10 good excuses for why you shouldn't. That is the key. Just don't listen to your mind at this moment. If you start arguing with yourself about whether you should approach, you've already failed. You need to literally just start moving your legs towards the girl. The mind may protest but the legs can walk.
The crucial mistake is thinking you should have something good to say upon approach. Don't prepare anything to say. Just approach and be as genuine about it as possible. Do not try to prepare a good line or opener. Just approach with a smile and good eye contact. The words need to come to you authentically after the open. Trying to pre-script it is a big mistake.

@Hardkill Your mistake it trying to make friends through online cold-calling. Friends are not made that way. Go out into the real world and put your balls on the line.
You are basically spamming people to be your friend, which looks really weak, so of course they don't respond back.
You should not be using online for building connection/attraction. The proper use of text messages and the like is to facilitate real-life meetings which you've already had in the past and want more of in the future. They are not to be used as a substitute for face-to-face.

"Within me", "out there", and "another person" are thoughts.
You cannot use thought to grasp thought any more than you can use a knife to cut itself.
Sit in silence and observe thoughts arising.

Don't confuse oral doses vs plugged doses.
DPT is much weaker orally.

Notice how this issue involves a struggle to draw a boundary/duality between: alive vs not-alive, conscious vs not-conscious, autonomous vs not-autonomous, part of the mother vs not part of the mother, fully human vs biomass, human vs fly, right vs wrong, moral vs immoral, etc.
The mind wants to ground reality in such boundaries, but all such boundaries are untenable because reality is ONE. Which is why you struggle and struggle to draw those boundaries but will always fail. And why people disagree so much about where the boundaries lie.
There is no point at which a baby is conscious or alive or autonomous or human. There is no point at which a baby is separate from a pine tree. Getting that takes you meta. Learning this lesson is one of the most important things Actualized.org has to teach you. Stop falling into the trap of objectifying dualistic distinctions. If you manage to do that, your mind will be set radically free and peace can come to the world.
Or, continue fighting over imagined dualities.

Surrounding observers are part of your imagination.
If you put on sunglasses the world doesn't tint for everyone else.
Consciousness compartmentalizes itself, otherwise things would become a shitshow. How silly would it be if my putting on sunglasses tinted your world? That would spoil the illusion of objective reality. We could code a video game to work that way, but why?
You have to carefully think through the consequences of your imagined scenarios. Life has a very intelligent design. It is not some willy-nilly stuff that some idiot threw together. It is a design of utmost genius that allows for rich experiences like that of humans. This requires some serious design constraints.
The flaw in your thinking is not taking into account that your are currently putting enormous energy into imagining exactly your current reality. To enter a new reality you'd have to stop imaging this one.
If you fully imagined a new reality nothing would be left of the current one. That would basically be a totally new life. And then you would still ask, "But why can't I be in some 3rd reality?" You can! But then you lose the 2nd one. You can't be in two realities at once. You have to pick one, which means excluding all others.

You got your causality backwards.
That's what low consciousness egos do.
Narcissist != psychopath
Stage Red is not psychopathy. It just appears that way to higher stage people who lack the nuanced understanding of these complex issues.
It's all too easy to call dictators and strong-men psychopaths or "crazy" because the mind is looking for a way to dismiss them as so "other" as to be incomprehensible. But that's not the case. Stage Red explains Trump's actions quite well. Study Stage Red more.

When we inquire into the existential nature of a thing -- like in this case the notion of reproduction -- we do not limit ourselves by survival concerns. Rather, we go for what is true.
What is reproduction? That is the question. Do not corrupt this question with egoic fears.
If it is true that reproduction is an illusion, then that is what's true! Even if it means the whole human race will die out as a result of knowing it.
And of course it doesn't have to mean that at all. Good luck getting 7 billion people to stop fucking. Even the intelligent ones. Even the enlightened ones still manage to fuck like rabbits.

Nothing less will work.
So long as you are attached to needing to survive, you are enslaved to falsehood and all your actions will be corrupted by devilry.
This is what is really means to sell your soul to the devil. Your birth was the selling of your soul. Now you are in a struggle to get your soul back.
You sold your soul the day you said, "I am a human."
How does a devil scrub himself of himself?