Is this true? (Suicide)

[blankisomeone]

https://medium.com/the-collector/where-does-suicide-take-the-soul-883faa98e15e

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Edited September 30, 2022 by blankisomeone

[blankisomeone]

U guys know of any wacky new age spiritual person who claims to have killed themselves in another life and knows what happens?

[Loba]

No... if you listen closely, especially if you are suicidal, the Gods will do everything in their power to come to you to help you in your time of need.  They love their creations very much and do not want anything to harm them.  There is no hell, other than the experiences that we have here on earth that offer a sense of contrast.  We need this contrast to grow and to feel.  What comes after death is unification with love, with the divine, in some form.  When I had my awakening experiences, I felt everyone connected to the Source energy.  Absolutely everyone who ever was or will be, all singing in unison.  Animal, plant, human.  Good, evil.  All with purpose and reason.  The universe takes into account suicide in its plan.  Absolutely.  If you take your life, it was already planned.
There are some circumstances where the soul might do something unexpected, but this is very, very rare.  And this is what fuels the evolution of consciousness forward.  When I experienced the universe, it was very much like the visuals of this song - all things in their proper place.  The web of life, the feedback loops that govern us.
I have a strong faith that those who have harmed themselves move on to a place for healing.  Not harm.  God does not do this to its creations.
It does beg the question into why these mythologies are so prevalent.  I don't know why that is.  I can only speak from my own experience, and this tells me that all things will return to two forms - masculine and feminine - and then once these two collide, they will be One - and then the process will start over again in some manner.  What that is, I don't know that either.

Here is the song God spoke to me through:

 

[blankisomeone]

teal swan talks about the law of mirroring and how it gets carried over. Like if/when I kill myself, all of my darkness will get reflected back at me and it will be hellish

 

i was going thru lots of stress at work once and was seriously thinking of ending it but decided to take a nap instead and I had a horrible dream which felt too real of me walking aimlessly in the street and then some people slapping me and shaking me to wake the fuck up

 

idk what that was all about 

and to a certain extent I’m almost curious now what happens to be honest. But the finality of such an act, the not being able to undo it is very very very very very very terrifying

 

im feeling too alone and idk if it’s fixable anymore

 

today was also stressful at work and I just did some crying in bed

 

my chest hurts like I’m on the verge of a heart attack and I’m only 23 (:

Edited September 30, 2022 by blankisomeone

[Loba]

8 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

teal swan talks about the law of mirroring and how it gets carried over. Like if/when I kill myself, all of my darkness will get reflected back at me and it will be hellish

No.  I don't think so.  There are a few different ways this could go.  Those who have NDE's and they are hellish, they pray for the light, for God to come get them and ask for forgiveness and they are elevated out of their misery.
Another way - try doing self introspection.  I did this in my darkest time, and it was pretty bleak.  But what I found from it was not more darkness, but a beautiful radiance of pure Love, for all things great and small.

10 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

i was going thru lots of stress at work once and was seriously thinking of ending it but decided to take a nap instead and I had a horrible dream which felt too real of me walking aimlessly in the street and then some people slapping me and shaking me to wake the fuck up

That could be your subconscious telling you things about your day to day reality.  Our minds filter our emotions and what happens to us and puts them into odd story forms to integrate.  Please don't end it.  I know life is hard, but we are all here together.

11 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

and to a certain extent I’m almost curious now what happens to be honest. But the finality of such an act, the not being able to undo it is very very very very very very terrifying

You can find out without needing to die.  Just go within and see what comes out.

12 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

im feeling too alone and idk if it’s fixable anymore

I relate to these emotions.  If I were there I would give you a big hug.

12 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

today was also stressful at work and I just did some crying in bed

I am so sorry to hear that, what kind of work do you do?

13 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

my chest hurts like I’m on the verge of a heart attack and I’m only 23 (:

Stress.  Gotta manage it somehow, it can certainly damage your heart if it goes on for years.

What are you currently doing for a spiritual practice?

[blankisomeone]

 

8 hours ago, Loba said:

What are you currently doing for a spiritual practice?

Nothing much. I did 3 psychedelic trips, first one was great. Second and third one my depression and loneliness and twisted thinking were amplified and the experience was not pleasant. Not willing to do it again anytime soon!!!

I had 2 therapy sessions but they’r hella expensive, don’t know for how much longer I can keep that going

im workin on cognitive therapy. Learning about cognitive distortions. Therapist says I need to have this down cuz it’s first step in the healing journey. I’m also trying inner child work but that’s not working well.. I just can’t seem to get it right

butttttt idkk if this is the right path. Idk what I’m doing

Edited September 30, 2022 by blankisomeone

[Leo Gura]

There is no soul. You are God and death is a dream.

With that said, don't harm your body.

Edited September 30, 2022 by Leo Gura

[Bojan V]

Perhaps try to read books Journey of Souls and Destiny of Souls by Michael Newton.

And i'm sorry you have troubles at work. It's ok to cry if you feel that way.

Hugs...

[Judy2]

3 hours ago, Loba said:

There is no hell, other than the experiences that we have here on earth that offer a sense of contrast.  We need this contrast to grow and to feel.  What comes after death is unification with love, with the divine, in some form.    

I can only speak from my own experience, and this tells me that all things will return to two forms - masculine and feminine - and then once these two collide, they will be One - and then the process will start over again in some manner.  What that is, I don't know that either.

@Loba hey, i'm curious about your perspective on the above. I've heard people talk about the importance of contrast before, but currently my perspective on this is rather pessimistic. Especially when it comes to the idea that in order to grow, we have to face so much pain and fear...and nowadays i only see the fear, and feel like i'm obligated to face it, but at the same time it completely erases the positive side of things. Like...why does "Love" have to be so hard and challenging? Too challenging, at times, so it almost breaks you. Sorry if this is too much, i just thought i'd ask cause you seem to have an understanding of this.

And would you mind elaborating on the last part? Why do you perceive the duality of masculine vs feminine as more fundamental than any other duality?

[Mz Hyde]

5 hours ago, blankisomeone said:

I had 2 therapy sessions but they’r hella expensive, don’t know for how much longer I can keep that going

https://youarerad.org/

[Gidiot]

It’s a good question you raise… if everything is gods will, then people who commit suicide are too.  Suicide feels wrong to me that’s why “I” wouldn’t do it but I’m curious as to what will happen if there was no longer a feeling of being in a body.  It’s said that it’ll be this and that after death but I haven’t had the consciousness to be certain of it yet. Way too many concepts

Edited September 30, 2022 by Gidiot

[blankisomeone]

9 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

and death is a dream

Yup. Terrifying.

[The Mystical Man]

Don't ever consider committing suicide. For suicide is not the easy way out. The consequences of such an action will be severe; it will cause a karmic mess, which you will need to resolve. Therefore, you cannot avoid life. Life is like one of those movies where the characters have to play a game, and the only way to stop the game is to play it until the end; you have to complete the game of life. When you kill yourself, you get another womb. And then life will tell you: "Choose again." It's better to make the right choice in this lifetime. In this lifetime, you have a tremendous advantage; it's a great opportunity.

Edited September 30, 2022 by The Mystical Man

[blankisomeone]

4 hours ago, Mz Hyde said:

https://youarerad.org/

Ok fuck it I’m gonna try this

i remember u recommended it to me twice before but I overlooked it

i have some prejudice regarding how that website looks because it looks too happy and positive and I am positivity averse (:

but ok I’ll try it

[The Mystical Man]

11 hours ago, blankisomeone said:

i was going thru lots of stress at work once and was seriously thinking of ending it but decided to take a nap instead and I had a horrible dream which felt too real of me walking aimlessly in the street and then some people slapping me and shaking me to wake the fuck up

 

idk what that was all about 

Nobody can tell you what your dreams are about. Only you can find out what your unconscious is trying to tell you. There is a very simple process that's described in this book by Robert A. Johnson: Inner Work: Using Dreams and Active Imagination for Personal Growth

[blankisomeone]

12 minutes ago, The Mystical Man said:

Nobody can tell you what your dreams are about. Only you can find out what your unconscious is trying to tell you. There is a very simple process that's described in this book by Robert A. Johnson: Inner Work: Using Dreams and Active Imagination for Personal Growth

Idk why I said idk what that was all about. It was clear what that was all about: I needed to wake the hell up from my suicidal impulses. The other characters in the dream were shaking me violently and I woke up from that nap feeling on my actual skin as if I’d really been slapped (which *really* happened for anyone who understands that there’s no difference between right now and a nightly dream)

Suicide is just one of my destinies. I know I can choose out of it even though sometimes it feels like a gravitational pull and I’m even overtaken by curiosity about experiencing first hand what happens (but like I said, the finality of the decision is really terrifying; and it does feel wrong and dirty to have so much anger towards my own self. Suicide is just wrong, period. It’s mechanical and driven by anger. It’s just very twisty)

Edited September 30, 2022 by blankisomeone

[Yarco]

All religions have an incentive to tell you that something horrible will happen if you kill yourself.

Otherwise everyone would just commit suicide whenever things get tough, if they thought they could just take a shortcut to heaven.

Until you're 100% certain though, I would operate on the assumption that this is the only 1 life you have, so it's probably worth living even if it sucks. You have infinity to not exist afterward.

11 hours ago, blankisomeone said:

i was going thru lots of stress at work

today was also stressful at work and I just did some crying in bed

my chest hurts like I’m on the verge of a heart attack and I’m only 23 (:

This sounds like a panic attack 

[blankisomeone]

1 minute ago, Yarco said:

You have infinity to not exist afterward

No, the shit show probably goes on forever. Non existence is not possible unfortunately

[The Mystical Man]

25 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

Idk why I said idk what that was all about. It was clear what that was all about: I needed to wake the hell up from my suicidal impulses. The other characters in the dream were shaking me violently and I woke up from that nap feeling on my actual skin as if I’d really been slapped (which really happened for anyone who understands that there’s no difference between right now and a nightly dream)

Yes, the meaning of that dream seems rather obvious, but Johnson's process can help you to discover less obvious meanings. Dream work helped me a lot.

25 minutes ago, blankisomeone said:

Suicide is just one of my destinies. I know I can choose out of it even though sometimes it feels like a gravitational pull and I’m even overtaken by curiosity about experiencing first hand what happens (but like I said, the finality of the decision is really terrifying; and it does feel wrong and dirty to have so much anger towards my own self. It’s just very twisty)

I hope you choose well. 

Maybe Redemptive Love can help you:

 

Edited September 30, 2022 by The Mystical Man

[The Mystical Man]

57 minutes ago, Yarco said:

Otherwise everyone would just commit suicide whenever things get tough, if they thought they could just take a shortcut to heaven.

There is no shortcut to heaven. The point of life isn't to discover that all you needed to do was to kill yourself. That's violent. The point of life is to play the game of life well. Play it wisely and lovingly. Life is about wise action, and suicide is not a wise action.

57 minutes ago, Yarco said:

You have infinity to not exist afterward.

There is an eternity of existence.

Edited September 30, 2022 by The Mystical Man