Journaling - for the first time in my life

[mandyjw]

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Congrats on finishing the year! Woo hoo!!! 

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@mandyjw Thank you Mandy ❤️

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Moderate physically-exhausting jobs are the best jobs for a human being, or maybe just me.

Office jobs are bad. Labour jobs are very bad.

The best is mild and moderate, for example, house painting, even though it has its downsides in terms of health, but you can be careful and stay in the green.

These kinds of jobs seem to me like how the healthy human physiology should be.

I'm speaking from experience that I feel stable on every aspect and level after doing such work.

• My body tends to want more food, and it tastes way more too delicious than the usual.
• I stop have addictions anymore, I become completely free, until I get more time and space to slack off and get back to being addicted.
• I enter the vortex (merge) while I'm working, a very beautiful flow state, so free of ego and thought, that I forget about time and want it to never end.

I mean if that isn't how the best life should be, then how should it be? Nothing compares to that.

Edited July 13, 2019 by Truth Addict

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Isolation is calling, and obey it I must.

It's going to be a long one this time.

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Some insights after contemplating the devil:

• The devil is a reality-illusion simulator.
• The purpose of the devil is connection and unity, not survival.
• The purpose of God is to divide itself, and then reconnect through the devil.
• Fulfilling a purpose means death. When the devil dies, God remains one. God cannot die, therefore cannot fulfill its purpose ever (infinity).

Edited July 24, 2019 by Truth Addict

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I realised that there's no point in trying to isolate myself when it's not really possible. I'll just accept whatever is.

Edited July 25, 2019 by Truth Addict

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When you tell anyone about the special states that God blesses you with, you will probably lose them.

That means either a new possibility for higher states/clarity/understanding, or that you shouldn't talk about those states cuz it's a secret between you and God.

Maybe both are true. I don't know. I'm in love with God.

Edited July 29, 2019 by Truth Addict

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It's funny how people who advocate liberation are trying so hard to break free from their stories without even noticing that that's what they're trying to do all the time, without ever succeeding at it. People keep advocating consciousness but they themselves are not that much conscious.

Freedom = Slavery you pathetic human deluded beings! 

Edited July 30, 2019 by Truth Addict

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Mood right now ?

Sean Paul is a musical genius!

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A young guy, just now, entered the store where I work in, and gave me a newspaper. He reminded me of myself 4 years ago.

It's so shocking how much my life has changed in 4 years!

I'm crying right now. I know how hard life can be.

Edited August 4, 2019 by Truth Addict

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I feel like I have to become more "Alpha", and I have already started working towards that.

That is absurd but I can't help it.

Edited August 18, 2019 by Truth Addict

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www.youtube.com/watch?v=y1Is16stxA0

(Not sure why the video wasn't allowed except in a link form).

This guy has a lot to offer. He's going to be my teacher for this new chapter of my life. I like his vibe and energy and body language.

Joseph, if you're reading this, I'm glad that you have finally started working on this project. I'm eager to see how and where it goes.

Bless.

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It was a great day today. I started painting the family's house. Been working for 6-7 hours, and it feels amazing!

Going to take a shower now, and then go to bed.

Tomorrow looks promising!

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Can't get enough of this one!

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Maybe I'm just tired, but all I really want right now is silence.

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I no longer belong here. I'm leaving.

[tsuki]

Farewell. Talking to you was a pleasure.

Edited August 26, 2019 by tsuki