The Hell of Porn Addiction

[Monster Energy]

I was addicted to Pornhub for 10 years. I started very young, and trust me, there is no more suffering in existence than being a slave to lust. It took me years to realise this. If you honestly think drug addiction or alcohol addiction is close to porn addiction, you are an insane person. It’s not even close, and people who are addicted or have been addicted know this.

Trust me, porn is a source you can’t win with knowledge; you need to stop reacting. Porn is the closest thing to wholeness, which is why it is hard not to be an addict. If humans knew when they were born that they are already whole and complete, no addiction would ever exist unconsciously.

I only respect people who have overcome addiction. I don’t give a shit if your parents died when you were 9 years old; addiction is more suffering than your whole trauma.

 

Edited 5 hours ago by Monster Energy

[Leo Gura]

What do you mean by addiction?

How much were you watching it?

[BlessedLion]

Yeah porn addiction is very gnarly and hard to beat. People have said quitting heroine was easier

[LordFall]

How exactly is this causing you to suffer? I got a girlfriend and slept with dozens of women while still watching porn daily at times. I think in general not accomplishing your goals will make you miserable, blaming porn as a scapegoat for all your life's failures is inaccurate in my experience and a weird fixation of the NoFap crowd. 

I've tried going off of it for 75 days was my longest streak and I was happy I could prove to myself I could quit but I didn't notice any significant difference in my day-to-day life.

I was promised boundless energy and laser-sharp discipline by the NoFap crowd but I think it was about neutral for my work ethic since it made me jittery and anxious without an easy way to release that stress. 

Edited 4 hours ago by LordFall

[Monster Energy]

1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

What do you mean by addiction?

How much were you watching it?

By addiction, I really mean that you feel in your soul that you have to watch porn. Otherwise, something feels wrong. You treat porn like water for survival. You feel like you need it to survive. It’s a horrible experience.

Two hours every day for 10 years. Masturbating more than four times a day.

 

 

[Monster Energy]

46 minutes ago, BlessedLion said:

Yeah porn addiction is very gnarly and hard to beat. People have said quitting heroine was easier

You’re very blessed not to be a slave to this crap.

 

[Monster Energy]

15 minutes ago, LordFall said:

How exactly is this causing you to suffer? I got a girlfriend and slept with dozens of women while still watching porn daily at times. I think in general not accomplishing your goals will make you miserable, blaming porn as a scapegoat for all your life's failures is inaccurate in my experience and a weird fixation of the NoFap crowd. 

I've tried going off of it for 75 days was my longest streak and I was happy I could prove to myself I could quit but I didn't notice any significant difference in my day-to-day life.

I was promised boundless energy and laser-sharp discipline by the NoFap crowd but I think it was about neutral for my work ethic since it made me jittery and anxious without an easy way to release that stress. 

You were never actually addicted. Addiction means that you feel compelled to do something even when you genuinely don’t want to. The reason you didn’t feel any different after 75 days is because you were never truly addicted to porn in the first place. If you had actually been addicted, 75 days would have made you feel like you had been reborn. You didn’t feel that way because you already had a lot of energy as your baseline, and you already felt a strong sense of wholeness without needing external experiences.

 

[Majed]

@Monster Energy

10 minutes ago, Monster Energy said:

Two hours every day for 10 years. Masturbating more than four times a day.

The shit i read on this forum...

[Monster Energy]

Just now, Majed said:

@Monster Energy

The shit i read on this forum...

I did it 15 times in one day once. I felt compelled to do it rather than doing it out of my own free will. I could feel the life being drained out of me each time I masturbated.

 

[Majed]

@Monster Energy

Just now, Monster Energy said:

I did it 15 times in one day once. I felt compelled to do it rather than doing it out of my own free will. I could feel the life being drained out of me each time I masturbated.

Bro...

[Leo Gura]

14 minutes ago, Monster Energy said:

Two hours every day for 10 years. Masturbating more than four times a day.

Yeah... that's a bit much.

[Monster Energy]

Just now, Leo Gura said:

Yeah... that's a bit much.

It’s a miracle to break free from this pattern. Many people might choose to end their lives because the mental struggle can be incredibly intense.

 

[Leo Gura]

6 minutes ago, Monster Energy said:

It’s a miracle to break free from this pattern. Many people might choose to end their lives because the mental struggle can be incredibly intense.

 

Well, congrats!

[Monster Energy]

1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

Well, congrats!

Thank you, it means a lot.

 

[Leo Gura]

@Monster Energy

[Monster Energy]

1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

@Monster Energy

 

[LordFall]

50 minutes ago, Monster Energy said:

You were never actually addicted. Addiction means that you feel compelled to do something even when you genuinely don’t want to. The reason you didn’t feel any different after 75 days is because you were never truly addicted to porn in the first place. If you had actually been addicted, 75 days would have made you feel like you had been reborn. You didn’t feel that way because you already had a lot of energy as your baseline, and you already felt a strong sense of wholeness without needing external experiences.

 

Yes, that's fair I was never addicted that badly.

How come you don't get into pickup? If you know you can meet women to fuck semi-consistently then porn becomes less of an attractive product. If you're a virgin or have a low body count and you don't know how to hookup with women then of course you're gonna pedestalize sex and watching other people have it is gonna become one of the highlights of your life. 

I used to have this routine when I was depressed where I would wake up, go out walk by the lake and get a coffee, then smoke some weed, watch youtube videos for intellectual stimulation then watch porn when I got bored and take a nap. I would repeat this 2-3 times a day until tomorrow came and would burn days without doing anything but still having more or less a good time.

I got out of it well because literally I was gonna get evicted and stopped having enough money to pay rent and my roommate had to cover for me a couple of times and the shame got too much so I stopped coping and got on top of my shit.

Are your parents funding your lifestyle? That's an extremely tricky situation that I see a few men fall into and without survival pressure there is really no big pressing need to stop the loop of coping and self-destruction. 

Edited 3 hours ago by LordFall

[museumoftrees]

How many days have you been porn free?

[Olaf]

@Monster Energy congrats man! Doing the Lord's work! 

[Carl-Richard]

4 hours ago, Monster Energy said:

If you honestly think drug addiction or alcohol addiction is close to porn addiction, you are an insane person. It’s not even close, and people who are addicted or have been addicted know this.

Why are you so hyperbolic in every post you make? 😆

(I know you will post-hoc narrow down what you said to the pure behavioral/habitual aspects and not "peripheral" things like cognitive/health effects, but you made your bed, now lie in it):

I know three people my age that I've interacted with at multiple occasions that all died before they filled 30 years old (possibly more that I don't know about). Drugs were involved. If you want to tell me porn addiction is more likely the cause or is even in the same category, you don't know what drugs are.