Urge to smoke weed.

[shubhamsharma]

A little of my background. I was addicted to weed for 4 and half years when I was in Canada. Now, it has been three years that I came back to India my home country. I have not been working since then. I am relying on my family for my basic needs like food and shelter. I have an urge to smoke hashish everyday but my family isn't allowing me to smoke weed or hash. They put restrictions on me. Also I am on my anti psychotic medication. I don't know what should I do. 

[LordFall]

I would deconstruct the urge. What specifically calls you towards it? Weed is mostly a shortcut to inner calmness due to flooding your brain with dopamine. If you meditate a lot you can find similar peace but it'll just be way harder.

I also struggle with a weed addiction and I go on and off by the week. You're not missing out on too much, it's nice but is mostly a coping mechanism. 

[shubhamsharma]

2 minutes ago, LordFall said:

I would deconstruct the urge. What specifically calls you towards it? Weed is mostly a shortcut to inner calmness due to flooding your brain with dopamine. If you meditate a lot you can find similar peace but it'll just be way harder.

I also struggle with a weed addiction and I go on and off by the week. You're not missing out on too much, it's nice but is mostly a coping mechanism. 

@LordFall I think it makes me calm and relax that is why I want to smoke. I can't meditate because I am on anti psychotic medication. Medication makes me so restless. 

[LordFall]

Wouldn't meditation under anti-psychotic medication be perfect for you? It stops you from relapsing into another psychotic outbreak while still being able to integrate your psyche and explore nonduality.

Just stop doing crazy shit like running naked into the street. It's just bad gameplay. Think of yourself as God playing a human video game chracter. If you fuck up your human's life you are fucked, doesn't matter if your ultimate self is not affected in the grand schemes of things. If you meditate under anti-psychosis you will probably still experience a sort of mini psychosis because ultimately the experience is not caused by chemicals going haywire in your brain; it's due to awakening. Just integrate the lessons sober before you go hardcore into meditation.

Someone completely sober can induce psychosis in themselves just by what they think about. Just be careful of having already figured out grounding mechanisms before you start to engage in spiritual practice. It sounds silly but masturbating is one of my mechanisms. As long as you do it privately it will ground you because it will reinforce the paradigm that we are currently operating under i.e. we are both human males and woman are sexy and you wanna fuck them. If you deconstruct it further then you can realize that women are just a figment of your greatest self but that doesn't really matter since it's a great part of reality and you should accept that boundary to remain a sane human being able to function in reality. 

[shubhamsharma]

13 minutes ago, LordFall said:

Wouldn't meditation under anti-psychotic medication be perfect for you? It stops you from relapsing into another psychotic outbreak while still being able to integrate your psyche and explore nonduality.

Just stop doing crazy shit like running naked into the street. It's just bad gameplay. Think of yourself as God playing a human video game chracter. If you fuck up your human's life you are fucked, doesn't matter if your ultimate self is not affected in the grand schemes of things. If you meditate under anti-psychosis you will probably still experience a sort of mini psychosis because ultimately the experience is not caused by chemicals going haywire in your brain; it's due to awakening. Just integrate the lessons sober before you go hardcore into meditation.

Someone completely sober can induce psychosis in themselves just by what they think about. Just be careful of having already figured out grounding mechanisms before you start to engage in spiritual practice. It sounds silly but masturbating is one of my mechanisms. As long as you do it privately it will ground you because it will reinforce the paradigm that we are currently operating under i.e. we are both human males and woman are sexy and you wanna fuck them. If you deconstruct it further then you can realize that women are just a figment of your greatest self but that doesn't really matter since it's a great part of reality and you should accept that boundary to remain a sane human being able to function in reality. 

It would be perfect but I don't go real deep even though I have done psychedelics before. Thanks for rest of the advice.