The dumbest collective shit test

[LordFall]

8 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

I mean that my basic comfort zone is quite empty and passive, "dysthymic"; by extension I have little interest in sexuality unless I deprive myself of orgasm for days or fantasize about paraphilias or almost.

Sometimes I can feel myself drawn into a "vibe", but it's episodic and short-lived.

I couldn't say exactly where it comes from, the genesis of a belief system is complicated and repressed, but what i can say already is that the secondary benefit seems to be that it avoids suffering.

I never suffer greatly; it's almost as if my parents could die and it wouldn't hurt me that much, I would easily find a psychic place to take shelter; if what I'm saying makes sense.

Likewise my friends (who are my mirrors! In denial; non-duality all that) are often suffering. They talk about depression, taking antidepressants, drugs, sometimes even suicide; and me as I'm in my dysthymic ivory tower, I can spout long rational sentences with a stoic air, hidden behind my computer and my coconut acai Red Bull.

I can relate to a lot of this, especially before I started my journey. The first thing that jumps to me is well yeah if you watch porn especially hardcore porn daily then that's gonna take a sledgehammer to your dopamine reward system and make sexuality feel flat. 

If you're into particularly unorthodox paraphilias it's perhaps helpful to deconstruct that as it'll point you towards different parts of your psyche that you're unaware of. This is a good Teal Swan video where she talks on it. You don't have to open your whole closet of skeletons in public but perhaps AI can help you deconstruct it.

 @Sugarcoat Fair enough. I did miss your comment about letting the sexual energy build up instead of needing to transmute it into action. I'll ponder on that, I had an interesting experience yesterday going out with basically my nervous system lighting on fire and experiencing full body bliss while I was meditating at an outdoor event. It was quite wonderful, never experienced something like that before. Even expanding on my inner thoughts in this thread has been liberating for me as it's things I've thought about but not really expressed in this much depth before. 

The conclusion I came to is I have perhaps more libido than the average person and need to build a bigger container than most to express it. 

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[integral]

26 minutes ago, LordFall said:

Seems like you're not a fan of chaos in general and run from it.

Nope, your using frame control to put your self in the higher position in every situation while misrepresenting what people say and diagnosing them.

18 minutes ago, LordFall said:

What I'm pointing to is becoming a powerful person in your local community and the world as a whole. Dating is the intimacy based part of it and social circle/social media is the communal, business and global impact side of it. To me what's what a stage yellow developed life looks like. 

Thats your vision for yourself. I also think your ENFJ not INTP, seems to fit better based on your vision.

But there is no point saying this, you will tell me why your right and im wrong while diagnosing my mind as victim mindset.

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[LordFall]

6 minutes ago, integral said:

Nope, your using frame control to put your self in the higher position in every situation while misrepresenting what people say.

Thats your vision for yourself. I also think your ENFJ not INTP, seems to fit better based on your vision.

But there is no point saying this, you will tell me why your right and im wrong while diagnosing my mind as victim mindset.

Brother I think you're projecting. I've admitted to being wrong and still learning in my journey many times in this thread. You're refused to admit that your perspective might be wrong and tripled down on it. 

I'm definitely an INTP, just more ambitious than most I would say. This is my passion and what I've spend over a decade building. I have not much ego tied in it, I have a lot of thoughts on it because this is what I spend my days working on and thinking about and I've met hundreds of people in the field and thus have a lot of reference experience to pull from. 

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[Schizophonia]

28 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Maybe if you talk to a girl sometime and you feeling a little something, you could tell her what you just wrote 😂 If you find that you do truly believe that, then you could OWN it totally, maybe she will like the genuine expression.

Yes I understand, it's still a form of confidence.

It takes guts to admit your weaknesses, shortcomings, etc.; it subtly, unconsciously shows that you're ready to assert yourself.

I'll still remove the "suck my dick" part lol

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im just a weirdo,

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because im not really thrown off by these things, id rather a guy be "confidently insecure" than "insecurely confident" if you get what im saying HAHHHHAHAHAAH.

I understand eheh; it's two different styles. 

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Dont trust me when it comes to applying it to other women tho

At least I'll know how to please Sugarcoat from the Actualized forum who hangs upside down to solve her back problems.

(or something like that, I forgot)

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[Sugarcoat]

3 minutes ago, LordFall said:

 

 @Sugarcoat Fair enough. I did miss your comment about letting the sexual energy build up instead of needing to transmute it into action. I'll ponder on that, I had an interesting experience yesterday going out with basically my nervous system lighting on fire and experiencing full body bliss while I was meditating at an outdoor event. It was quite wonderful, never experienced something like that before. Even expanding on my inner thoughts in this thread has been liberating for me as it's things I've thought about but not really expressed in this much depth before. 

The conclusion I came to is I have perhaps more libido than the average person and need to build a bigger container than most to express it. 

I like the oppenness you convey here. That experience you describe sounds really enriching. I can relate to what you said about having positive experience of writing in this forum, it was definitely not like that for me a lot of the time, but recently yes. It does something special internally when we articulate ourselves in a way that feels true to us, without forcing it too much. 

I didnt quite get what you meant with the very last part of the last sentence but its fine

[Schizophonia]

17 minutes ago, LordFall said:

 

@Schizophonia All good bro the rest happens in your real life. What are you gonna do this week and this month to take action on what we've talked about?

 

Buy the Oculus Rift to watch 4D porn

No jk; I will take photos to do a Hinge account.

I'm also going to find a social activity to do; at least to try.

17 minutes ago, LordFall said:

 

If you find it worth it to develop these connections organically then I 100% know you can do it. The rest is on you frero. 

 

Merci frero

Wallah

17 minutes ago, LordFall said:

 

Also to touch on the asexual comment once more hopefully you're not watching too much porn. It's very easy to suppress your libido through that especially adding neuroticism unto it. 

No I don't watch porn regularly.

[Sugarcoat]

6 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Yes I understand, it's still a form of confidence.

It takes guts to admit your weaknesses, shortcomings, etc.; it subtly, unconsciously shows that you're ready to assert yourself.

I'll still remove the "suck my dick" part lol

Yes

I understand eheh; it's two different styles. 

At least I'll know how to please Sugarcoat from the Actualized forum who hangs upside down to solve her back problems.

(or something like that, I forgot)

AHHAHHA

I have become more and more able to see good in people I think, its not about you "pleasing me" 😆

Hanging is good sometimes but not too much....Dont know why u feel need to bring in details about me in your replies sometimes

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[Schizophonia]

10 minutes ago, integral said:

Nope, your using frame control to put your self in the higher position in every situation while misrepresenting what people say and diagnosing them.

You're the one who used what I was saying to explain how amazing your sex life was and that I needed to "become a man".

In general these are the kinds of language that we avoid saying to someone's face because they start to be tendancious.

[integral]

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

In general these are the kinds of language that we avoid saying to someone's face because they start to be tendancious.

Why did you care how it was said?

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[Schizophonia]

6 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

AHHAHHA

I have become more and more able to see good in people I think, its not about you "pleasing me" 😆

I hope my aura gives off enough good vibes.

6 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Hanging is good sometimes but not too much....

It's a remnant of your last incarnation as a bat with your schizoidy.

6 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Dont know why u feel need to bring in details about me in your replies sometimes

To simp obviously. 

[integral]

13 minutes ago, LordFall said:

Brother I think you're projecting. I've admitted to being wrong and still learning in my journey many times in this thread. You're refused to admit that your perspective might be wrong and tripled down on it. 

I'm definitely an INTP, just more ambitious than most I would say. This is my passion and what I've spend over a decade building. I have not much ego tied in it, I have a lot of thoughts on it because this is what I spend my days working on and thinking about and I've met hundreds of people in the field and thus have a lot of reference experience to pull from. 

Nope we were talking about the same thing, you just read what i wrote from a victim mindset.

The other topic you made on bpd woman is the chaos i was talking about avoiding and to be selective when who you allow into your life.

[LordFall]

7 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I like the oppenness you convey here. That experience you describe sounds really enriching. I can relate to what you said about having positive experience of writing in this forum, it was definitely not like that for me a lot of the time, but recently yes. It does something special internally when we articulate ourselves in a way that feels true to us, without forcing it too much. 

I didnt quite get what you meant with the very last part of the last sentence but its fine

I just mean that I seem to have more sexual energy and desire to explore with different people more than the average person. Dating people in a polycule would be stressful and chaotic for most people but to me that sounds exciting and fulfilling.

@Natasha Tori Maru is right that I tend to portray my way as the best one, I should be better in how I communicate. I mean to say that the problems I've seen talked about in this thread I have also encountered and I aim to share the solutions I have found to break through them for those that so desire. 

9 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Buy the Oculus Rift to watch 4D porn

No jk; I will take photos to do a Hinge account.

I'm also going to find a social activity to do; at least to try.

Merci frero

Wallah

No I don't watch porn regularly.

Good you got this. Here is a good video on the types of pictures you should be going for to have a well rounded profile

 

[Schizophonia]

3 minutes ago, integral said:

Why did you care how it was said?

Because I'm not fooled I see the hidden intentions; and I didn't have to explicit them because you just projected them onto LordFall.

The projection always reveals more about the projector than about the object.

[integral]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

Because I'm not fooled I see the hidden intentions; and I didn't have to explicit them because you just projected them onto LordFall.

The projection always reveals more about the projector than about the object.

lordfall just speaks in a way that makes you feel good.

You're following whoever makes you feel good, it's all vibes.

[Schizophonia]

3 minutes ago, LordFall said:

Good you got this. Here is a good video on the types of pictures you should be going for to have a well rounded profile

 

Thanks that's kind. I added it to my favorites to watch later

I'll take care of it on Tuesday when I'm not working and I'll post on the forum.

Shame on me if I don't.

[integral]

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Because I'm not fooled I see the hidden intentions; and I didn't have to explicit them because you just projected them onto LordFall.

The projection always reveals more about the projector than about the object.

Do you honestly think my hidden intention was to make myself feel good by impressing you with how much sex I have gotten in my life?

While LordFall talks about the 50 women he slept with?

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[Sugarcoat]

8 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

To simp obviously. 

Dont 😬😁

 

[LordFall]

16 minutes ago, integral said:

Why did you care how it was said?

9 minutes ago, integral said:

lordfall just speaks in a way that makes you feel good.

You're following whoever makes you feel good, it's all vibes.

I mean before I say this I wanna emphasize I do not see this as frame control and I am going through this in good faith but clearly you lack some emotional intelligence bro.

Don't you see how this is going full circle to how you feel about people as a whole? This was a perfect showcase. You're not empathizing with Schizophonia you're like hitting him with statements. That's not how any type of growth based conversation or coaching is done. 

 

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[integral]

1 minute ago, LordFall said:

Don't you see how this is going full circle to how you feel about people as a whole? This was a perfect showcase. You're not empathizing with Schizophrenia you're like hitting him with statements. That's not how any type of growth based conversation or coaching is done. 

I asked him that question for him to reflect, not because I don't understand the answer.

I'm not here to babysit people, I said something cuz I'm casually speaking.

You're writing virtuous paragraphs like your Tony Robbins, I'm not doing that right now.

[Schizophonia]

3 minutes ago, integral said:

Do you honestly think my hidden intention was to make myself feel good by impressing you with how much sex I have gotten in my life?

While LordFall talks about the 50 women he slept with?

He said it like "look what's possible" whereas your message was more twisterd and looked a bit more like an attempt to crush me.

I could tell myself it's a projection of my own paranoia and that's true, but you actually confirmed it by projecting onto LordFall that he was trying to present himself as superior to others; you fell into the mousetrap.

 

I think he could say everything he said face to face, but you probably can't tell me face to face the message you posted.

Anyway.

10 minutes ago, integral said:

lordfall just speaks in a way that makes you feel good.

You're following whoever makes you feel good, it's all vibes.

No he's the one who posts useful links like this video on how to create a good Hinge profile, the site about Telegram accounts for pick-up artists, or even his Instagram which can be inspiring.

I'll stop there because I don't want to get into an argument with you that would be a shame.