I have been considering taking my own life

[zaki]

A bit of background about me: I was born and raised in Somalia. I used to watch Leo since I was 14/15. I moved to the UK about three years ago. I lost my brother due to suicide two years ago. I have left islam and I'm not sure whether I'll be able to stay in the UK or not. I have been doing deep research on how I can take my life painlessly. I have no family around. Everything feels meaningless. I didn't think it’d get to this point three year ago. You'd be surprised how ambitious and hard-working I was. I'm in pain and just want to go. I know it’s a cowardly thing to do, but the world isn't nice and we're all going to die anyways. 

[Basman]

Do you have anyone you can speak to?

[Natasha Tori Maru]

25 minutes ago, Basman said:

Do you have anyone you can speak to?

Seconding this - are professionals available to speak to? 

We know not everyone is privileged enough to have access to help. 

You are looking for a permanent solution to a temporary state. No states last forever - please know this ❤️ 

[Someone here]

Please tell us more. From what you’ve shared so far..it’s hard to understand what has brought you to the point where you feel there is absolutely no other option except ending your life.
And honestly..my answer is a firm and heartfelt NO. please don’t do it.

I know you must be carrying an incredible amount of pain to even be thinking about suicide. But pain can convince us that there is no hope when in reality there are still paths  that we simply cannot see in our darkest moments.

Please don’t isolate yourself. Try not to spend long periods alone .Go outside if you can.. be around kind and caring people even if it’s just for a little while.

I also strongly encourage you to seek professional help. Talking to a therapist and if appropriate considering antidepressants can be life changing. You don’t have to carry this burden by yourself.

Most importantly.. be gentle with yourself. Love yourself even if it feels impossible right now. Accept yourself with all your scars..blind spots..mistakes..fears..and wounds.Give yourself the love you’ve been longing to receive from others. Nobody can love you more than yourself . 

And if you feel comfortable please open up a little more about what’s making you feel this way. What is causing so much pain that suicide seems like the only answer? Right now it’s not entirely clear from what you’ve share and understanding your situation better might help others support you more effectively.

i wish you happy long life with peace in your heart . If you need someone to listen my inbox is open . You don’t have to go through this alone .