Hostile Dream

[Snt_lk]

Under what pretense can the dream become extremely hostile- seemingly like all people around you are  hostile towards you - either covertly or overtly?

 

Do I carry all this hostility  in my person and therefore it is outwardly displayed or are there other pretense where it can seemingly out of no where become hostile.

[ivankiss]

Violent dreams often equal rude awakenings.

[Sincerity]

I think you'd either have to be of 1) very advanced consciousness and sharing your truth in a "dangerous" manner to the unawake minds...

... or 2) of low and inwardly-hostile consciousness. I once met a person of the second sort. This is a long story, but in short she was a homeless woman of around 50 years old, she was desperate to kill herself (had multiple attempts which all failed), she was very "unlucky" all the time in life and very vengeful towards people who she felt were wronging them. She felt she was being wronged by people all the time - and something might have been to it, because after some time of talking to her I got really strong feelings of hatred towards her, like I was imagining kicking her and stuff. I've never experienced such a person before. My girlfriend who is more into a kind of esoteric spirituality had me go to her trusted professional cleanser because she was feeling like I was haunted by her after that meeting lol. It could have been true - I was thinking about her often. I went to that guy kinda indifferent, I'm not really into the esoteric stuff, but sure enough after that cleansing session she mostly vanished from my mind.

I actually remembered her for the first time in a while last week. When I thought about her, I felt there really was a strange, deep-seated evil to her. How interesting. 

Edited Friday at 10:05 PM by Sincerity

[Sugarcoat]

I find the more insecure and fearful you are, the more hostile you perceive people and the world to be. 

[Hojo]

I have been severely mentally ill it feels like everyone is hostile towards you because you perceive it as happening. So it can happen but it will be on a metaphysical level.

Basically you become so insane that you don't give people breathing room to be people. If someone makes a weird face its cause they are angry and don't like you. If someone says something minorly rude they hate you forever.

When you perceive life like this you act like its happening and people like you less.

Edited yesterday at 12:07 AM by Hojo

[Snt_lk]

@ivankiss how rude we talkin’

[Snt_lk]

@Sincerity this is deep but I’m a mix of 1 and 2 .. is there room for grey

[Snt_lk]

@Hojo insanity is a bit of a cop out ..can we elaborate

[Deziree]

The “hostile crowd” represents the parts of yourself that feel betrayed, ignored, or unloved.

[ivankiss]

3 hours ago, Snt_lk said:

@ivankiss how rude we talkin’

How hostile or violent?

[Snt_lk]

@Deziree bing -o

[Sincerity]

4 hours ago, Snt_lk said:

@Sincerity this is deep but I’m a mix of 1 and 2 .. is there room for grey

I’d say you’re either one or the other.

You’re almost surely not 1. In fact, I think no one on the forum is, including Leo.

[vibv]

16 hours ago, Sincerity said:

I actually remembered her for the first time in a while last week. When I thought about her, I felt there really was a strange, deep-seated evil to her. How interesting. 

This, too, is an opportunity to Love.

[Sincerity]

13 minutes ago, vibv said:

This, too, is an opportunity to Love.

From a distance, I can "love" her for sure. 

However, can I love her in the sense of being around her more? Would I willingly invite more of her energy into me? No.

In my eyes, a true Love is all-inviting. All-encompassing. All-embracing.

Mine isn't that. I don't wanna meet her again. This is my limit.

[vibv]

@Sincerity

14 minutes ago, Sincerity said:

From a distance, I can "love" her for sure. 

However, can I love her in the sense of being around her more? Would I willingly invite more of her energy into me? No.

In my eyes, a true Love is all-inviting. All-encompassing. All-embracing.

Mine isn't that. I don't wanna meet her again. This is my limit.

What you just described is Love. The only thing partial about it is that you don't accept yourself for it, hence the projection onto her. This is not about her. She's merely a mirror for yourself.

Look very closely and see, that she can't give you anything. It's all YOU. Echoes of your Soul.

You can keep the distance and Love her and Love yourself for it, too. You see?

And only after that you'll be ready to stand before her and you'll see that there was nothing to fear in the first place.

Edited 17 hours ago by vibv

[Sincerity]

23 minutes ago, vibv said:

@Sincerity

What you just described is Love. The only thing partial about it is that you don't accept yourself for it, hence the projection onto her. This is not about her. She's merely a mirror for yourself.

Look very closely and see, that she can't give you anything. It's all YOU. Echoes of your Soul.

You can keep the distance and Love her and Love yourself for it, too. You see?

And only after that you'll be ready to stand before her and you'll see that there was nothing to fear in the first place.

You're right. And your words sparkle with loving insight.

Thank you for the reminder. Much love.

Edited 17 hours ago by Sincerity

[vibv]

9 minutes ago, Sincerity said:

You're right. And your words sparkle with loving insight.

Thank you for the reminder. Much love.

 Glad that it worked.

[ivankiss]

Alright, alright, what is going on here?

I just woke up from the most epic, most brutal "Ivan against the world" type of dream.

Literally everyone was trying to kill me, and failing. I had no time piss even. Let alone catch my breath.

Jesus fucking Christ.

Thank God it was just a dream, right? 

... right ??!!

[vibv]

3 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Alright, alright, what is going on here?

I just woke up from the most epic, most brutal "Ivan against the world" type of dream.

Literally everyone was trying to kill me, and failing. I had no time piss even. Let alone catch my breath.

Jesus fucking Christ.

Thank God it was just a dream, right? 

... right ??!!

You got 3 hours