The Infinite Library - My Biggest Fear

[Emerald]

I was perusing @Leo Gura's blog. And I ran across the post with the video about Borges' idea of the infinite library.

The idea is that there's an infinitely large library that contains every single combination of letters that could ever be.

So, most of the books in the library are totally unintelligible with completely random letters. But every book that currently exists, exists in the library as well... as well as many many versions of those books with just one character difference. And even the story of your exact life (from birth until death) exists in the library.

It's an interesting idea that I'd thought on in a lesser detailed version of "10,000 monkeys tapping away on typewriters will eventually produce all the works of Shakespeare." But it explored that idea in much deeper detail. I'll post the video below because it's definitely worth a share.

But the idea of the Infinite Library is a close symbolic representation of a common theme that comes up in my medicine journeys... and which comes up in other forms in multiple points in my life. And facing it in my medicine journeys has revealed it to be my greatest fear... with a fear a million times greater than that of death.

And in one of my medicine journeys, it showed me that this fear of the "infinite library" and specifically the infinite numbers of books in that library that contained so much suffering was the reason why the infinite consciousness contracted itself and convinced itself to be this particular avatar in the first place.

In the medicine journeys it always shows up as a constant changing of inconsistent scenes where it's like one scene doesn't relate to the next at all. So, it's like an inundation of billions of realities that are all happening all at once forever... and constantly shifting and changing where one moment is totally dissimilar for the rest. It's just like having all the books in the infinite library playing out all at once without anything linking them.

It's been infinite knowledge of all realities that have ever been all flashing before me chaotically in a way where no meaning can exist. And during these times, I had to remind myself on a moment by moment basis that "This experience will pass" just to get through those experiences.

And all of my life has felt like this journey towards expansion into infinite knowledge... which my life's purpose is to contract and to embrace mystery and limitation. But my curiosity leads me into more and more and more and more expansion. And only fear of the infinite library leads me into contraction... which is the wiser direction.

And the chaos and meaninglessness of the everythingness of the infinite is SOOO much more difficult than the experience of ego death.

But what's interesting is that the Infinite Library has popped up for me in unexpected places outside of medicine journeys. (Bearing in mind that I didn't experience the everythingness in my medicine journeys until I was 30)

Like, once when I was 11 years old, I had a blank video tape. And I had a television with a built in VCR where I could record on blank tapes. So, I thought it would be a very interesting idea to just push record for like 1 second at a time at random as I watched tv. So, I ended up producing a video tape that was nothing but a bunch of flashing images that have no connection to one another... a much less intimidating version of the medicine journey visions.

Then, when I was 21 and I was in my BA portfolio class (during my senior year of college as an art major), I came up with this idea to do these three animations made from 29 large paintings. And the animations were short 3 second videos... and just of people where I filmed their reaction to me candidly filming them. So, one of the animations was 9 paintings and the other two animations had 10 paintings each. And the idea was to try to push the visuals as far away as possible from one another but to still have the animation read smoothly. And I was trying to make all the paintings totally different to where there was not clear aesthetic linking them together. And I even got into a bit of a resistance to one of my professor's critiques that my backgrounds didn't show "everythingness" like I attempted to capture. And once I got through with those paintings, I got disgusted with art and it lost most of its meaning to me. I was also pregnant at the time and didn't know yet... so I chalked by disgust up to having to push my creative energy outward and diffuse it instead of internalizing it for my pregnancy. But I still haven't been able to find much meaning in art... or in images in general.

I even went to a Reiki healer a few years back... which I've always been a fence-sitter about these kinds of practices but enjoy engaging in them none-the-less. And without telling her anything about this, she told me that there seems to be a rip in my aura where the boundary-line between my temporal perspective and the source's perspective has been breeched... and that it was creating a dynamic like an open aperture where too much of the infinite was flowing into my temporal perspective and making it difficult to differentiate myself from the source.

Also, the inundation of social media videos and images... AI slop and shortform content has made all of the videos that I've created feel somehow meaningless to me. Before, I saw my YouTube channel as meaningful. But now, I feel like my channel and my words have lost all meaning... as has all information and teachings in books, videos, and creative projects in general.

And I have spent many years of my life trying to lean into my rarity and uniqueness as a person to try set myself aside from other people. Like, as a teenager, I had to believe that I was the rarest person on the planet... and I tried to hyper-specify my personality. But in recent years, I've been trying to integrate ordinariness (which I always avoided for fear of becoming just another spec in the white noise and my life losing meaning). But it was through ordinariness that I got to feel deeply interconnected with humanity, nature, and the universe at large.

So, it changed my perspective entirely on averageness and ordinariness... and helped me recognize that everything extraordinary has only and will only ever come through my embrace of the ordinary and of imperfect humanity.

I think one of my main issues is that I have some kind of deep-seated belief like, "Only rare things are meaningful." And in a sense, this is how humans create meaning... despite that not being reflective of what's true in the absolute sense. Humans will find more meaning in books that make sense. But from the higher perspective, a book of sense-making and a book of gibberish are of equal validity. And without them, the entire premise of the library would be undermined.

So, the Infinite Library video found me at a good time... as I feel like I'm really contending with some kind of identity loss because I no longer feel much differentiated from the next person. And that's a good thing, I think. But in the interim of letting go of identity as a differentiating agent... there is a real sense of losing meaning and losing the old coping strategies that are served through the creation of that meaning.

But I like the idea in the video that every single book has meaning... even if it's not apparent. It's a new lens that can help me transcend the old lens as I have a real vibe about what that perspective is.

I've always tried to be one of the rare books in the library that actually make sense.... as that would make me better, scarcer, and more valuable compared to other books. And differentiation and proving my rarity and meaningfulness to myself was the coping game of my life... and there was SOO much meaning in that before. But now it is not that meaningful. That piece of gum has had all the flavor chewed out of it.

But I feel that this era of my life is about recognizing that I am indeed one of the common books with only random letters in it and that that makes me feel a sense of belonging within the library as it's unlikely that a book of gibberish is taken off the shelf and ogled at by library-goers, unlike the rare books that make sense.

Here's the video...

And here's one of my animations that I mentioned...

 

[Natasha Tori Maru]

I stood out for (what I perceived) unknown reasons through life. I did not enjoy it. I put no value in it. I only had a preference for creating. And I was always very detached from the things I created. I always perceived others as trying to get at me to understand the detached creation - I felt it an invasion.

So for a long while, I closed up. I put up walls. I went backwards from my initial detachment and formed a more solid identity. I became attached to a sense of self that formed much later on in life that most.

I suffered. So I started to seek. I drove back to the ordinary, boring, mundane self. I felt like, if I was seeking something - it would be in the last place I look. Where no one would think to look. What made me the SAME - and not different. Especially after realising this ID I had formed stole my creative power and seemed to generate suffering.

I went hard into the mundane. I was lead to no-self and a massive ego death nondual experience. Then from there, realising all I am is just this awareness - I found such unity and love. Because I am the same. We are the same. The same witness. 

I lost all aloneness in that place. Peace was in that place. In that mundane - where no one really looks... Creation was in that place. Potential.

I am not sure if this makes sense at all - it's just what came to me from your post. And my own failed interpretation of my own experience ❤️🌱

[Hojo]

I went to what I felt was the akashic records the infinite library on shroom and it felts cool as fuck. Its like a library where you upload your identity from. It was like getting power ups.

Like the identity and intelligence of Goku and the entire DBZ universe is located somewhere in the library. And you know exact where everything is without even thinking.

It felt like I was uploaded my identity to myself intelligently and deliberately. by picking specific algorythms of personality from the books.

I was doing it so fast I was simultaneously inside and outside the library at the same time.

Not only that but it felt like I went to different themes of infinite libraries.

A sigh of release can be seen by seeing you arent any of that, you are something way cooler.

Think of it like a harddrive. The content of the harddrive makes no sense and can be in different locations and still work. Things can be chaotic but ordered at the same time and the infinite library is like Gods harddrive. Your computer is working right now but acts in the same way.

If you looked at your harddrive code it would look like madness. Chaos with some words there but your harddrive is working perfectly.

Edited Sunday at 07:26 AM by Hojo

[Leo Gura]

3 hours ago, Emerald said:

But the idea of the Infinite Library is a close symbolic representation of a common theme that comes up in my medicine journeys... and which comes up in other forms in multiple points in my life. And facing it in my medicine journeys has revealed it to be my greatest fear... with a fear a million times greater than that of death.

What you're talking about is really THE core existential issue: consciousness of INFINITY.

The significance and gravity of INFINITY cannot be overstated. The entire purpose of existence is just realization of INFINITY. It is so profound it is way beyond meaning, it is about Being INFINITY.

If you realized INFINITY fully it would kill you. Way beyond ego death. Ego death is tiny compared to consciousness of INFINITY.

To fully embrace INFINITY means that you surrender resistance to any experience whatsoever. You accept that all experiences, all forms, are idenitical. That means you can experience burning children alive in a Nazi furnace with as much love as you can eating an ice cream cone. Because in your Consciousness all of this is identical. That is the Unity of God/Truth/Love.

A human self cannot accept INFINITY.

Truly, INFINITY is death. If you embraced INFINITY you would be dead, but you would also be in infinite paradise/Love. You are just too afraid to go fully INFINITE. So here you are, playing it small. That's what every human is.

INFINITY is not about meaning, it is about Being all things as once, because the Truth is that all things are identical. The ego cannot stand so much Identity and Unity. It literally kills the ego because the ego is built on assumed difference and bias.

The ultimate Truth is that you are EVERYTHING. But as a human you try to act otherwise, which is what creates all the psychological problems. You don't want to accept EVERYTHING. You don't want to accept your True Identity because it is literally death by Infinite Love.

That is why you are alive at all. If you accepted INFINITY you would already be dead.

This is not about meaning. This is about surrendering your fear to accept that YOU ARE EVERYTHING.

You do not need meaning. You need to realize you are INFINITY, and INFINITY is LOVE.

You don't need meaning because you ARE Infinite Love!

What you fear is Infinite Love! Which is just Yourself! Your biggest fear is just Yourself! Ta-daaaa!

You are infintiely big and that scares you to death.

How could I possibily know all this? 

Edited Sunday at 09:20 AM by Leo Gura

[Wilhelm44]

6 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

What you're talking about is really THE core existential issue: consciousness of INFINITY.

The significance and gravity of INFINITY cannot be overstated. The entire purpose of existence is just realization of INFINITY. It is so profound it is way beyond meaning, it is about Being INFINITY.

If you realized INFINITY fully it would kill you. Way beyond ego death. Ego death is tiny compared to consciousness of INFINITY.

To fully embrace INFINITY means that you surrender resistance to any experience whatsoever. You accept that all experiences, all forms, are idenitical. That means you can experience burning children alive in a Nazi furnace with as much love as you can eating an ice cream cone. Because in your Consciousness all of this is identical. That is the Unity of God/Truth/Love.

A human self cannot accept INFINITY.

Truly, INFINITY is death. If you embraced INFINITY you would be dead, but you would also be in infinite paradise/Love. You are just too afraid to go fully INFINITE. So here you are, playing it small. That's what every human is.

INFINITY is not about meaning, it is about Being all things as once, because the Truth is that all things are identical. The ego cannot stand so much Identity and Unity. It literally kills the ego because the ego is built on assumed difference and bias.

The ultimate Truth is that you are EVERYTHING. But as a human you try to act otherwise, which is what creates all the psychological problems. You don't want to accept EVERYTHING. You don't want to accept your True Identity because it is literally death by Infinite Love.

That is why you are alive at all. If you accepted INFINITY you would already be dead.

This is not about meaning. This is about surrendering your fear to accept that YOU ARE EVERYTHING.

You do not need meaning. You need to realize you are INFINITY, and INFINITY is LOVE.

You don't need meaning because you ARE Infinite Love!

What you fear is Infinite Love! Which is just Yourself! Your biggest fear is just Yourself! Ta-daaaa!

You are infintiely big and that scares you to death.

How could I possibily know all this? 

How come you are still alive ? 

[Hojo]

@Wilhelm44Hes not this is data, you are collecting from the infinite library thats static and frozen in time.

Like watching a youtube video, the youtube video is not the person ,its data thats frozen on a harddrive somewhere. Comments and people and interactions irl , are like a youtube video you are loading and the person isnt even there.

Its possible the person could be real, somewhere, and see and respond to a comment on a youtube video that is of them ,frozen in time from an earlier time. But the response isnt coming from the same page  the youtube video is on, its from someone in the future adding different data to a harddrive.

If you were to look at the page it would seem like the comments are seamless right after eachother but they were added to the interaction slowly and one at a time from different stages and perspectives in time.

No one can guranteed be alive as you cant even see them in real time. The brain has infinite lag on reality, it cant experience the present moment by definition in science. They are always in the future to us so they arent alive we cant know we cant sync up with them in the present moment ( which is the static harddrive)

When you see God you see that life is like a forum, and you are somewhere else looking at the forum from inside of a brain ,not in reality. Like on the forum, you arent the forum or in the forum, you are a representation of something outside the forum. Since you arent seeing it objectively, you are seeing it subjectively in a brain, you arent seeing reality itself, you are seeing a forum that you are outside of and no one is on or in it. You are away from objective reality like you are away from this forum.

Then you can throw away the idea of being in a brain somewhere, because you see you arent on the forum of life, and no one is, we are all representations of something outside, of the forum of light we live in.

Edited Sunday at 05:09 PM by Hojo

[WonderSeeker]

1 hour ago, Wilhelm44 said:

How come you are still alive ? 

He hasn't awoken to infinite crocodiles yet.

[WonderSeeker]

11 hours ago, Emerald said:

I was perusing @Leo Gura's blog. And I ran across the post with the video about Borges' idea of the infinite library.

The idea is that there's an infinitely large library that contains every single combination of letters that could ever be.

So, most of the books in the library are totally unintelligible with completely random letters. But every book that currently exists, exists in the library as well... as well as many many versions of those books with just one character difference. And even the story of your exact life (from birth until death) exists in the library.

It's an interesting idea that I'd thought on in a lesser detailed version of "10,000 monkeys tapping away on typewriters will eventually produce all the works of Shakespeare." But it explored that idea in much deeper detail. I'll post the video below because it's definitely worth a share.

But the idea of the Infinite Library is a close symbolic representation of a common theme that comes up in my medicine journeys... and which comes up in other forms in multiple points in my life. And facing it in my medicine journeys has revealed it to be my greatest fear... with a fear a million times greater than that of death.

And in one of my medicine journeys, it showed me that this fear of the "infinite library" and specifically the infinite numbers of books in that library that contained so much suffering was the reason why the infinite consciousness contracted itself and convinced itself to be this particular avatar in the first place.

In the medicine journeys it always shows up as a constant changing of inconsistent scenes where it's like one scene doesn't relate to the next at all. So, it's like an inundation of billions of realities that are all happening all at once forever... and constantly shifting and changing where one moment is totally dissimilar for the rest. It's just like having all the books in the infinite library playing out all at once without anything linking them.

It's been infinite knowledge of all realities that have ever been all flashing before me chaotically in a way where no meaning can exist. And during these times, I had to remind myself on a moment by moment basis that "This experience will pass" just to get through those experiences.

And all of my life has felt like this journey towards expansion into infinite knowledge... which my life's purpose is to contract and to embrace mystery and limitation. But my curiosity leads me into more and more and more and more expansion. And only fear of the infinite library leads me into contraction... which is the wiser direction.

And the chaos and meaninglessness of the everythingness of the infinite is SOOO much more difficult than the experience of ego death.

But what's interesting is that the Infinite Library has popped up for me in unexpected places outside of medicine journeys. (Bearing in mind that I didn't experience the everythingness in my medicine journeys until I was 30)

Like, once when I was 11 years old, I had a blank video tape. And I had a television with a built in VCR where I could record on blank tapes. So, I thought it would be a very interesting idea to just push record for like 1 second at a time at random as I watched tv. So, I ended up producing a video tape that was nothing but a bunch of flashing images that have no connection to one another... a much less intimidating version of the medicine journey visions.

Then, when I was 21 and I was in my BA portfolio class (during my senior year of college as an art major), I came up with this idea to do these three animations made from 29 large paintings. And the animations were short 3 second videos... and just of people where I filmed their reaction to me candidly filming them. So, one of the animations was 9 paintings and the other two animations had 10 paintings each. And the idea was to try to push the visuals as far away as possible from one another but to still have the animation read smoothly. And I was trying to make all the paintings totally different to where there was not clear aesthetic linking them together. And I even got into a bit of a resistance to one of my professor's critiques that my backgrounds didn't show "everythingness" like I attempted to capture. And once I got through with those paintings, I got disgusted with art and it lost most of its meaning to me. I was also pregnant at the time and didn't know yet... so I chalked by disgust up to having to push my creative energy outward and diffuse it instead of internalizing it for my pregnancy. But I still haven't been able to find much meaning in art... or in images in general.

I even went to a Reiki healer a few years back... which I've always been a fence-sitter about these kinds of practices but enjoy engaging in them none-the-less. And without telling her anything about this, she told me that there seems to be a rip in my aura where the boundary-line between my temporal perspective and the source's perspective has been breeched... and that it was creating a dynamic like an open aperture where too much of the infinite was flowing into my temporal perspective and making it difficult to differentiate myself from the source.

Also, the inundation of social media videos and images... AI slop and shortform content has made all of the videos that I've created feel somehow meaningless to me. Before, I saw my YouTube channel as meaningful. But now, I feel like my channel and my words have lost all meaning... as has all information and teachings in books, videos, and creative projects in general.

And I have spent many years of my life trying to lean into my rarity and uniqueness as a person to try set myself aside from other people. Like, as a teenager, I had to believe that I was the rarest person on the planet... and I tried to hyper-specify my personality. But in recent years, I've been trying to integrate ordinariness (which I always avoided for fear of becoming just another spec in the white noise and my life losing meaning). But it was through ordinariness that I got to feel deeply interconnected with humanity, nature, and the universe at large.

So, it changed my perspective entirely on averageness and ordinariness... and helped me recognize that everything extraordinary has only and will only ever come through my embrace of the ordinary and of imperfect humanity.

I think one of my main issues is that I have some kind of deep-seated belief like, "Only rare things are meaningful." And in a sense, this is how humans create meaning... despite that not being reflective of what's true in the absolute sense. Humans will find more meaning in books that make sense. But from the higher perspective, a book of sense-making and a book of gibberish are of equal validity. And without them, the entire premise of the library would be undermined.

So, the Infinite Library video found me at a good time... as I feel like I'm really contending with some kind of identity loss because I no longer feel much differentiated from the next person. And that's a good thing, I think. But in the interim of letting go of identity as a differentiating agent... there is a real sense of losing meaning and losing the old coping strategies that are served through the creation of that meaning.

But I like the idea in the video that every single book has meaning... even if it's not apparent. It's a new lens that can help me transcend the old lens as I have a real vibe about what that perspective is.

I've always tried to be one of the rare books in the library that actually make sense.... as that would make me better, scarcer, and more valuable compared to other books. And differentiation and proving my rarity and meaningfulness to myself was the coping game of my life... and there was SOO much meaning in that before. But now it is not that meaningful. That piece of gum has had all the flavor chewed out of it.

But I feel that this era of my life is about recognizing that I am indeed one of the common books with only random letters in it and that that makes me feel a sense of belonging within the library as it's unlikely that a book of gibberish is taken off the shelf and ogled at by library-goers, unlike the rare books that make sense.

Here's the video...

And here's one of my animations that I mentioned...

 

High quality post @Emerald , thanks for sharing.

Since going ultra-deep with psychs in recent months, I've started to lose touch with my sense of purpose.

That old bastard, infinity... he's such a double edged sword. It's so beautiful yet so cripplingly, unexplainably, get-wrenchingly terrifying.

[Xonas Pitfall]

10 minutes ago, WonderSeeker said:

He hasn't awoken to infinite crocodiles yet.

Infinite Crocodile Deity

[Emerald]

8 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

How could I possibily know all this? 

Is it because you're the special snowflake among us who is one of the only intelligible books in the library? 

I could interpret your question that way... and see you as doing what I've always tried to do in order to differentiate myself from others.... to be the identity that is special and rare among all other identities. It's to be the rarest and most valuable book in the library.

But maybe you mean it in a wiser way that actually reflects great humblings to your identity of being the rare person who wants Truth. And instead, you recognize that you don't really want Truth when you're faced directly with it.

That is what I realized. I want to live the illusion and be the avatar... and to have preference for one thing over the other. I want to be like a simple Hobbit who is born and dies in the shire and lives a finite life of great meaning.

Perhaps you ask this question because you too are admitting that you are alive because you are choosing to persist in the mundane human life because you do not really want to love and accept all things... and you recognize that you are still alive for that very reason.

Or perhaps you're saying that because you want me to know how special and different you are to prove yourself to be a more coherent book than others.

It really could be either one.

[Hojo]

@EmeraldYou can be your avatar as much as you want. You arent the infinite library you can leave it whenever you want.

Edited Sunday at 05:51 PM by Hojo

[Emerald]

10 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I stood out for (what I perceived) unknown reasons through life. I did not enjoy it. I put no value in it. I only had a preference for creating. And I was always very detached from the things I created. I always perceived others as trying to get at me to understand the detached creation - I felt it an invasion.

So for a long while, I closed up. I put up walls. I went backwards from my initial detachment and formed a more solid identity. I became attached to a sense of self that formed much later on in life that most.

I suffered. So I started to seek. I drove back to the ordinary, boring, mundane self. I felt like, if I was seeking something - it would be in the last place I look. Where no one would think to look. What made me the SAME - and not different. Especially after realising this ID I had formed stole my creative power and seemed to generate suffering.

I went hard into the mundane. I was lead to no-self and a massive ego death nondual experience. Then from there, realising all I am is just this awareness - I found such unity and love. Because I am the same. We are the same. The same witness. 

I lost all aloneness in that place. Peace was in that place. In that mundane - where no one really looks... Creation was in that place. Potential.

I am not sure if this makes sense at all - it's just what came to me from your post. And my own failed interpretation of my own experience ❤️🌱

This feels very relevant to me right now.

I have the sense that I will find the blooming that I'm looking for in the context of this Earthly life through the embrace of ordinariness and the mundane. 

But it's difficult because my MO since childhood up until the past few years is to seek to differentiate myself from others. It's like this underlying function of the gameplay to differentiate myself that I've always taken for granted.

But one of my medicine journeys revealed that embrace of ordinariness is what enables one to be a part of the sauce... belonging within humanity, nature, and the universe at large. And my underlying mechanism has always been to avoid blending in.

So, I think the "tv static" of the infinite everythingness... and the fact that it homogenizes EVERYTHING, no matter how mundane or divergent, REALLY disturbs me. But it is the path to integrating what has been left out in my desire to differentiate myself to have meaning in life.

But it's difficult for me to figure out how to embrace ordinariness... without undercutting what is real and authentic, which may (by happenstance) happen to diverge.

[Emerald]

5 minutes ago, Hojo said:

@EmeraldYou can be your avatar as much as you want.

That is true. 

[Emerald]

17 minutes ago, WonderSeeker said:

High quality post @Emerald , thanks for sharing.

Since going ultra-deep with psychs in recent months, I've started to lose touch with my sense of purpose.

That old bastard, infinity... he's such a double edged sword. It's so beautiful yet so cripplingly, unexplainably, get-wrenchingly terrifying.

Thank you!

It's very challenging to contract one's aperture enough to find meaning in the face of experiences of the infinite.

[Basman]

11 hours ago, Emerald said:

Also, the inundation of social media videos and images... AI slop and shortform content has made all of the videos that I've created feel somehow meaningless to me. Before, I saw my YouTube channel as meaningful. But now, I feel like my channel and my words have lost all meaning... as has all information and teachings in books, videos, and creative projects in general.

Why? AI needs you and other people's content to work. It can't make original or high quality work.

[Emerald]

10 hours ago, Hojo said:

Think of it like a harddrive. The content of the harddrive makes no sense and can be in different locations and still work. Things can be chaotic but ordered at the same time and the infinite library is like Gods harddrive. Your computer is working right now but acts in the same way.

If you looked at your harddrive code it would look like madness. Chaos with some words there but your harddrive is working perfectly.

I think that's a good metaphor for what's needed.

[Emerald]

Just now, Basman said:

Why? AI needs you and other people's content to work. It can't make original or high quality work.

It's just the many-ness of everything.

It's not specifically the way that AI does things... or even that it's AI.

AI just floods the internet with exponentially more videos and images that can be produced instantly... to add to all the videos and images that already exist. 

The main aversion to it is the exponential expansiveness and dilution of meaning through that expansiveness. That's the fear.

Plus, the way that Social media sites construct their sites over the past few years is one that feels more inundating than it was in previous years.

[Hojo]

@EmeraldGod is like realizing this infinite chaotic library was true but you already went through and decoded everything and put it in its place and you already know where it is and dont have to think about it. And you are way more intelligent than an infinitely chaotic library like this. It was like a puzzle and you already fininshed it. The proof is you existing right now.

Putting together the infinite random library is like a sundays grandma puzzle for God.

Edited Sunday at 06:12 PM by Hojo

[Wilhelm44]

1 hour ago, Hojo said:

@Wilhelm44Hes not this is data, you are collecting from the infinite library thats static and frozen in time.

Like watching a youtube video, the youtube video is not the person ,its data thats frozen on a harddrive somewhere. Comments and people and interactions irl , are like a youtube video you are loading and the person isnt even there.

Its possible the person could be real, somewhere, and see and respond to a comment on a youtube video that is of them ,frozen in time from an earlier time. But the response isnt coming from the same page  the youtube video is on, its from someone in the future adding different data to a harddrive.

If you were to look at the page it would seem like the comments are seamless right after eachother but they were added to the interaction slowly and one at a time from different stages and perspectives in time.

No one can guranteed be alive as you cant even see them in real time. The brain has infinite lag on reality, it cant experience the present moment by definition in science. They are always in the future to us so they arent alive we cant know we cant sync up with them in the present moment ( which is the static harddrive)

When you see God you see that life is like a forum, and you are somewhere else looking at the forum from inside of a brain ,not in reality. Like on the forum, you arent the forum or in the forum, you are a representation of something outside the forum. Since you arent seeing it objectively, you are seeing it subjectively in a brain, you arent seeing reality itself, you are seeing a forum that you are outside of and no one is on or in it. You are away from objective reality like you are away from this forum.

Then you can throw away the idea of being in a brain somewhere, because you see you arent on the forum of life, and no one is, we are all representations of something outside, of the forum of light we live in.

So from a higher level, what i choose to experience from this infinite data base, has already been predetermined in a way ?

[Hojo]

@Wilhelm44Yes, because you just do what you want ,like a dream at the highest level. Here we have self reflection, its like a bounce back of us the dreamers, and what we want to see and do. When you are at the highest levels, there's no reason to have that, and move like a super highly intelligent machine because you are God and whatever you do works and is perfect. 

You know this because every single kilobyte on the harddrive is screaming that they are pleased with the dream. And you are just existing basking in it.

Edited Sunday at 06:58 PM by Hojo