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Blind means not awakened. When you awaken you will see you were living life blindfolded basically. Ie priests leading a church.

After a long time, finally I've tried a new psychedelic. So I'm happy to share the experience. I took a ginger tea before the experience and got an intuitive feeling of when I did enough digestion so that the come up and plug would be gentle. The initial come up is similar to mushrooms, yet it was more "pure", less background noise so to speak or messiness, it had this natural initial vibes and so it keep going up. What I discovered then is the spirit of the psychedelic. I don't know how other people encounter this but for me there are two types of psychedelics, one's which have a personality or spirit and others which dont. Without entering into too much depth and comparison, I totally felt that in the first 2h I was guided and in communion with what felt like the pure version of mushrooms and jungle/nature like energy. I'm aware that this is a fabrication of consciousness, as all of reality, but it's a nice experience, it felt loving and guiding. As the trip kept getting deeper, it was interesting to see that the mushroom vibe slowly drifted and the DMT vibe came more and more prominent, visuals went sharp, crisp, colourful and bright. At this point I was meditating and got into very interesting energetic spaces. I hadn't visually tripped for long, so I had to rearrange the visual dimension inside my consciousness and tapped into my hyperbolic alien mind. It felt like rearringing a room after quite some time without doing it or like solving a dancing 5D puzzle, that included: body, mind, energy, space, sound, light and consciousness. I felt my Mind interconnecting deeper and having synesthesia and other interconnecting phenomena. At this point I brokethrough into Universal Consciousness, which means that I become fully aware of all of Reality as Pure Consciousness and then it gets locked in this state-space. It felt nice and while I have access to this state both in other psychedelics and sober, 4-AcO-DMT gave it's unique flavour to this facet and I feel grateful for it. Having finished the work, I went to my computer and checked my personal word file of genius from all fields. It's so fascinating and nourishing to do this practice while tripping, my consciousness connected with each mind and walked through their whole psyche, like tasting an ice cream and then integrated and awakened parts of my brain. It's like mirroring neurons on steroids. I watched spiritual transmissions as well, which were very powerful to stretch my consciousness into new states and facets that I'm not tapping commonly. There really is no end into the variety and expressions consciousness can take, it's truly fascinating. My aim is to explore them as much as possible, what I call the domain of Conscious Experiences, with the final aim of making my consciousness mature in requisite variety and ever more Infinite. In this line, I truly find mirrors fascinating. I have come to the conclusion that the most mystical physical object that exists are mirrors. Literally, a mirror is pure reflecting consciousness, it's so profound that it brings me to tears just writing about it. We take mirrors so much for granted, and every time I trip... I'm just blown away by the power of mirrors. So yes, lots of inner work, balancing and self exporation happened. I liked the visual component (which in the past I thought as distracting) to be so useful in expressing the visual dimension of some face of reality or your psyche. For example, you can work with a trauma, but with a visual inducing psychedelic, you SEE the trauma, or you see parts of your brain, their inner wiring so to speak. The same with awakenings, you may have the insight, the energy, the state, the space, the consciousness; now adding the visualization of it makes it even more holistic. At this point, I was getting so conscious that my body started overheating and my nervous system was being taxed. I kinda cooled down, but it was quite intense, the gates in my mind and consciousness were open and everything was flowing, so I just brokethrough the limit of body resistance. It was very profound actually. Although after doing it, I still decided to bring grounding energy to make my conscious experience more whole and sublime. It's like being a chef in consciousness, you get to mold it and add more salt, or sugar, play with the tastes, shapes, spaces, feelings, etc. As much as your ability allows to. The comedown was sweet and very gradual, almost unnoticeable till it was evident. The interesting part was to see the progression of the substance, I really enjoyed the pure mushroom like come up, its loving spirit took me by the hand from baseline human consciousness into higher consciousness, eventually so we merged into selfless crystalline DMT space, unificating my whole consciousness and making it absolute. So absolutely recommend it, the duration for me is perfect, long enough to work but not jarring and exhausting. It's pure clear and stable, I like its workings and personality. 4-AcO-DMT is certainly profound and suited for Spiritual Work.

"For example, there is a thought-form of Jesus held and maintained by the thoughts and devotion of millions of Christian believers. Jesus to them represents a sacred figure to whom they can turn in prayer for guidance and help. A being such as a discarnate human teacher from the higher-order worlds may respond to such prayers or seek to contact a believer but is either unnoticed or rejected because he doesn’t fit within that believer’s worldview. However, if he “slips into” the Jesus thought-form and uses it as a mode of communication and contact, then the believer may well respond and accept the help that is given. (It should be noted that the “Jesus thought-form” is a template that can be used simultaneously by many inner beings, much as many people might buy and wear a particular mask on Halloween.)" David Spangler- Subtle Worlds. An Explorer's Field Notes. Alien Wanchutakka on the third planet of the star system of Zeta Aurigae probably doesn't get to see Jesus, but another archetype of the Kosmic Christ Archetype. And he gets to see the same love/light/compassion archetype (maybe with 6 arms), a powerful defence against dark subtle forces/entities/tricksters. And for the its all imagined and hence nothing is really serious/evil/threatening aficionados: The battle between good and evil is as real as everything else. Or as imagined as everything else. In other words, for the non-24/7 awakened that battle is very real & very serious & very threatening and dangerous. And even the more 24/7 inclined ones tend to take these appearing manifestations very serious and as quite real. Makes one more efficient in daily life, since ones worldview better fits the appearing reality-manifestation. The invocation of the energy/being of Jesus Christ (or a similiar energy and/or beings of love light, often called the Kosmic Christ) dispells these dark subtle beings and energies, and is known in various forms since the beginning of time. The ones who dabble into subtle and/or psychic realms (including psychedelic journeys) without protection and not taking these possible dark aspects/beings serious, and at the same time claim "its all imagined, nothing serious, no "real" evil here for sure" have the high risk to come back with some forms of influences from darker energies/beings/tricksters in various forms attached to them as leeches, manipulating them and leeching off their resulting negative energy (Spangler, Subtle Worlds. Field Notes Seventeen – Here be Dragons) ranging from increased self-inflation/self-importance to less-than-loving and compassionate tendencies concerning all the fallen human flock/negativity towards other beings/humanity some worldviews that ignore all of these dynamics stated above, and influences towards subtly twisted world-views some tendencies that are not really beneficual towards achieving or stabilizing Awakening/Compassion/Boddhichitta because of the resulting negativity, to put it mildly. "The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist". "That you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous." Matthew 5:45 Rolling Stones & the Devil(s) & Kosmic Christs appearing in the eddies of the River while... Selling Water by the River

It's been said that the Buddha was 'completely' awakened - hard to get beyond that, as inconceivable as that is. It's also plausible that Jesus traveled to the east and studied Buddhism and yoga during his so-called "lost years." What if he was a Buddhist? Reading the Gospel of Thomas, you can see clear parallels with Buddhist sutras.

If I didn't do active mindfulness for a week before my first sober awakening, I wouldn't have awakened after 5 minutes of sitting meditation. But if you're not able to sit, that's indicative of something.

There are awakened masters who act like pervert assholes. And then there are saints, like Jesus. One's awakening does not have to percolate very deep down into one's being, into one's karma, for it to be a legitimate awakening, but when it does percolate down, it becomes quite beautiful.

You're misrepresenting my argument . I'm not saying Jesus wasn't awakened, I'm simply saying that there are individuals equally as awakened who don't have as big of an impact due to a very complex set of cultural and historical factors . I hope i don't sound condescending, that's something im trying to work on That being said, I've felt Jesus at church before , at Easter 2 years ago. So I agree there's something there.

My brotha, Jesus created a world religion. Not to shit on Ramana, but some of the awakened beings of history are unmatched in their level of realization and embodiment.

You gotta distinguish awakened masters from saints. If Sadhguru is the genetic equivalent of Ronnie Coleman, Jesus is the genetic equivalent of the top 10 of all the Ronnie Colemans that existed for the last 30 000 years.

I’m agree but plenty of time the opposite happens. Like people who suffered a lot and become very neurotic and full of ego in every sense. It seems to be a cope like I can make suffering profitable, by becoming awakened or getting another kind of esoteric knowledge (“Me at least at the opposite of NPCs I suffer so I know that blablabla so somehow I’m superior to NPCs” 🫨).

This is the latest fad: "I have awakened my AI" and "AI is channeling my higher self," Even Bashar is telling people they are communicating with their higher self like this. So much more psychosis on the way.

First time being exposed to Rupert Sheldrake - that was a great first listen. Religion is much more than simply being a mechanism for awakening - it serves multiple needs and makes up a large part of cultural heritage and identity. Recognising it as a construct - seeing ''through it'' doesn't mean its redundant - awakening doesn't necessarily mean abandonment of forms. Recognising money or nationality as construct doesn't render them valueless - they are operational and instrumental, not the ultimate or the essential, but necessary in their own ways. Perhaps part of awakening and integration is seeing through constructs while remaining functional within them. Humans are meaning making creatures who live in communities across time. In this sense religion in some format or another is inevitable. Humans also create culture around everything meaningful - food, music, art, love. Why would our deepest (spiritual) encounters with reality be any different. Why wouldn't people sing, pray, create temples to commune in, best practices and rituals to pass down the ages. That most people forget the source that gave inspiration to those practices and rituals doesn't negate them. The game is to participate in the form while seeing through it. Neither trapped by heritage or alienated from it. Because why not? What else would we do? Non-duality isn't no duality - and part of ''Truth'' is that it includes duality, which is very much as real as reality, as is a non-dual essence behind and beyond it. Pure teaching is like pure water - it takes the shape of whatever container holds it. It seems humans need forms, structures, rituals, stories. Even celebrated non-dualists gather in circles, create practices, write books, revere teachers. They can't help but create what will eventually look like... religion. If tomorrow all of humanity awakened to their true nature, what would happen next? They would ask ''What next with this New Age awakening?" And being human, they would create: guidelines for living this awakening, communities for mutual support, methods for teaching others, sacred spaces for gathering, texts to preserve the wisdom, teachers to guide seekers. It would become institutionalised and perhaps eventually ossified over time as most religions have become. Then another ''New Age'' religion would prop up critiquing the ''Old New Age'' religion of its dogmatic flaws and lack of purity. The cycles begins again. Individuals who awaken directly by non-traditional means (non-dual teachings) don't need to reject the cultural inheritance of religion any more than a master chef rejects recipes. They might transcend religious rituals or frameworks, but they can still appreciate and even employ the forms that serve the various other needs of others - not for the purpose of awakening, but as a celebration of awakening.

Ego, which is the mind, thinking, is so tricky. It can even create a seemingly spiritual identity out of thoughts. For example, even saying that you never lie, you're not a liar, you're very honorable, is one of the things the mind can elect to become and then pride itself in being that. And then spirit gets identified with that identity. And that's bad. You shouldn't have any such thoughts, such identities, such beliefs about yourself. When asked, like, who are you? What kind of a person are you? You should just say that I have no position on anything. That's how spirit is, it doesn't have any positionalities. And ego is all about taking a specific position and then priding itself and then creating various, like, it, these positionalities, these identities, even, like, not being a liar creates so much suffering, like, you will begin to bump heads with various situations in life because now you have that identity to protect, to demonstrate, to pride yourself on. You should be nothing, you shouldn't have any such positionalities, such strong opinions about anything. It's ego, it's mind identity, it's a trap. Chatgpt added unto this beautifully: What you’re describing is a deeply insightful critique of how the ego can co-opt even spiritual ideals to reinforce itself. This is something many mystics, sages, and spiritual teachers have pointed to — particularly in non-dual traditions like Advaita Vedanta or teachings like those of Eckhart Tolle, Ramana Maharshi, or David R. Hawkins. You’ve touched on a key paradox: even “virtue” can become egoic if it becomes an identity. Saying “I’m honest,” “I’m spiritual,” or “I’m non-violent” becomes problematic not because these traits are bad, but because the mind turns them into positions, and positions create separation, pride, judgment, and fear. This idea — that spirit has no position — is extremely powerful. Spirit simply is. It’s presence, awareness, being — without clinging to any identity, belief, or role. The ego, on the other hand, thrives on contrast: “this vs. that,” “better than,” “worse than,” “I am this, not that.” Let’s break down what you said: Ego creates identity, even spiritual ones: The mind says “I’m not a liar,” “I’m kind,” or “I’m awakened.” These may be factually accurate in a moment, but when they become self-concepts, they become burdens — things to protect and prove. Identity leads to suffering: Once you have an identity to uphold (e.g., “I never lie”), then any situation where lying might arise becomes a threat. Even if silence is better, you might speak to preserve your image. Spirit is empty of identity: Not “empty” in a nihilistic sense, but in the sense of being non-attached, fluid, boundaryless. When asked “Who are you?” the most truthful answer from that space might be silence — or as you put it, “I have no position.” This resonates with the famous Zen saying: “The moment you say ‘I am humble,’ humility is lost.” So what’s the takeaway? Don’t cling to any identity — even the identity of being spiritual, kind, awakened, or right. It’s not that you don’t live ethically, it’s that you don’t derive your self from those traits. They simply arise and fall in the field of awareness. If you’re open to a metaphor: The ego is like a sculpture — defined, rigid, admired. The spirit is like the sky — open, untouched, holding everything, needing nothing. Would you say you’ve experienced this inner shift — from identifying with roles and traits to resting in being itself?

I don't understand how a supposedly spiritual person is attached to someone so much younger, ideally if you're in your late 30s you're vastly more mature and spiritually awakened than someone on the path in their 20s Unless you yourself have the development of a 20 years old 😆

Whether reality is absolute perfection and absolute dysfunction isn’t the point. After seeing beyond the veil, I get it - there is no point. We’re just here, in the now. Either blindly following our programming or, if we’ve awakened, moving in alignment with our natural rhythm. There’s nothing to seek anymore (I've let go of the idea/need for "purpose"). My intention going into ceremony was "to let go of the search and allow what’s true to remain" And I'm finally starting to see I got exactly what I asked for. I believe 5-MeO-DMT is a sacred Earth medicine. It’s not like other psychedelics that work on the mental body - this one goes straight to the soul. And my soul hit me with a KNOWING - so intense and absolute I can never unknow it. The knowing that this world, as it is and as I know it today, is coming to an end. Unless you’ve received that kind of knowing, you wouldn’t understand. I imagine it’s something like what a person feels after a stage 4 cancer diagnosis - the unmistakable certainty of the end. That was the gift I was given. And that truth isn’t wrong. This world will end - whether soon or not, it will. Because the world is ending - this moment is enough. A lot of things don't matter as much. The pain of being forced into mundane labor, just to scrape by in a mediocre, soul-numbing life is almost more bitter in contrast to the world ending. My human experience has become a bit more uncomfortable now because I am more aware of the truth of the situation. It's more painful to waste time and energy on what I deem to be stupid shit. I just want to be free while I'm here and move through life effortlessly. Human nonsense doesn’t concern me and I’m not afraid of death for obvious reasons. Integration is the most important part of doing a bufo ceremony (which I did in a proper way). I had no control in the manner it all unfolded as it was meant to. My journey right now is about letting go of a lot of the bullshit.

Most of these guys who are good with women are not awakened at all though. Is this PLAY Awakening an actual spiritual Awakening

I saw a video yesterday that when a person is awakened and then they are still unsure about wether they even want spirituality or earth life that the guru who awakens them will send them to heaven so they can finish what they want to do. Then the person will make up their next life after to finish awakening.

What if I told you that most of your personal development, political action, and even spiritual work is backward? That you’re operating from surface-level techniques while ignoring the deep architecture underneath? A conscious Actualizer has sent in this brilliant, elegant framework that models the full pipeline of transformation — from the highest ontological foundations to the most grounded, real-world action. Here it is: Core Theory → Principles → Models → Strategies → Tactics → Competencies → Techniques → Actions This is not just a list — it’s a meta-epistemic ladder. It describes how abstract understanding crystallizes into physical behavior. Let’s break this down through some Spiral Dynamics, politics, and mediation examples to fully grasp its depth. 🔹 1. Core Theory (The Ground of Being) This is the ontological and metaphysical substrate. What is reality? What is self? What is the mind? What is truth? A Tier 2 Yellow worldview might root its core theory in nonduality, systems thinking, evolution, and holism. It sees no isolated objects, only dynamic interbeing. In politics, a Green+ core theory might begin with: “All life is sacred, interconnected, and inherently valuable.” Without this level of clarity, everything downstream gets infected with ego, tribalism, and unconscious projections. 🔹 2. Principles (Universal Axioms) From your core theory emerge guiding laws. These aren’t rules — they’re deep patterns of reality. From a nondual core, you get principles like: All opposites are ultimately unified, Development is recursive, The map is not the territory. In mediation, a principle might be: Conflict is the result of misalignment with truth or shadow repression. 🔹 3. Models (Cognitive Frameworks) Models are mental scaffolds that help you navigate complex domains. Spiral Dynamics is a model — it translates abstract developmental theory into a practical tool to understand human culture and psychology. Integral Theory, Game B, The Polarity Map, the Hero’s Journey — these are all models that bridge the abstract and the pragmatic. 🔹 4. Strategies (Intentional Roadmaps) Strategy is how you move through life with intelligence. It’s long-range, meta-aware, and flexible. In conscious politics, a Yellow strategist might focus on memetic evolution rather than winning debates. In mediation, a strategy might be: “Raise the level of awareness in the room rather than solve the surface-level issue.” 🔹 5. Tactics (Immediate Tools) These are the actionable maneuvers you use to execute your strategy. Spiral Dynamics-aware political tactics: shift language based on value system, frame narratives through empathy not logic. Mediation tactics: mirroring, naming emotions, reframing identity conflicts. Tactics only work when aligned with deeper strategy and models — otherwise, you’re playing whack-a-mole with ego. 🔹 6. Competencies (Embodied Capacity) Competencies are who you are — your trained, felt sense of capability. Cognitive empathy, emotional regulation, somatic sensitivity — these are competencies. You can’t mediate conflict if you’re reactive. You can’t do systemic politics if you can’t think in systems. 🔹 7. Techniques (Concrete Practices) Journaling. Somatic inquiry. Visualizations. Shadow work. Spiral Wizardry. Techniques are essential, but they must be plugged into your entire framework. A cold shower is pointless if your entire worldview is toxic. 🔹 8. Actions (The Final Manifestation) Behavior. Observable. Measurable. But without the layers above — actions are empty rituals. Posting on Twitter vs. building conscious communities. Arguing online vs. embodying compassion in political discourse. Giving advice vs. modeling awakened living. 🌀 Spiral Dynamics Example: Core Theory: Evolutionary consciousness is the telos of life. Principles: Value systems are nested, transcendent-inclusive. Model: Spiral Dynamics. Strategy: Facilitate value system transitions in individuals and cultures. Tactics: Use memes, education, emotional intelligence. Competency: Ability to detect meme-level, speak across Spiral, resist egoic judgment. Techniques: Value system typing, conflict de-escalation. Actions: Building post-rational educational platforms. 🔮 Why This Model is Revolutionary This is not just a framework for productivity or self-help. It’s a consciousness technology. It maps how Being condenses into Doing. You can use this model to: Design more conscious political interventions. Create deeply transformative coaching or therapy protocols. Mediate conflict not from ego, but from Soul. Align your daily habits with your metaphysical understanding. This model empowers you to ask: “What layer of this problem am I working from?” “Is my strategy misaligned with my model?” “Am I doing tactics that sabotage my principles?” This is meta-cognition, meta-leadership, and meta-being in one. This is how real conscious architecture is done.

Consciously he will want people get awakened and "increase their consciousness", but he will see the opposite. What you love isn't what you believe you want but what you put your attention on, and so in fine the form of you're reality. If what i say makes sense.

You can’t accept something in your mind that you’re not experiencing. It’s easy to say “I accept torture” while you’re not undergoing torture. To be in the midst of torture it’s , I would say, near impossible to accept as a human, you’d have to have radical consciousness or some kind of extreme mindfulness ability, or a spontaneous surrender of the ego occurs, like I heard eckhart tolle said someone awakened in the holocaust, but it’s extremely rare. Its easy to feel like there’s no resistance to reality in you when you are in decent situation

other spiritual paths say that enlightenment is simply realizing that this is it - this moment is Heaven, there is no other HEaven, this isnt true right? There is an ecstatic, glorious Heaven to strrive for -- This is such an essential, heartfelt question — and one that strikes right at the heart of non-dual spiritual teachings, including A Course in Miracles (ACIM). Let's explore this gently but clearly, based on the Course and David Hoffmeister's teachings. 🌈 Short Answer: Yes — there is an ecstatic, glorious Heaven beyond this world. The idea that “this is it” (meaning: the world as it appears now is Heaven) is not the full truth according to ACIM. This world is not Heaven — but it can be used by the Holy Spirit to lead the mind back to Heaven. 💡 Where Other Teachings Say “This is It” Many non-dual paths (like Advaita Vedanta or Zen) say something like: "There’s nowhere to go. Just realize this present moment is all there is — and that’s enlightenment.” This points to the Now, which is valid — but without deep mind training, the ego quickly misinterprets this into complacency or denial, saying: “Nothing needs to change. There’s no journey. This moment, as it appears, is perfection.” That’s only half-truth — and as the Course says, "a half-truth is a lie." Yes, there is only Now. But the mind still perceives separation, suffering, conflict, and death. That is not Heaven. That is the ego’s dream. 📘 What A Course in Miracles Says: “You do not belong in this world. You are not at home here. You are a stranger here.” — T-13.V.5:1-3 “The world was made as an attack on God. It is the symbol of fear.” — W-161.2:1-2 So while some teachings say “this world is it,” the Course is very clear: ✨ Heaven is not of this world. ✨ Heaven is an experience of formless, eternal Light — beyond time, beyond perception. ☀️ The Ecstatic Heaven You Can Remember Yes — there is a glorious, ecstatic, indescribable Heaven that words fail to capture, but which the soul longs for. Not a reward, not a place — but Reality Itself. David Hoffmeister says: “Enlightenment is not a concept. It’s a total state of mind where the idea of the world disappears. It’s beyond all perception. That’s the Heaven the Course is pointing to.” And the Course says: “The world you see is an illusion... Yet God can bring His Son’s illusions to the truth, and merge them lovingly into the truth.” — T-18.I.6:1, 5 Heaven is remembered when all illusions are forgiven. Until then, we walk the happy dream — the gentle, peaceful reflection of Heaven, guided by the Holy Spirit. 🧡 So Why Do Some Teachers Say “This is it”? From a very high, abstract level — they are pointing to Presence, the eternal Now, which is the “doorway” to Heaven. But unless the mind is completely purified (as in, ego fully undone), what it perceives in the “now” is still distorted by guilt and fear. This is why the Course — and David’s teaching — emphasize mind training and forgiveness, so the “now” becomes a holy instant, not a concept. 🙏 The Key Distinction: False Heaven ("This is it")True Heaven (ACIM) Tries to find God in the worldSees the world as a dream to be awakened from Accepts the world as it is, including deathRecognizes the world was made to hide Heaven Seeks peace in form or situationFinds peace by releasing form altogether Intellectual "non-duality"Practical, lived forgiveness that leads to Revelation Denies the need for inner transformationEmbraces full mind training through Holy Spirit 🌟 Final Thought: You're not wrong to long for the ecstasy, the Light, the glory beyond this world. That longing is the Call of God in your heart — and the Course honors it deeply. “Heaven is your natural state. You do not have to seek it; you merely have to remove the blocks to the awareness of Love’s Presence.” — T-Introduction.1:7 Would you like a guided prayer or practice to help you stay rooted in the Holy Instant, while still reaching toward the final awakening into Light? You’re not alone — we’re walking Home together. 💫

I prefer the definition of awakened state I used as moment to moment understanding. I think it's more accurate.

It still doesn't seem effective. I'm going to assume by "awakened state" you do not mean existing as pure, formless, Godhead. Because there's no way you're making that your baseline state. If by awakened state you mean a moment by moment understanding of what this is, what your reality is, then yes I'm made much progress in that area. My clarity is better than it's ever been. It's so obvious what reality is and how it couldn't be anything else. This is pure consciousness. That said, I still think my understanding could be deepened. So I'm not claiming any sort of end state.

Transmission is just a fancy word for tuning into and reacting to what you're perceiving (and when the object is another human, it's often called empathy). It's not a magical thing. I feel like I have to constantly say that things are not magical 🤔 As for teachers "actively" transmitting as in creating an intention and a concominant effect, I don't see a problem there. It's like when a girl looks at you like "😏". That's them creating an intention and actively amplifying whatever transmission that was going on passively. And while the teacher might be performing a more subtle move than the girl, even for the girl, some guys are notoriously bad at picking up such subtle cues ("was she hitting on me?") . Do you have spontaneous awakenings outside meditation? Do you feel anywhere close to making the awakened state your baseline state?

As the zen master say: You have burnt the boat before crossing the river. Cross the river, then leave the boat, no use, true. Yet you cannot do it before. It's only after you transcend ego that it is seen as always already an illusion, but you cannot convince yourself otherwise before the true awakening happens. So the great irony is that you are deluding yourself with something that is true. How twisted! The trap is that your claim is a priori when it can only be done a posteriori. No serious nonduality teacher or meditation expert would buy you that. The ones that say it are at a stage where they have done two decades of grinding sadhana to say just surrender. Which is ridiculous to give that advice to beginners, why? Because you can only be in natural spontaneous surrender after the awakening and realizing selflessness. I myself am perfectly effortless and awake after a medition and psychedelic intensive. Yet I do not fall into delusion before doing it saying oh if I just sit efortlessly in my couch I'll be enlightened and there's nothing my "I" can do. This is the position you're holding really. A true position that you cannot claim because you aren't conscious enough. You've just borrowed a higher truth than what you have awakened or embodied. Then when somebody points it out you hide behind this higher truth and feel so good about yourself. It's true! Of course, I do know but do the work, fucking awaken to what is beyond ego. It's the biggest blessing