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  1. Thank You Omni for the quick answer! It´s kind of funny because I was expecting this answer. The thing is that intellectual speaking I know totally what you mean.(But in Practice?!) I study psychology a lot and explore the spiritual some time now. Pinned down I think problems arise out of an lack of Love and Compassion (to yourself, to others). No one said it is easy to self actualize! I feel it is hard for my Ego to swallow your answer Thank you!!
  2. Hey there I am a desperate, I don´t know what is wrong with me and i don`t even know how to start and put this stuff in words. I would describe my current condition as emotional very unstable and that over years now. Since i am very young there is this weird feeling inside me that I am "different" what maybe isn´t even the case but became a bit of a self-fulfilling-prophecy. With 15 I began to play guitar like a fanatic because I couldn´t handle my family situation and needed something to escape reality. Today I play in an awesome Band but it does not fulfill me. I think in some way I lost touch with reality(I am numb inside). Yesterday it happend again( emotional breakdown). I went with my Flat mates to a Hip Hop Party and at some point strong feeling of fear and anger overreach me. The Trigger was a guy I met I know from study. I was standing next to him and when he saw me he took his hands and shaked my head WTF. It was so awkward for me that I just left. I don´t even told anyone that I am leaving I just needed to get out of this place. I try to meditate constantly and practice self-love. But deep inside I feel like a piece of shit who deserves nothing. Sorry for my writing skills I am not a mother-tongue speaker.
  3. i feel so loveless inside that i dont even know how to give love anymore
  4. Hey I reflect on this a lot too and know what comes with growing up without a father. First of all I think it is important not to reject your current state or behavior. When you grow up just with the feminine influence the problem which can arise is that since you were a child you know only through the eyes of women what THEY think a man should be. This creates difficulties in the young boy to create a solid, authentic identity. Often the child dos not learn to honor both sides within themselves : the masculine AND the feminine. I have some Questions I suggest you could ask yourself: 1. Do I feel good about being a man? 2.What is MY definition of masculinity? Why? 3.What are my values? 4.Do I respect and honor the feminine and the masculine? Sorry for my writing skills i am not a native speaker That could interest you too :
  5. Whats your favourite music to get you through tough times? For me as a musician but mainly as a human being music is my tool for strong healing processes! Like to share?
  6. I feel you bro! That´s the spirit!!!
  7. Respect yourself and you can respect others!
  8. @BobbyLowell Thats a very good topic because most of the time people are very focused on the negative traits of their Personality. This will increase socially awkward behavior and inner conflict. But it is important for self actualization that you become conscious of both. positive traits are: Compassion Couriosity kindness confidence open mindedness humor sensitivity clarity self-assertion charisma i could go on all day long
  9. You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger. - - Buddha
  10. Yeah I really feel a certain resistance in myself which is blocking my natural flow.
  11. Hey Everyone, Recently i am wondering more and more about my own sense of humor and as well what this skill means in general. I discovered that if you are longer in melancholic or depressive emotional states it can happen that you lose touch with this beautiful skill. I remember a time when it was really easy for me to be funny and to get in some kind of humorous flow. But nowadays it happens more often that i am rigid and not relaxed enough to have fun or make fun. I think one reason why you can´t be funny anymore is if you are to much in your head. So I would like you to collect some insights with me. What is humor for you? Is there a certain mindset which can increase humor? How can you create funny Situations? (sorry for my english i am not a native speaker)
  12. Thank you so much for the great answers, I will contemplate about that. Especially this mechanism of creating separation. What makes it so difficult is that I sense that there is this strong judging mechanism which has become such a fast reflex and in the same time there is this fear of letting go. I think its really control obsession and my mind is showing me that I will never have this control.