iTommy

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  1. Nice! I hope your body & mind adjusts quickly. I think it depends on the medication you take, your psyché etc., regarding the ego. It heavily depends on how dependant/addicted your body & mind is. Currently, I'm going without one medication, out of two different anti-depressants. The withdrawal symptoms are sh*t, and it tears a bit on me/costs me quite a bit of energy. The ego here, wants to resist feeling how I currently feel, so I hear it shrieking at times. But, I gotta go through with it. *inhale* - *exhale* For some, going without certain meds can cause heavy unpleasant symptoms to the point where they would rather keep doing them instead of coming down. Some meds make you feel better than "normally" when you're clean, and some minds are a bit addicted to feeling better than without any substance. So, they often add this to their identification, and even create limiting beliefs such as, "I can't do sh*t without meds.", "Life isn't great anyway... why should I keep bothering going without substances that make it more pleasant? I mean... without them it's hell and it's impossible for me to change my beliefs/views about me & reality anyway, so why bother trying?", "Meds make me feel more confident, why should I go without them?". and so on... The ego at times even likes to "brag" about taking meds/making it into a "competition" of sorts. "Oh dude, I am on this and that. You're just on one medication, LOL. I clearly have it harder than you." I mean meds can be great and I would advice certain people to give them a shot, yet one should be vary when the ego absolutely can't see a world without them (especcially when it comes to mental health meds such as anti-depressants).
  2. @moon777light Ah, thanks for the insight @pluto I agree. I've been going down on my medication, now I have to deal with withdrawal symptoms.
  3. @moon777light Hmm, why is that? Many sites recommend melatonin. @InfinitePotential @Colin I never knew of blue light cancelling eyewear till now. I need to dig deeper into this.
  4. Hey lads! My sleep is overall pretty bad (insomnia). I usually wake up multiple times early in the morning, and struggle to get back to sleep. I am physically and mentally tired when I need to be awake, which then again costs me a lot of energy. I've already done quite a few things besides taking supplements for good sleep, although I am on anti-depressants and one usually helps me get tired at night. So, I am currently looking for supplements or similar that might encourage a good night's rest, and thought that some of you might have some ideas regarding this topic.
  5. What do you mean by "blow flow"? Blood-flow?
  6. Hey guys! So, I've been feeling energy-like sensations (at least that's what I would imagine energy to feel like), for some months now especcially around my hands/palms. I think meditation amplified that sensation over the past weeks. It seems to slowly "spread" over to my arms aswell and other body-parts. Has anyone insight on what this could be?
  7. @moon777light Thanks for the heads-up! I got a combination of Vitamin D & K2 luckily. @Maxi Thanks! I need to bookmark that site.
  8. Sorry for the late reply guys... I now (weeks ago) have bought some supplements, and I am looking into the things mentioned here too. Sadly I can't try out everything suggested currently since it would blow my budget, but later on I'll try out some new things. Some great information shared in this thread. You guys are awesome!
  9. Hey guys! I'd like to shop for some supplements soon, and I'd like your advice on this topic. Currently, I have those on my list... *= Important/Must have (If some aren't that important or the opposite, then please tell me. I'd like to have a list for all the ones needed, and those that are not that important.) *Vitamin C - (1000mg 1x daily) *Omega 3 - (1000mg 1x daily) *Vitamin D3 - (5000IU 1x daily) Green Tea Extract - (725mg once every other day) *Magnesium (200mg 2x daily) Multivitamins (Any recommendations here & dosage?) *Probiotics (10 billion CFUs 1x daily) *Vitamin B12 (1000ug 1x daily) What do you think of this? Anything that you recommend me to change here? Should I add something and/or take away a supplement etc.? I don't have much knowledge about this stuff myself, so it would be great if people could give me some advice. Also, yes I watched Leo's video on this topic.
  10. Hey guys. I wanted to share a somewhat crazy real-feeling „dream” (?) that happened to me a month or two ago. Now I don’t really remember the exact times, those are just pointers. This "report" was inspired by Leo's new video. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Before I go to bed (in my case sofa) I make sure to take antidepressants, those usually make me feel somewhat tired – without them I could just stay up all night long, and I meditate to further calm the mind. I did those things that day too. So, it all started by me trying to get some sleep at probably around 00:15. The mind seemed to be quiet to a certain degree, but I felt only a bit sleepy but not really as much as I usually do. I waited to feel more tired, but it just wouldn’t really hit me. I thought that I would just try to get some sleep anyway and laid down on the sofa. Time went by, nothing changed. I then turned on some music that usually does a good job helping me relax/sleep and I gave it another try. Time went by again, nothing really changed. I then thought that a guided sleeping meditation might do some good, so I tried that. Again… nothing really changed. I turned on a different sleeping meditation, you guessed it. Then I tried another one but… nope. It was probably around 06:00 by then, and I still had not gained a few minutes of sleep. I was frustrated at that point. I just switched back to regular relaxing music, and I started focusing on my breath, bodily sensations etc., with half open eyes, while lying there on the couch. This is where it gets crazy. A few minutes flew by, and suddenly I heard two voices. A male and a female voice. Both sounded like adults, maybe around 30-45-ish. They were first talking amongst themselves, but then the male voice talked to me saying things like, “Relax. Everything is fine, get some sleep.” Music was still playing in the background and my eyes were still half open, so confusion and curiosity kicked in. In my mind I went, “Wha… this is crazy, I can hear you guys. Can you actually hear me if I just use thought?” – on this the answer was, “Yes we can hear you." So I asked them questions like… “How is it where you are?” – the answer was, “When it’s night for you, it’s day for us.” The female voice by then also kept talking to me. I asked, “If you think of a place like… California, can you somehow teleport/travel to this destination?” – “Yeah, we can.” This went back and forth for a while. I started to get more relaxed, and those voices told me again things like… “It’s fine. There’s nothing to worry about, get some sleep.” Now, this is where it gets more “crazy”. While they were talking to me, and I to them, it felt as if I got a shoulder massage (a good one too). I just laid there with my eyes opening half-way now and then, and it literally was/felt as if someone was behind me, giving me a massage. Maybe 15 minutes in, I fell asleep. When I woke up I was just in awe. I mean… holy sh*t, everything felt so damn real. That’s really a point where one begins to question what is “real” in the first place. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ This is something I won’t forget in a long time. It's crazy how your paradigm of reality can just "melt"/overlap with things that you didn't really think were possible.
  11. I currently feel alright. The day after the trip was meh, it seemed that I wasn't able to stay mindful at all during the day. The mind just did its own thing, yet now it seems that I am able to be as mindful again as I was before.
  12. Haha, this pretty much sums it up. Thanks for sharing
  13. Yea, I am guessing it's fighting for its survival.
  14. Hell, your input is always appreciated I have to say that I don't really have a strong foundation. I don't really eat that healthy - still need to look into that topic. I don't smoke, I seldom drink. I meditate daily and do also self-inquiry daily (still have to make it seperate from meditation). But my main struggle would be depression/mental illness, at times it's crippling. I think if that was different, then the trip might have turned out better. I am guessing that the weak ego is trying its best to keep "me" from getting better/seeing through the illusion, and it does that using suicide/gore/death as its main weapon since I don't really mind dying (that much). It surely would be a big + if I had a better foundation.
  15. I need to definitely detach more. I find it usually very easy to surrender (I mainly do high doses, since I again find it usually easy to let go and I tend to get more insights from them) , yet on this part where the mind started to brawl just surrendering didn't seem to do much, since there was a constant flow of negative input that I became aware of. It was tough to not try to control any of it, since thought wasn't the only thing that was there. But yea, six tabs on this one. Didn't you trip recently on LSD? Just be prepared that your body might have a higher tolerance now/next week. Well.... shouldn't be that much of a deal I think, 3 weeks to 1 months between trips is "ideal" when it comes to tolerance.