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    1 hour ago, Salvijus said:

    The best way to know what these practices can do for you is to see one of the teachers from Isha. Pure saints I'm telling you. With capabilities of a superhuman, almost like from the Matrix. Just by seeing them you will know thats the real deal. I want to practice what they're practicing 

    What it did to me have surpassed all my expectations of what yoga can do for someone. I'm just eternally grateful I got this lucky to be initiated into such a powerful spiritual path. 

    This is somethink beyond my understanding that everyone should have a taste of.

    Can you levitate?

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    1. Getting almost every egoic desire i had.

    2. Finding out that they didn't bring me lasting happiness.

    3. Wondering how people who had serious illness or who were in wheelchair could be so much happier than i was. (I was in contact with them daily)

    4. Having all my supressed shit arise and cause me fear and anxiety, soon after i started meditation.

    5. Living in constant fear of having serious illness

    These five things all happened within two years. The best part is that i'm still learning new stuff all the time. As i broke up recently i found out shitloads of things that are wrong with me.

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    @egoeimai Don't over think it. If you have the skill to be present when you are on good mood, you can practice to be present when you are having a bad day. There's nothing different to it. Just bring the awareness to your life through your favourite portal.

    For me, when i'm having slightly anxious feelings i can just choose to be present, and follow the thoughts. But when it's really bad i first focus on the rising and falling sensation of breathing around my chest and belly. Then i usually move in to feeling the vibrance in my lower body and gradually the awareness spreads everywhere. Then i just watch the thoughts and enjoy them.

    Sometimes i've actually got so lost in my pain i haven't had the desire to become conscious anymore, i have rather chosen to suffer in the pain. It feels so fucking good for the ego.

    If you meditate regularly, you should be able to ace this quite soon, if not immediately. :)

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    I've been doing what Nahm described lately. I try to just be the witness of those fears and anxious thoughts rather than fuel them. I don't try to avoid them either, i literally try to enjoy them. They are part of life. It's not easy to do at first, especially if the feeling is very powerful but with practice it gets easier. 

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    What do you guys think about Barry Long? I think his concept about a "Man" and a "Sexual-man" is fascinating. Basicly what he is saying is that a Man is loving his woman's body and a sexual-man is loving his sexual fantasies of women. And that his sexual fantasy is standing in between him and his woman, therefore not being able to fully give his love to the woman. For me this sounds so true, porn and sexual fantasies has fucked us up.

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    I used to work with retarded people before and there were one case who couldn't speak or walk or basicly do anything by herself. But she always had this bright look in her eyes and she was always smiling or laughing. She certainly was way happier than i was/am. Was she enlightened, idk. But could've been. Her happiness made me happy everytime i interacted with her.

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    Thank you guys. Good insights, much appreciated.

    I've kinda grown apart from my old friends because our friendship has been so shallow and it's hard to deepen it because they don't want to discuss emotional stuff. I have lots of friends but none of them is very proper emotional friendship. So i was dependent on my partner cause she was the only one i could discuss about anything with. Now i would like to be not dependent of anyone.

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    @Charlotte

    Good to hear i'm not the only one! I recently broke off from my disfunctional relationship. It's amazing how relationship with so caring and loving person as my ex is, can turn to so needy, controlling and ugly. It's like i started to feel i'm not in control of my own life anymore. Now that i'm single again, i feel it's easier to breath, like a heavy stone was lifted off my chest. This is because deep down i know this is better for us both. But on weak moments i get these fears like "i made a mistake, she was loving me so much" "i can't make it without her" etc.

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    Hi!

    I've noticed that when i'm in relationship i feel i get some sort of safety from the other person. Then when i want to seperate, i get thoughts like; "then there will be no one to support me if i get seriously ill", "i wont make that 'x thing' by myself". At the sametime i realize these are just fictious fears and i know that we are all going to die alone anyways. So i was wondering how many people are married or in relationships just for the safe feeling?

    I feel my relationships always start fantastic, then after some time it turns ugly. It starts to tear me down more than give me anything positive. The feeling of safety is the one thing that remains. When i'm single, i'm happy way more often. Could it be i'm not meant to be in relationships at this stage of my life or am i just being irresponsible mother fucker?

    I must not be the only one having hard time in relationships but am i the only one who feels they are better off alone?

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    Lol pretending to be gay sounds fun. I'm not even really what is considered handsome and they are all over me. I wouldn't consider myself masculine either. I'm just fucking weird, maybe that's it.

    I was thinking that nofap has had some benefits for me and it has definetly raised my sexual vibration. But maybe it has raised it even too much as i get these urges to fuck those girls more and more.