Pure Imagination

I love that. I had a huge creative awakening on LSD around the same time, but not quite the one I'm talking about here. I'm talking about a huge rewiring that affected how I interact socially. That's mostly why I think this 5-MeO experience was so terrifying, because it shifted my ego and personality in how I approach others, in a way that's more instinctive and single-track minded. Both are valid and useful, but perception changes and creativity epiphanies can only get you so far in this work if you think you're still sane in the minds of others haha

My old trip report

Hey all. I had a breakthrough, 30mg insufflated 5-MeO-DMT trip 8 years ago and just wanted to share my reflection on it now. First off, I just want to say that I am a neurodivergent person who has immense social anxiety; if you don't have those qualities, then maybe you won't relate to this experience. But I still think sharing it may be useful to you. Remembering it now, it was still the most profound, terrifying experience of my life; that much will be relatable to you if you have taken it haha. But at the same time, I don't regret it. It profoundly changed my perception, and I want to share this because I want to make it abundantly clear that yes, taking large doses of 5-MeO can change your perception forever. I remember saying back then that I thought 5-MeO hindered or even degraded my short term memory. I think that's still true, but not in a way that was damaging or honestly, in a way most people should be fearful of. I was a spacey person before, who held multiple streams of thought at once in a conversation almost as a defense mechanism. 5-MeO completely destroyed that. It forced me to just stay in the moment and shoot from the hip in conversation, and that's honestly how most people talk anyway. I think it singlehandedly dismantled the neurotic pattern in me that thought I needed to hold so many single threads in a conversation at once to survive socially. I no longer think that's true. I just shoot from the hip with my intuition and it just works. I'm not sure if anyone reading this here can relate to this line of thinking, but I hope at least one can and I'm not alone here in how this profound substance changed me forever. Like I said, I don't regret this experience at all. It was profoundly positive and still the biggest turning point in my whole life. I experienced God realization and ego death and more all at once, but coming back to human life, that all is almost a side point. A 5-MeO breakthrough specifically will rock your world in ways you could never imagine. I share this to say that 5-MeO has qualities that produce permanent awakening experiences that are rarely talked about, and not in ways that you would assume just through listening to spiritual teachings. It forces your ego into changes that feel like death and mental illness. You literally feel like you're dying when your way of interacting with other humans is just suddenly ripped away from you. That's not some small thing. When your personality changes overnight due to a serious psychological rewiring, that feels like death. Again, this is my own experience; I'm sure some people take this dose of 5-MeO and feel close to nothing. I was holding onto and chewing on this for years now that I finally wanted to share and maybe someone out there could relate to in their own awakening journey. Maybe other psychedelics do too, but I know from my own experience that 5-MeO was the only one that had such lasting effects for me personally. Let me know what you think. Have you taken a psychedelic where it changed your perception permanently in a way that was world shifting, yet in a way you can somehow articulate? Let me know, and always use psychedelics with intention and responsibility.

This is the story of my life. Trauma is a great teacher because it shows you how your innate nature differs from the "normal" perspective of people (this is ignoring serious cases of obvious abuse). @Applegarden8 You have siddhis too, and you will find them with time. As you awaken, siddhis naturally unfold. Everyone has them, it's just a matter of self-discovery. Keep on the path of awareness and you will discover your siddhis naturally

"Awakening is not about acquiring new siddhis, but realizing how to utilize the siddhis one already possesses." -- Pure Imagination (2024) Original insight by Pure Imagination with linguistic enhancement provided by ChatGPT

I understand what you mean. I feel the same way sometimes, but I'm also a carebear and I enjoy sharing my feelings of love with people. Thank you for the brotherly Love, the feeling is mutual. I'm a hugger so I'm sending you a hug if you want one ?

@at_anchor Everyone unconsciously gaslights. It doesn't sound to me like you have a gaslighting problem. There are many people who make a science out of consciously gaslighting people for their own selfish benefit. I'm sorry to hear that it would be difficult to get away from some of your relationships. Hopefully this forum is a place where you find like-minded people that are more conscious. Maybe find people irl who are interested in things that you are and make sure that they are not overtly, consciously gaslighting you. Those people who are struggling with addiction I guarantee live in hell. Some of the most miserable people on Earth put on a persona of being happy all the time, but on the inside they are anything but. Especially if they are overly manipulative and controlling. That means they can't be openly honest with you about what they really want. Which is hell. No worries, you don't need to reciprocate at all. I just wanted to let you know that I'm a listening ear and wanted to help. I'm not expecting you to feel a certain way back to me in return.

I'll be honest, I'm not stable but I read your posts at my discretion. I feel your pain. Someone who I loved dearly took advantage of me and gaslit me for years and only recently I had the courage to step away from that relationship. I would say that it is important that you even recognize that these people in your life are toxic, and if you have the means you should absolutely try to cut them out of your life. I guarantee you that there are good people out there who will actually take your best interests into account. Life downright sucks sometimes. I especially feel that way because I have crappy sensitive genetics that not many people understand. It can be lonely at times. But also know that there are people out there who are decent and you can lean on. Surround yourself with these people to create a support system. I have recently developed tinitus too that is tough to deal with sometimes. For me, it is usually caused by high blood pressure. Maybe exploring some blood pressure medications could help? Trust me, these people who treated you in this way are living in their own personal hell. Who needs hell when most people experience it here on Earth? Sending love to you man, from one struggling person to another. ❤️

I found myself agreeing with most of the article, more than I thought I would. I don't think this six month moratorium being floated will be that effective. I think the argument for shutting it all down and heavily regulating it would be the only way to stop AI from becoming what we perceive as sentient and potentially killing all of humanity. And I definitely think it's true that almost no one is grasping the risks involved in this rapidly developing technology. I feel like the cat is out of the bag and for selfish reasons this technology will continue to develop quickly even if we suddenly have a huge change of heart and attempt to shut it down. I think the pessimism is warranted.

This is a positive event. Presidents shouldn't be able to do unlimited illegal acts and not be held accountable.

@Tanz You are making a false equivalence here. The right's rhetoric in this instance is much more problematic than the left. Take one look at Marjorie Taylor Greene's tweet, you can't find anything remotely as hateful and factually incorrect said on the left. Plus the Democrats have proposed legislation to limit assault weapons and to fund communities. The Republicans aren't proposing anything serious that will actually fix the problem.

The way the right is demonizing transgender people through this tragedy disgusts me. I truly believe these are the beginnings of genocidal rhetoric. Seriously, change these right wing comments from trans to Jew and it's irrily similar to comments from 1930s Germany.

@gettoefl I appreciate your kind words so much. Beautiful, transparent, and inspiring were never things I would have called myself so it is moving that you see me in that way. All I can do right now is take life a minute at a time while I recover, so I am very thankful to receive your support ❤️

That is a huge trap I have fallen into most of my life. I was born an empath and unfortunately developed into a people pleaser. And I tended to project onto others, assuming that they care about others as much as I do. It has been a tough pill for me to swallow realizing how rare those qualities actually are in most people. I watched this video of Leo's when it was first released, but it wasn't until recently that I grasped the depth of this message: