Jcent

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  1. I actually just recently (within the last few days) made the jump from an iPhone to a $50 flip phone. I essentially did what you wrote about: I bought a digital timer for my meditation habit and my cold showers, I bought a physical calendar for appointments, I bought an SD card to play audio in my car, etc., etc.. All of my social media has been gone for a year. I actually wrote a blog post about it here: https://maximilianmcguiness.wordpress.com/2017/10/23/first-blog-post/. As most people here know, anything can be addictive. All that matters is how we choose to use and relate to these technologies. iPhones aren't inherently addictive. Sometimes all that's needed is a long pause. Sometimes when we leave something alone for a while, we can learn to use it properly again. Most of this fear that "we need to have it" is completely false. We think that if we get rid of our smartphone or our social media we will actually die and get obliterated. But I have done both! And I'm still here!
  2. I'm 17 years old. By the time I finish my senior year in June, I'll be 18. For the last several months I've been thinking about the advantages and disadvantages of going to college, and now I've just recently started to consider the advantages and disadvantages of continuing to live with my parents. Not to sound arrogant or cocky at all, but simply to give context and perspective, I've done really well my entire high school career. Though I am waiting to hear back from many colleges regarding admission decisions, its safe to say that I can go to some of the best schools in the country. I also am fortunate enough to be able to afford these colleges too-- money is not an issue. What is an issue for me though is the time that I cannot get back. Though I'm trying to consider every angle of this, I'm starting to get the idea that it's a waste of time (and my parents' money considering that I don't just lightly make a decision to spend upwards of $200,000 in anything). I'm not interested in spending money that isn't mine and drinking until I go unconscious. Don't get me wrong, my parents aren't millionaires, but they've been saving a lot of money for a very long time. Just to be clear too, my passions have largely to do with creative endeavors and conducting business/ creating a tribe/ creating brand. I currently am pretty passionate about making music. In terms of the relationship I have with my parents, I can only say that it is deterioting very rapidly. My ideas about life, college, the status quo, etc. are becoming so drastically different and incompatible with those of my parents that our relationship is starting to get pretty toxic. We just don't see eye to eye. To be a little clearer here, too, I'm an avid student of personal development. I realize that my schooling is not my education, and that doing well in school is in no way predicative of future success. That being said, however, my unquenchable drive to be excellent, and to better myself, is probably one of my most valuable assets. I guess I just want to know and hear other people's opinions. I would appreciate any feedback from people who have been in similar situations or have had to make similar decisions, that is: move out/ not go to college. Has anyone been successful? Has anyone failed miserably Thanks!!! Joey
  3. It's great to hear input from you guys. Thanks @Arman and @Epiphany_Inspired !!! At this point my focus is on getting 100% better. Though progress is slow, I definitely know that I am on my way to come back stronger. I appreciate your response here. It's good to hear reassurance once in a while! There really is something perfect about all of this, like an elevation of consciousness that is happening all by itself, whether or not I want it to. I guess nature is set on resolving the problems it made for itself. There's this newfound awareness, this indescribable pleasure in this whole process knowing that SOON everything probably will be OKAY. I just recently rediscovered an old analogy that I came up with and previously found resourceful. I thought I'd share it for anyone going through something similar. "Having a concussion is like running with bricks on your back, and as with running with bricks on your back, once you remove the bricks you always return stronger and faster." I think what I was hinting at was that pain is TEMPORARY but lessons are ETERNAL. There's absolutely no way I could go back to a "normal" life now. While the knowledge, wisdom, and ideas being talked about here are incredibly eye-opening and powerful, they also come with a huge burden of KNOWING. I can't just forget about something like enlightenment! I can't just go back to living life like my friends and family. It's complete unconsciousness. I guess as most people here warn, the greatest fear I have is self-sabotage, and the idea that I might somehow backslide. While this could be possible, I feel like my evolution and reincarnation are permanent. In other words, the lessons I have learned from this experience are permanent. I will continue to post with updates and comments. I hope more people will contribute to this topic. While the conversation was perhaps sparked by talk of concussions, I think everyone here is hinting at something larger going on with all injuries and dark phases. A kind of Katabasis... I hope to hear more stories, ideas, and discussion! But I think @Epiphany_Inspired put it best: Thanks, Joey
  4. Hey @Epiphany_Inspired and @Schulzy thanks for replying! I haven't checked this in a little while! To @Schulzy I would say that the pain fluctuates. Recently it has been pretty bad, but I'm working through it. To @Epiphany_Inspired I would say thanks for posting such a detailed response. The fact that even one or two people are out there that care enough to write deeply and meaningfully is heartwarming. To be honest I'm still looking for good supplements. I take basic fish oil and magnesium, astaxanthin, Vitamin A and D, EGCg, some Vitamin C and a centrum multivitamin every day. It's a lot to take all at once so I split it between morning and evening. I often stop taking certain ones too to see if they are actually working or not. I am amazed how much you have been through. I can't imagine 10 more years, but there seems to be a softness in your voice, and that you too can look to some positive things. Tell me, do you meditate? Do you know much about enlightenment? I'm not sure how much you are into these kinds of things, and I am certainly not an expert on either of the two, but my perpetual headache seems to disappear when I meditate. After hearing about some enlightenment material, I've also learned that it's possible to completely dis-identify with things. I will often try saying to myself "This pain is unnecessary. It serves no purpose. I am not this pain." I've had some luck so far, but it's something I'm working on and educating myself on. I have been a little frustrated lately, but I'm learning to accept the present moment, like on a very deep level. It's not like "Yeah! Just live in the present moment" because that means nothing to me. I don't know... I'm interested to hear more about you. What is your life like on a day to day level? Do you have something you are passionate about? While in many ways I have woken the fuck up after getting hit on my head, I can't help to think that this gift of awareness has come at such a great cost. I DO believe that time can heal almost anything. It's hard to stay positive, but I know my future is bright. I refuse to let this pain and fatigue keep me from living out my dreams. My top priority is to get better and to find inner peace. I conceptually understand that there would be no pain if there was no "me", but I haven't reached that level yet... There's almost a twofold frustration in the difficulties of getting better and the difficulties of personal work. Thanks again, Joey
  5. I'm 17 years old. In April of 2016 I suffered a pretty severe concussion from blacking out in my shower. I searched the forum for anything related to concussions but couldn't really find it. I'm a high performer. Before my concussion I would kill it in school and my music. For the majority of my junior year in high school I could work 18 hour days, five days a week, like they were nothing. It's now fall of my senior year. For over seven months I have been suffering from headaches, fatigue, fogginess, mild depression, etc. I was hesitant about writing because I'm not usually one to comment or post things online. I've been to multiple doctors, taken multiple supplements, tried multiple prescription drugs, etc. Now, everyday I meditate for 30-60 minutes. I take supplements in the morning and at night. I've cleaned up my diet. I've been trying to do everything I can to get better, but I still have ridiculous headaches, especially after grinding hard in school and trying to work on making music as well. It's funny too because I basically found self-development because of my concussion. As every newbie initially does, I wanted relief -- and I saw self-development as a way to get some, especially after hearing about enlightenment. In many ways I don't think I would be the same man if I hadn't gone through the majority of it (though I am still going through it). I am hopeful for the future. I know my future is bright. My concussion has taught me incredible patience. I'm more patient with my recovery, but I'm also more patient on my road to self mastery (and mastering my music). I can't help but be happy that I've had a concussion (as twisted as that sounds). I know that without pain there cannot be growth. I know that it's made me stronger. I just want the headaches and fatigue to go away. It's weird too because I know that I create my own reality, but I can't help but be upset with my headaches at times. It's almost like I haven't reached a high enough level to not let this daily physical pain affect me. I guess I made this post because I wanted to hear people's input. Has anyone else gone through something similar? Does anyone have any advice? Does anyone know of any alternate healing methods that have worked? What are your thoughts? Are there any other positive habits that I can implement towards my recovery? Thanks!