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After I decided to quit all internet usage all together, I immediately experienced an ego backlash. A day after making that decision, I decided to burn through my karma and said to myself, “Consume all the content you want now, because after this, you’ll never be able to again.” So that’s what I did. I watched everything I wanted to, and I also played the games I had been craving. I even downloaded a yu gi oh app and played it for two whole days straight. It was a foolish decision. To make a long story short, I suffered from an ego backlash for 12 days straight. It completely disrupted the habits I had been trying to form. It was like a domino effect that broke everything. I failed at eating one meal a day, I stopped doing my two light exercise sessions per day, and I gave up on studying. But I know in my heart that I still need to try and break my internet addiction. I realized that if can’t break it then I can’t even hope to pass the bar. So, I’ll try again. Passing the Bar = Breaking My 10-Year Internet Addiction Habits to build · Journal during Sunday and Monday -- its hard to keep a journal entry everyday, especially if I have classes, but during Sunday and Monday I don’t have classes. (Sunday for weekly recap and Monday for the plans I have for the following week.) · Building great concentration through studying · Two light exercise sessions per day · One meal a day (OMAD) · Morning Meditation

One meal a day is pretty hard, but it's very effective, especially since I'm obese. It's better for me to eat at night. I was able to print my reviewers, and it cost me eight weeks of my allowance. But it’s one of the best investments I’ve made in law school. My only remaining problem is my addiction to watching Netflix, YouTube, or scrolling down. I used to justify it by thinking it was okay since it helped me work out or exercise longer, and helps me relax when I was tired from studying. But now, I’ll try to stop watching, even if it helps me do some things better. Just an experiment. Because I always end up feeling bad. I can tell I’m very addicted to the internet. And I want to change that.

Class has officially started. We had an unofficial discussion, but the real discussions will begin next week. I bought a USB so I can print out the reviewers that were given to me. I'm also going to try eating one meal a day to see if it's effective.

I left early in the morning to do two chores that my parents assigned me. When I got home, I exercised—twice as long as I usually do. I almost didn’t follow through with my plan to study outside, since I was starting to feel tired and lazy, but I was able to push through. I went to a study hub and was able to study for a couple of hours. I think I need to assign more time to my study schedule. Later, I invited my GF to dinner. I noticed that I’m a confident person when I’m with someone I’m comfortable with, but I become anxious or self-conscious when I’m around people I don’t know. Tomorrow, we’re planning to spend the day together. To go to church, maybe have a drink, and spend the night together. I might not be able to journal since I won’t be bringing my laptop, and I usually write my journal entries on it. I’ll try doing it in my Cellphone Actually, I wasn’t planning to make a journal today, since I was very tired, but I pushed through knowing that I will feel bad if I don’t.

Woke up and meditated. I want to make it a habit to do light exercise both in the morning and at night. I studied and was feeling good. But, I wasn’t able to study for long because I got really tired and ended up taking a nap. I woke up and I was shocked since it was already dinnertime. We went out to eat, and after returning home, I rested for a bit and did some light exercise again. I continued studying and was able to finish everything. However, I was not satisfied since I feel I could study a lot more. I don't feel fully prepared for class this Thursday, but I still have three days to prepare. I’m planning to go out tomorrow to study. Maybe I’ll be able to study better outside.

Today, I stayed at home the entire day. I woke up and meditated right away, did some chores, ate, bathed, and made study notes. This has been the most productive day I've had so far in my law school journey. I spent most of the day preparing notes for my classes, which start this Thursday. I’ve already completed notes for one of the three review subjects I have. I plan to work on the second subject tomorrow, and I believe I can finish it before classes begin. It was easier to make study notes since, technically I already took up all subject of law, and my final year is all about review. A friend also visited me this afternoon. He’s an extrovert, and while we were talking, I realized I could benefit from being a bit more like him. If I had his confidence, I think I’d be much better at socializing. He always jokes around, knows how to self-amuse, and he laughs at his own jokes. When I tried to be playful like him, I felt like I lacked the energy. I didn’t go out for dinner—instead, we ordered takeout. After dinner, I talked with my friend, and once he left, I did my daily exercise.

Entry I woke up at 12pm, I meditated immediately after I woke up. After that, I did some chores, ate, bathe, etc. While I was studying, I was informed that we would be leaving early to go to a waterpark (we went there to celebrate). We arrived there at 3pm. We went home at 8pm, I rested for a bit, and took a bath again after. After that, I exercised my body, but I was too tired to continue studying. Instead, I focused on taking notes and managed to complete them. I’ll be going to sleep after this. Things I Noticed About Myself Today: When I arrived at the waterpark, I told myself that I have to enjoy myself. I’m really playful and fun when I’m with my family, I joke a lot and have really fun and pointless conversations, but this happens only in private settings. I was fun and playful when we were at the pool side table. But when it was time to swim, I became very self-conscious. I learned how to swim during my swimming lessons, but today at the water park, I was too self-conscious to even try to swim or train to swim. I have social anxiety. I just want to be the same me in public as I am in private. Looking back, , I am overestimating my fears that I’m feeling. For example, I feared carnival rides. But when I finally tried them because of peer pressure. I was the calmest among the group. And after the first couple of rides, I was down to ride even the scariest rides. My problem is I am afraid of trying things.

TL;DR: Enrolled today. I realize I don’t engage much socially and need to improve. I will try to engage by giving simple compliments. Entry I woke up late today because I slept late. Even though I was still sleepy, I got up because I had to go to school to officially enroll. When I got there, I noticed that I don’t engage much with people. I don’t really socialize. I saw some of my schoolmates, but I didn’t interact with them since they’re outside my social circle. I did talk to one friend, but not to the others. Things I noticed today: I don’t engage with people much. A good example was when I went to the mall. I was looking for a flashlight, and a saleslady gleefully approached me. I completely ignored her and didn’t even acknowledge her presence. The reason I ignored her was because I was still looking around and didn’t want to be talked into buying something. However, I should’ve engaged, just for the sake of training. i should've made a few comment and joked, even if only for a few sentence, instead of completely ignoring her. The problem is, sometimes my mind just goes blank in those situations. Maybe the solution is to start with a simple compliment? For example, I should've said “Wow you’re so kind, but I’m just looking around for a flashlight and I'm still not sure if ill buy one. But thank you” I went to the mall to buy things for school and for home. I ate lunch alone, and I wasn’t really bothered by it. I wasn’t able to study this morning because I went out to enroll and buy things for class and for my room. I got home around 3 p.m., and I was told we’d be having dinner out with my family at 6 p.m. During the time in between, I rested, since I had woken up sleep-deprived. I also exercised and stretched—it’s been a while, so I’m really happy about that. I meditated for around 20 minutes as well, even if it was brief. We went out for dinner around 7 p.m. and got back home by 9 p.m. After writing this journal, I’ll begin studying.

This will be a short journal of my final year in law school, I will include the year I’ll be reviewing for the bar exams. TL;DR: When I 16 years old, I compromised with my parents on my college course and just went with the flow. Now at 26, in my final year of law school, I’ll start to take full accountability. My Journey I graduated from high school in a small city in the Philippines when I was 16 years old. At that time, I wanted to take a course in Tourism. I was very excited and even did a lot of research about it. But I knew my parents wanted me to take a medical course. (My two older sisters were medical technologist, even though they did not want that college course) I really wanted to go to the big city. It felt like a hero’s calling. So I made a compromise. I thought about taking Nutrition and Dietetics. It was still in the medical field. But my parents said no. They believed said that it had a small salary. They told me to take Radiologic Technology (since my father wanted me to have the same job as him). So I compromised again. My first semester in RadTech seemed great at first. Our apartment was in front of the school. There was a night library, a nearby gym, and a new environment where I can learn game (I was a hardcase newbie and a virgin). I joined the gym and made new friends. I studied at night at the school library and meet with fellow pick-up artist. But inside, I was the same. I still felt like shit. I was still always late to classes even though our apartment was in front of the school. I can’t even socialize with my female classmates, although I can socialize with my male classmates. In the big city, I lived with my two older sisters, who were very conservative. They said the gym was too expensive (it wasn’t) and didn’t want me going to the library at night and was afraid that something bad would happen to me or that I’m up to no good. We argued a lot to the point of they would hit me physically. They didn’t let me explore the city. I was so frustrated to the point of crying. I blamed them. I was angry at them. But deep inside, I knew I still felt lost or still felt shitty, just in a different place. So I quit. After the first semester, I went back to our province. I told myself I would go to the gym there, study, and improve myself. I enrolled in a college school in the province and still took RadTech. But again, I didn’t feel any change inside. I felt stuck. I stopped going to class and failed a major subject. My father knew the school principal, so he helped me clear my record. It was like I never enrolled. I dropped out. Later, my mother told me to choose the school and course myself. I chose Accountancy. I thought it was a practical choice and still a compromise, since it was all about money (something my father liked), even though I wasn’t passionate about it. But the school was bad. They had no board passers, and the program was weak and outdated. I only realized this in my second year in college. My plan was to finish the course, work for a while, and later study something I truly loved. But then the pandemic came. I finished college during the lockdown, and I did not know when the lockdown will end. My mother suggested I enroll law school while it was still lockdown due to the pandemic, and I was told the classes were held online. I enrolled and I tried, but I didn’t attend the online class of major subject. I failed that major subject and since it was a major subject, I was held back for a year. I didn’t tell my parents. I was ashamed. When the pandemic ended, I was in my second year. I stayed in law school, just going with the flow. My grades were always just enough to pass. I didn’t give my best. Now, I’m in my final year. I’m currently 26 years old. I made a promise to God: if I passed the mock bar exam (a requirement to enroll in your final year), I would change my life. The mock bar was important—if I failed, I couldn’t take the subjects I failed, and it would delay you for another year. I barely passed the mock bar exams. One subject was just two points above the passing mark. I almost failed—but I didn’t. I was so grateful. I made a lot of promise. The Promises I Made I will no longer blame my parents or siblings for the course I took in college. I will take full responsibility and accountability for my life. I will accept that this is my reality, and I am responsible for it. Habits to Break Netflix – Stop watching YouTube – Stop watching Phone Usage – Close to cold turkey Manga / Webtoons – Stop reading Stalking My Ex – Stop checking Habits to Build Journaling (Online) – Journalling in this forum Studying – Study not just to pass, but to truly understand the law. Writing (Hardcopy Journaling) – Handwritten journalling Exercise – I’m currently obese, and I want to take my health seriously. Play – Be more playful in social interactions Pray – Meditation habit

Atticus finch, my favorite example or epitome of stage blue stage in my opinion. A lawyer who even after being spitted upon, choose not to be violent. He even has the physical advantage, or is someone bigger compared to the hillbilly but chose not to retaliate and just walk away. Pure class and grace and a fine example of stage blue values He is my movie hero. And a goal of what i want to be in the future. It just shows that there is still a lot of good things to implement even if the blue stage is somewhat lower compared to the other stages.

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I’m in. I vote for 3 ?.. i already sleep on the floor because it feels so good

Low consciousness jobs? Are there really any correlations between consciousness and your jobs?/Does your job affect your state of consciousness? I'm 17. My plan right now is to take up BS Accountancy(BSA) so I can learn more about business & taxes. I also have the option to proceed & study law(which I'm also interested in; ) after I finish BSA. But aren't lawyers more about crimes? Wouldn't it put me in a low consciousness place/environment? I was just curious. & I don't want to wake up several years from now just to realize that being a lawyer isn't the right thing for me. (I like strategies, psychology(but I don't want to be a psychologist), business, travel, helping people strategize, making their lives better, solving problems,I'm impressed by subtle manipulations(like pick up), & I hate things/jobs that doesn't involve human psychology like math & medicine) Yeah.. help me out?

I'm also a teen so i'll subscribe to your progress man. Haha Keep it up ?

@Kali I deeply resonate with you bro. I'm also having trouble with social situations And I also find it hard to implement some of the concept of self help I may not offer some advice but i'll be offering you my support. I'll subscribe to your growth And I hope we can grow together Peace ?