d0ornokey

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    Awareness Alone is Curative Dilemma w/Moralizing
    I've been trying to utilize the principle of how Awareness Alone is Curative towards my moralizing. I've identified which should-statements are most toxic in my life which @Leo Gura identified in the video regarding how to stop moralizing. For me, moralizing is pretty much the sole reason I sabotage all opportunities for change in my life and advancing even towards success. So I know this is the thing I know that I need to focus on most of all to unwire. Especially since I'm so out of touch with all senses of positive motivation and have little to know touch with knowing what my genuine desires are.
    So, I've been focusing all my meditation sits on Mindfulness Meditation with noting, labeling, and savoring for the last few weeks and am doing my best to be mindful and aware when I moralize, given the hands-off procedure that goes with the principle of Awareness Alone is Curative. However, I feel like this issue is such a deep addiction that I almost can't function without it. When I objectively observe my moralizing, I'll remain judgement free for a brief window in time but then I hit this confusing point where I become aware of how my moralizing is causing me to suffer but then keep moralizing because I thought that was part of the procedure in using this technique. At the same time though, I also just try to drop it altogether (moralizing) but that doesn't seem to work exactly given how addicted I am to making should statements. 
    I get so frustrated by the fact that I have to let myself keep moralizing through this technique of Awareness Alone Being Curative that I actually moralize more to stop moralizing (man this is getting redundant) because it's so painful to see that given all these weeks I've been applying this principle I still haven't gained any traction at all with this. It's like I'm so pained from objectively watching myself in being dysfunctional when applying this principle and how I just want the change to happen already that I just jump to more moralizing so that I can "just stop already." Once I become aware of that though, it just get's to this dizzying cycle that I just quit the process because of how overwhelming and confusing this becomes. 
    TIps? Advice? Anyone relate to this?