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@Someone here Yeah my bad with explaining what I wanted to ask at the start. Thanks for replying. This makes totally sense!!

@Someone hereHmm thanks. I was thinking what is the reason for sleep? I get that it is pure emptiness in its absolute form but why do we go there every night? Why is not the movie playing over and over?

So, I have been wondering why do humans and animals sleep? What is sleep? What is it spiritually? Do you have any knowledge about that?

@Leo Gura exactly!!

@Leo Gura Of course there are wiser things to do if looking for truth seeking. Maybe for some person it actually raises one's consciousness? My point of it was to approach gaming in positive light and not blaming yourself for it or putting some negative labels on it. Awareness is key too.

@Ima Freeman Thanks for reply! I totally get you about the wasting potential part. I have the same issue with not finding my life purpose. That's why I've become curious why I do get scared of not doing something important in life. I think it mostly is a fear of accepting what it is and surrendering yourself to life. If your heart really wants to play let it play! Also, you can contemplate why do you think it hinders your spiritual journey if you play games? Where did you learn that? What if you learn profound wisdom through gaming? Think positively!

@Bittu omg another Finn in this forum, let's gooo!!

@CredI agree, I think the word discpline is mainly part of stage orange. Some discipline is great if you feel excited about it, but you should follow the river and not trying to fix it. Who said being discipline produces the best result? Why do you need to be disciplined? Are you afraid of not being disciplined? Why is that, what happens then?

I think that if it makes you scared to game because you get sucked in, I feel like it should be a fear to explore. In the end in life you want to do the things that make you happy. I understand that truth seeking is the most important thing you can do but burning through karma is also important. Maybe you allow yourself get so sucked in the game that you play many weeks straight without doing anything else and then after you feel like taking a break from it. Life is not this fixed straight river, it is flowy.

@Salvijus Yeah it is a weak reason, and like said in the other comment I will continue my spiritual journey in current relationship if until the gap is too big. Thanks!

@Elliott Oh wow I didn't think about that there might a confliction if I have a spiritual girlfriend. Yes, I agree that first I need to improve myself so she feels satisfied and secured but if she never stops wanting more and its too much, then I need think about what to do next. Thanks!

@Salvijus That is true but also wouldn't it be beneficial to find a girlfriend then who is spiritual?

So, my relationship is one sided with spirituality. I'm awakening and she is dreaming. Yesterday, she said she feels like she is not my first priority and she doesn't get enought attention. I said I will fix that and actually she knows and believes me because in previous conversations in the past when she has talked about her needs, I have changed to better. They have been actually good things she has brought up, like being more present with her. But, in yesterdays talk, I had to tell her also that the reason for her not feeling as the first priority is that I'm awakening, and I was explaining it with the ocean and water drop example. The thing is that I know my first priority is pursuing the truth. Everything else comes after. I told her that and also that in this lifetime of ours, she is the priority (in relative sense). But even telling her that feels little bit like fooling her, because the truth feels so powerful to me that it is hard to see her as the priority in this life. She wants to be loved the most, which I try to do, but the importance of that is less and less as my inner journey deepens. I want to love everything, not just some things! So in the heat of the conversation, I said that I have been thinking of breaking up. She started crying and asked why. Actually it was a good question, because I realized in the moment that I want to break up so I can pursue truth with less distractions, but I can actually do it while in relationship. She is kind to me and she can give me space to meditate, do psychedelics, retreats etc... So, do I actually want to break up or not? Well... I don't want to but still inside me I have this feeling of if I break up I can really pursue awakening. Also, I feel that as the journey deepens in my end I feel there will be bigger gap between me and her in our views of everything. I need advice from you guys what should a woke person do in a relationship when the other is dreaming.

I had it the next day after ayahuasca ceremony. It brought a lot of tension to the surface and I could have cried the whole time. It felt like it was trying to open the valve from pressure. I cried in some moments but I wish I could have surrendered more, now looking back at it. The feeling itself was so strange, something I've never felt before. Like the whole world was paying attention to me and supporting me. I would like to try it again someday for sure.

Thanks for sharing your trip. It pulled me back to the present moment after focusing only to my work haha. I had San Pedro once but not this kind of a dosage so it was interesting to hear what you experienced