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  1. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Akemrelax said:

    @Someone here Pretty sure it’s a “she”. If   I remember correctly from her pervious post. It was a similar post to this one, exact same actually. They complained about being treated differently due to being a female, “abuse” and about Nahm I think and leaving the forum.

     

    OMG I always wanted to be a pretty girl ?????, but it’s not a she, but I wish lol hahaha thanks for that that was funny, anyhow bye yall xD 

  4. Posted

    Just now, kai0 said:

    people did that over and over again but you refuse to see . you disagree as if nothing has value except your perspective . that known as closed mind please dont get triggered now Im saying this to help without patriarchal pressure like you demonstrated on others like @DrewNows

    No one said anything specific that I’m aware of, I’ve been accused of dismissal and abuse. I would like to see concrete instances of where I’ve done that.

     

    youre just accusing me of stuff without giving specific details. How could I take that seriously lol.

     

    if the case is what Nahm just quoted, that was a boundary. Admittedly a little rough around the edges, yet I’m not responsible for the problems of other people when I’m resolving something of my own, it was a distraction and it was quite an aggressive one, and I did not care for that. 

  5. Posted

    Just now, Nahm said:

    If I said this there’d be riots! lol. 

    But isn’t this true, this is my thread about pretty significant issues, if someone starts weeping in a place where I weep, I don’t have enough space to weep out what I wanted to weep out (yes it’s a word, I just decided lol). 
     

    what he posted was so far off topic and irrelevant that setting that boundary was necessary, even if I set it in a harsh way.

    i am not always 100% lovey dovey with everyone because I prefer being real. I used to be much more lovey dovey because I was overcompensating for fear of intimacy and authenticity.

     

    ps, I meant no disrespect when I said the only reason we are speaking is because you’re a mod and I can’t block you. Because the two of us have obviously a hard time getting along blocking each other is the best option, I cannot block you and you quoting me is violating our agreement Of you not engaging with me anymore. This isn’t done out of hatred but out of the respect for the personal space we both need to be our best selves outside of each other’s realities.

     

    I don’t know if you can as a mod but my suggestion would be for you to block me in the honour of our individualities.

     

    i don’t personally love that you’ve broken your promise of no longer interacting with me by quoting me again.  

  6. Posted

    1 minute ago, Preety_India said:

     

    @SirVladimir  you can see the post above.

    Also the point I was trying to make was that vulnerable people cannot be on this forum. Because they have a totally different threshold for sensitivity and trigger.. For which they shouldn't be blamed or expected to compromise because it's not that they were abused. Their abuse has made them sensitive to judgment, what they need is support and kindness and caring

    .but if they come here, judgement is all they get. They are made to look like there is something lacking in them when the reality is that they need someone to make them feel better. This is important to their recovery. 

    And judging them will only make their situation worse.. 

    Yet this is not something that I need to say. 

    This is so obvious and I thought that a forum with so spiritual people (half of them are new agey spiritual psycho-babble saintly acting projecting toxic positivity people who love to take pride in making spiritual platitudes in how saintly and great they are and yet their advice is not all pragamtic and not helpful in the least) 

    This has nothing to do with the dating section however 

     

     

    I second this. 

  7. Posted

    I’ll even admit, I’ve called people names, taken my insecurities on others, manipulated, pressured, insulted and attacked others people in my life.

     

    Hands in the air, ‘‘twas me father for i have sinned’

     

    that is because in the past I was in great amounts of pain that was yet to be healed. I haven’t always been so sure of myself that I felt like I can only positively contribute. It was a long and exhausting process of pain, death, rebirth and surrender until the light that I am started leaking through my words, choices and actions. 
     

    and now I’m here. Almost feeling as if I could do no wrong, without being arrogant or narcissistic about it.

     

    and if I’ve done wrong, SHOW me, and if it was wrong in any way, I will make it right. 

  8. Posted

    1 minute ago, kai0 said:

    alright so lets say I told you your using anti abuse narrative to justify fear of turning inwards . you will agree??? 

    I will not agree, but you’re entitled to your opinion and as such I honor your perspective and thank you for expressing it in a non-aggressive way, as confronting aggression is still something I can struggle with.

     

    just because I disagree doesn’t mean I’m abusing you come on we can’t be that codependent xD

    2 minutes ago, Pallero said:

    Thank you! :x

    you’re much welcome ! :) ?

     

     

     

    ps guys yall saying how insensitive and abusive I am, coool gimme specifics I’m not scared to confront it all. 

  9. Posted · Edited by Martin123

    9 minutes ago, Pallero said:

    Personally I haven't experienced much abuse on this forum. I don't post a lot, and when I do, my posts are often ignored. I don't know why. Maybe they don't make sense to people or maybe I'm not being edgy or confrontational enough.

    But I have seen many many many cases of abuse towards others. Once or twice I've pointed this out, but again, I've been ignored.

    This forum is just not for me. I mostly come here only when I'm feeling self-hating and depressed. Then I click open any thread to read someone being abusive and it gives me an emotional release. I get angry. Sometimes it gives me empowerment. That's it. In the beginning I saw good and interesting resources here, but not anymore.

    Believe it or not I intimately understand your experience, you may be someone who gets overwhelmed by the emotional experiences of others and I wanna validate and confirm your frustrations, anxieties, hang ups and depression and sadness. It is all within you and you deserve to be seen and heard in it’s full glory.

     

    believe it or not everything you feel is your contribution to the healing of the collective and on behalf of humanity I wanna congratulate and thank you for everything you’ve done and continue doing on a daily basis, one feeling/thought/fatigue/frustration at a time.

     

    much love and all the best ❤️??

  10. Posted

    3 minutes ago, Akemrelax said:

     

    @Martin123 I can’t help but notice that while you accuse others of being toxic and dismissive of you, you yourself have made comments in this thread that are dismissive and rude. I have seen you miss judge other’s intentions when they criticize you quite a few time.

     

    Thank you for your feedback. Please be specific. When I pointed out Leo’s behaviour, I was specific, until you’re specific  with me I have nothing to work with.

     

    thank you kindly.

  11. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Shin said:

    It's not important, what's important is that you're complaining about something you do yourself.

    Then give me a direct example oh my god dude I don’t wanna bang my head against the wall here, just show me what I said you found insulting and We can move this conversation along, please don’t expect me to break down into inferiority complex just because you don’t Like the things I say.

  14. Posted

    3 minutes ago, Shin said:

    See that's what I'm talking about ?

    You think I'm passive agressive with you, when in fact I'm full of love with you.

    Just want you to see that being negative and feeling amazing at the same time is impossible, that's all ?

    Let me get this straight.

    you say I’ve insulted someone without directly saying who and what you have in mind, then you put a bunch of smiley faces, and then you have the audacity to say you’re not passive aggressive ?

     

    bro! Come on ? I’m an extremely positive person, and I’m positively feeling about how honestly speaking up and sharing about how things are will only have a positive effect on everyone here. 
     

    I honestly want you to share, if I was at fault apology from me would be nice and welcomed wouldn’t it, if I’m not I can explain myself...

  19. Posted

    7 minutes ago, electroBeam said:

    I haven't experienced abuse on this forum for like 3 yrs and pretty active on here, but I don't go looking for it either.

    As someone who has different viewpoint on many things than most people here and who is not afraid to express it I can often become a target of the emotional responses my sharing is triggering within others, it is just the way it is, I share, someone gets triggered, and then they project, and I send blessings and press ignore, and life goes on until I decisively leave this place... 

  20. Posted

    2 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    would you abandon those who wish to exchange energy with you for their own healing?

    That depends, the moment they start being disrespectful they are receiving no benefit from my healing light and I am being more of a distraction from the things they need to reconcile with alone when I’m not there, despite it being something they might not want. Often what someone wants and what they need doesn’t match up because we’ve been conditioned to crave things that are not good for us, that is the essence of addiction, and while we may not all be drug addicts, every ego has some type of an addiction before it is integrated, that is just the way of how egos are. 

     

    5 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

    Healing is the way of life, and it never ends; basically the art of allowing 

    I appreciate the emphasis on allowing, but allowing is often too passive.when we talk of healing we must talk of the most healing thing there is, which is love and more importantly self love, self love isn’t passive it is extremely dynamic. Like a parent caring for a child Who doesn’t just ‘allow the child’ to be, but makes a conscious and deliberate choice to be there for them no matter their circumstances of experiences. No matter what, I’m here with you honey, we will do this together, and know that I will love you and hold your hand through every part of this process. I love you and I make it known through my words, actions and intentions. 

  22. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Max_V said:

    @Martin123 This renonates a lot. I hope I can remember it. I don't mean that in a jokingly way, but honestly it feels like all the things I'm trying to do to take a step forward, fall back into the depths of my mind and I return to numbing out all that that makes me feel inauthentic and disrespected. 

    Might just be a big backlash from all that i've been going through, but man, it feels like there is this huge force that just wants to make everything that hurts numb

    That’s okay, just allow it to come through whatever it is, if there is a part of you that wants to numb it out, don’t deny it for that is just another layer that deserves respect, it’s not wrong it’s just there to be felt and healed. Numbness is an emotion too, and it deserves the same loving treatment as all other aspects of you.

     

    Don’t worry about remembering it, the words come with an energetic transmission that is already rewriting your nervous system and subconscious mind and you not being able to remember is just your mind perceiving it as a lack of control. Plus, you can always come back and reread the words to increase the benefit when you see and feel fit. 

  23. Posted

    Just now, DrewNows said:

    @Martin123 i never understood the purpose of blocking, who's here to avoid negative emotions/criticism/judgement ("toxic behaviors")? Maybe just those who fear or believe it holds no value. In the shadows lie great opportunity

    Well for me personally (and for everyone in some point of their journey), my ability to block others and walk away from toxic situations hold infinite value because I as a child was conditioned and rewarded for betraying abandoning and disrespecting my own boundaries, because I was raised by abusers.

     

    therefore when I allow myself to walk away/block/speak-up/set boundaries, I am initiating new levels of healing in my field that start transmuting layers of ancestral trauma that I was born to resolve,

    I think that’s a very nice purpose... :) 

  25. Posted

    1 minute ago, Max_V said:

    @Martin123 Ah, I see.

    I'm curious, how would you go about healing emotional trauma nowadays? I need all the help I can get in working through old patterns that are holding my back a lot in growing as a person. Old Max doesn't want to let go.  

    The old Max doesn’t want to let go only because you perceive him as an enemy.

    you have an adversarial relationship with your ego and are treating it as an enemy to deny and run away from, rather than a part of you that is begging for love and attention.

     

    Treat yourself and your ego with care, with love and with respect, embrace yourself with enthusiasm and authenticity. Be honest about how you feel, and feel deeply and feel more, and allow feeling to be your spiritual practice.

     

    If I tune into your energy, the first thing the comes up is that you need more respect for yourself, and then the question becomes ‘how am I disrespecting myself on a daily basis?’

     

    if you lead with respect, respect for your ego, for your mind, for your emotions and experiences, all that is meant to be let go, will let go of you with a parting letter saying ‘thank you for respecting me, I now received and taught you all that I needed, and am letting go of you as a way of bringing new and positive energy into your field, creating more space for healing and expansion to dawn.’

     

    and lastly, what you can do is to think which one of your parents taught you to disrespect yourself on a daily basis, where self dis-respect was rewarded as if it were a good thing, and doing things that were respectful of you and your own boundaries were punished as if it were something bad to shy away from.

     

    respect the ego, because the truth of who you are has infinite respect to all of creation, including and  especially  the ego.

     

    that is what came through for you today, may you take time to take it in and integrate it in the best possible way.

     

    all the best.