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And most certainly - a coyote.

I enjoyed first season very much. Like you say, it wasn't too predictable. Second one made me tired, perhaps because of the weird pacing, or because I watched it all in one go But the very ending was worth it. No spoilers, but I find those kinds of metaphysical themes show up more and more in pop-culture

Interesting. Is the voice generated or recorded? Edit: I saw in your other post that it's an AI. Overall, I think it has a potential. The track is very pleasant. But it could use some more expressive and rhythmic voice. Then it could be delicious.

Im invested. Care to explain? Footage of what? And how do you monetize it? I go to a clinic, and take new drugs for cash. It's called "early phase clinical trials for healthy volunteers". I'm basicallly a lab rat.

In the past couple of days, this (especially from 1:51 and 5:46):

Thank you for sharing!

And Elan, Bashar's associate. Slightly different style.

Same. I sometimes have very vivid and tactile dreams. And when those get erotic, I wake up feeling like I've actually had a partner.

Of course it is. For me it's been both - triggering and grounding. Most triggering, when I was first discovering all the novel ways to live, for my family to dismiss or misunderstand them. Most grounding, when I was visting them on Sunday, after tripping on acid in my apartment, and losing any sense of stability. Tripping a lot and living on my own for 8 months, made me miss my parents a lot.

At certain point I found Peterson's "12 rules for life" highly inspiring. I was struggling to get out of nihilistic rut. I wouldn't say that it had a deep impact on my life as a whole. It just propelled me further on my journey.

After highschool I was a handyman/technician for 14 months. I had no idea what I was doing. My uncle got me into the company. Currently, I earn supplementary income in clinical trials for healthy volunteers. I live with my family, and try to be as helpful as I can. This is how it's been for 1.5-year. I have no clear plans. I wait for AI and aliens to take over the world

I've had metaphysical intuitions since I can remember. As a child, I would get struck with thoughts like: "All my life and memories could have sprung into existence a second ago, and I couldn't know. New realities can be appearing every moment - reality after reality" "No one can really know me, because my perception is absolutely isolated and internal." I didn't know how to frame it then and didn't even take it seriously, but there was always an urge to fantasize about such stuff. I was raised as a catholic and became obsessed with God and understanding the Bible. With each year I was more and more devout, to the point of going to church every morning at 15-16 of age. Finally, the need to fully understand God, lead to a cognitive crisis. I could no longer adhere to dogma, with my mind constantly set on ultimate questions and deconstruction. At 17, I fell into a 1.5-year-long nihilistic depression, which I tried to break out of with materialism and pragmatism. I've tried to find meaning in modern-day preachers like Jordan Peterson and Sam Harris. At last, completely defeated and confused, I typed "how to deal with nihilism" into YouTube, and I found a clip from Leo's video. Then I spent months listening to hundreds of hours of Leo's content and trying to connect dots. With this conceptual framework, I've tried different psychedelics regularly from age 19 to 20. With Leo's guidance and chemicals, I've freed up my intuition and now explore different perspectives on spirituality, with Infinity as my base.

The first video of Leo's I watched was a clip from this one: I would definitely recommend it to someone going through a value crisis. Other than that, it has to be personal and aligned with the specific interests of the person you are sharing this with.

Actualized Quotes #148 and Grasping Consciousness - Faces Exercise These posts are some of my favorites in a long time.

Maybe I can point out something useful for you. Notice that there were signs and nudges but the choice was ultimately yours. At that time, you had your own reasons to keep going, and you did. There was no set path. You weren't really "supposed to" do anything. The source of guidance that you felt you had allowed you to go on, and for the situation to escalate. If "It" really wanted you to stop, there were infinite ways to stop you. The same mechanism of synchronicity would apply. This feeling is understandable for me. Now, if the infinite universe allowed you to go down this path, why would it now become strict all of a sudden? Why would "It" ignore your choices now? It might happen differently now, sure. The situation did change, and you entered a different phase. So your contact with the source might change its form. Or it might not. Like I said above, I don't know how it works for you. I won't suggest any specific course of action, attitude, or practice. I can promise only this: There are no real punishments in the basic ruleset of the universe. They only exist within a certain mindset. I am not saying this to invalidate your feelings. You will go through them one way or another. I am suggesting that you may experiment with your perspective, and be playful even. You can try to connect with this guidance in new ways. This will also give you a chance to appreciate how diverse "good paths" can be. Even the latest Leo's post points to this. I will too.