pablo_aka_god

My goal for this year is to build a genuine connection with one woman! In order to focus on this I need to get sex out of my mind and this is the best way I can think of. I already tried it yesterday by hiring an escort for 30 mins and it was amazing, it felt like 20 kg were lifted out of my shoulder

This is an idea that I’m exploring, I’m 28 years old and have never had a girlfriend. I’ve explored the PUA scene for a few years and have had a few fuck bodies and some 20+ girls I’ve slept with. However for some reason I struggle a lot to connect with women. I haven't had sex in the last 5 months and I know if I put my focus on daygame for 1 or 2 months I end up getting some. However I’m tired of this cycle of not getting sex, then focussing on game for some months while neglecting other areas, getting sex then having to stop due to LP commitments and then repeating this cycle. This is not a rant, I write this because I’m still exploring possible solutions and here I will describe one that I will try for the upcoming weeks. The desire for sex drove me into watching a lot of porn and even into spending 2K USD into a trip to Colombia to game there(way easier than in my city) but I changed my mind last minute and didn’t go so I lost that money(15% of my savings). So I’m 28 years old, can’t connect with women and desire for sex is driving me crazy but I’m tired of working so hard on my game and so many rejections when I prefer to spend that time on other long term projects where I do see the benefits. I have plenty of assets: I’m healthy, average looking, dress well, workout, live in a beautiful part of my city in an expensive flat, I make good money, I have high quality friends and family which I hang out with every other day. I travel often. I’m at a point in my life where I’m satisfied with all life areas except relationships with women and I’m not willing to sacrifice some of the amazing lifestyle I have to do daygame and get treated as a weirdo by strangers. I know that when I do daygame I have to work out less and even see friends less to focus on the game, I can’t do everything. The fact that I’ve had long and honest relationships with beautiful people(male friends) and I’ve created such a good lifestyle from nothing makes me realize that I’m capable of having a high quality relationship with a woman I admire. If I can do it with men I can probably do it with women too. My idea is to pay weekly to some escort or massagist to masturbate me or bang me so that I can release my sexual tension, this way I stop watching porn and can release the tension for sex. Then I will continue growing my men friends cycle, working out, improving my appearance and doing personal development courses(I will do Tony Robbins UPW next month) and have some breathing room to work on the root cause problem in the long term rather than investing hours in game which seem to go nowhere. Maybe I will hire a therapist or coach to work on this long term, but with the goal of being able to have fun and connect with women the same way I can do with my male friends

Congratulations! I hope to do an ayahuasca trip this or next year but I need to overcome my fear first

I wanted to leave a record of a situation that happened to me 10 days ago. I opened a very sexy petite girl in daygame the day after I came back from my new year's trip. we hooked and went for a coffee. the girl was very feminine and I was feeling great with her, like I never did with any other girl. she confessed to me that she had been a victim of abuse for 5 years in her last relationship and very hard stuff of her ex which died 2 years ago, I took the fact that she was telling me all that as a good thing since it's an emotional investment. 20 mins in the cafe and she said she had to leave and I went w her to the bus stop while we waited for the bus we talked about our next date and she gave me her number. when the bus came she gave me a peck kiss and left. hour later I messaged her and it was the wrong number. when I look at the number it's weird, the pattern of numbers looks made up, like the number I would create if I tried to make it up on the spot yet was a valid number. This situation was so weird that I was sad for a few days. it's been a while since I go on a date w a girl which I feel so attracted to both physically and mentally. I wish I new WTF happenned.

Also if you feel bad for them I think it's nice to offer help, specially if you work with them. I would say show the other chick but slap when you have to.

If they are friends or distant relatives you can stop seeing them. Why having friends that don't want the best for us?. If they are coworkers which you can't avoid it's complicated. I was in this situation last year and tried to be nice to my team mate who was struggling, in return he treated me poorly so whenever I felt like his attitude was getting in the way of my work I would let him know politely, ultimately the conversations escalated and I took it with the bosses. They supported me and the guy ended up leaving the company when you are doing good it's inevitable to make some people envy you. it's sign you are living life as it should be lived so congratulations!

daygame session. 4 openings in total. wing Zen helped me to do first opening since I was feeling w low self esteem cause im not working out. second indirect opening he also told me to do and since hot girl was receptive I immediately did a direct opening after. girl was waiting for a bus and was last in line I did it even though there were other people close by. we had a 3 min convo and I left since I wasn't excited to continue. After I asked a girl for a cafe w Zen on my left. girl was reluctant to talk but after I made a few comments that felt honest she trusted me more and started speaking more relaxed. That felt great, something I did made me trust me. which is to show her a little bit more of myself. this is big learning, talk about myself so girl trusts me more. I even expressed an opinion when to 2 girls I told them that the cafe near by didn't look like it has good coffee and both girls liked that comment.

daygame session w wing zen. more than 3 direct openings. + at least 2 indirect. last one asked a girl for a cafe and she felt hooked and was very sexy to me but I chickened out and didn't escalate. she was my target(big ass, short and morena) and was walking slow wearing a yellow shirt and tight pants(leggings). thats a signal that she was looking for sex. damn I feel like shit for not escalating.

I'm very curious about trying microdosing but I'm dubious about whether any improvements experienced during microdosing would persist or go away after I stop doing it. Have you done microdosing and then stopped? when you stop did you lose your superpowers? did you experience any withdrawal symptoms? I'm thinking about mushrooms microdosing in particular since that's the only psychedelic I have safe access in my area. My main goal is to be more stable emotionally since some days I become sad and negative

Also it's not mandatory to connect with every waitress and barista one bumps into. Some are opened and others aren't looking for it.

helping a girl just because you want to fuck her is creepy and manipulative as hell

daygame session. 3 openings. 1 ask for coffee. energu was right. 1 direct opening. girl just said thanks and didnt stop 1 direct opening. girl left but I was loose enough to make a joke and laughed

daygame session. almost dont do it but bumped into a big ass gial w red pants, was so sexy that I opened her directly. in total did 3 openings: 1 direct + 2 ask for coffee

daygame session. 3 indirect openings. 1 direct opening. girl was looking down and away so I didn't push it. opening was well done though and energy during interaction felt right.

quick update since last post: last weekend friday-saturday I travelled 7 hours to the biggest custom party in Argentina(FDD Parana) w people I know from the pickup course. Friday: only opened 1 set at night while buying stuff at a store, opening was natural didn't even try. Saturday: did daygame at afternoon(only a few short interactions, none lasted much but at least opened). at night I went to the party and did a few openings and even direct openings inside the party. Sunday(payday): did not game today but had a date at night with a girl I met a week ago on daygame(we kissed in the insta date). I pulled her to my house and she gave me a beautiful handjob, blowjob and boob job. For some reason she felt insecure about taking her skirt off so I enjoyed the other pleasures she gave me and came inside her mouth Monday: 4 openings, only a very short interaction(1 min) until girl left.