Optimized Life

"any sort of muscularity" lool, she's literally MASSIVE even for a DUDE. She looks like a man on steroids, even most men on steroids dont look that big. Shes so god dam giga gorilla masculine that shes making me quesiton my own gender Maybe i am just an effeminate little worm, get that big cock out serena, go easy on my rectum!

Not always. Many many people make money due to a combination of luck, timing, family connections, location ect.. Look at Donald trumps family history, his father was extremely rich, fred trumps father was also quite rich, and his father before him was also quite rich .. Fred trump was likely very hard working and industirous real estate developer, but the core difference is that he came from wealth down the line, even floyd MW came from a boxing family, yeah he worked hard but he got the unique oppurtunity to start it inmediately with his dad being an expert coach, no one else had that advantage and thats why hes the best light weight boxer in the world I have met people who made millions in 2021 just because they had the right timing and connections and got onboard before everyone else. You could argue how clever and competent they are but really they just cought onto a legal unregulated and unhinged ponzi scheme and were the initial investors. Most people with good jobs just had good families and good schooling and were funneled into it through the system, like it was always meant to happen, and even in those jobs they're not normally really doing anything special, they're basically just existing and doing basic shit or some bullshit, like in many banking jobs, the system is pretty rigged. But yes, to make a LOT of money like multiple millions or more it often does require extreme talent or something (or extreme exploitation). Being a neurological psychopath (with decent intelligence & focus capacity) is the most guaranteed and fastest way to get rich i would say ; when you are unburdened by any moral constraint, and by the autonomic and stubborn amagdela reactions of fear, anxiety, guilt, and have an obscene stress tolerance and conflict tolerance, shit just moves way faster, you can get things done so much faster than normal people, you can manipulate everyone and screw desperate people and use them and lie and exploit your way to money and power very quickly, and they sleep perfectly doing it.

Playful hobbies and energy catharsis : The social and psychological healthiness of a society relies, to an extent, on that societys cultural integration, and endorsing, of social, playful energy purging hobbies and customs, especially which are man to women. Societies that dont have this, suffer from weaker bonds, higher stress, and more social anxiety. Also from outbreaks of dysfunctional tension release/coping mechanisms and habits, social media addiction, worse sleep, drug & alcohol abuse, probably more health problems too. Anglo saxons, western, northern, asian cultures may think something like tango dancing, salsa, bachata is just a cute & niche hobby at best, perhaps cringe at worst. In reality its an indispensable part of cultural, social and individual survival for these cultures, the west just never caught on. (insights like these can only be created, and understood through experience and intuition, nothing i say makes any sense if you just read it, or "research" it like some rationalist academic dork, i only wrote this because i've done these hobbies myself, watched people doing it, been around different people from every possible place, seen their neuroses, seen their problems that were culturally conditioned into them, this is in a sense a form of "spriituality", except far more practical, useful, relatable than leos bullshit sanctomonius ultra abstract spirituality, my spirituality is pragmatic, if you're disconnected from material results, outcomes, impacts on people and society, then you're fucking useless in practice, cant stand people that are so "advanced and stage yellow" on paper yet they've never done anything, or at bare minimum abstracted and written anything that actually can, or very potentially can impact material results and behavior or health changes for others. I dont even claim to be advanced or a good guy, i have no moral highground, i even admit that I'm a POS most of the time, yet I still always think in material results and changes.

Update : I have mostly wasted my day. I am holding severe tension in my body and dont know how to resolve it without alcohol I feel the fear of aging, regret, time running out But its not some sutble thing I actually have such bad hyperbolic levels of tension in my body that i feel i might have to drink And yes caffiene abuse doesnt help, but that also comes from tension Catch 22 because i need to focus, but its not easy, the pressure doesnt just disappear, and the later u get into your 20s the worse it gets, im sure it gets even worse at 30+ Society is fucked, ideally wed all be able to get close to our peak at 16, overall, life money everything, so we could just start enjoying it from the beginning of adult youth, then by 30 you have no regrets but also you just keep enjoying it anyway big long happy life. In reality most people are still scrambling and panicking at 25-30 and still, only 10% of those people even make it eventually. Its a harsh world, and I need a fucking drink im sorry. Im not quitting on the challenge, but i have to start again tomorrow, i have too much tension, i dont have enough time in life, its running out. And i dont mean "its running out" as in oh no another 20-30 years until i get old literally I mean a few years or less and im dead. Ambitious people like myself dont fuck around, we dont settle for medocirty. Id genuinely rather die then live a mediocre, inauthentic normie existence.

1. Fix desk - no more hunchback 2. 100 Hour work weeks scheldued, - 16-17H per day 3. Get rich inmediately

Reminder : This forum is cringe, Leo is a boring nerd who dresses like some college professor dork, most people on here are dorks, i dont want leos lame life, he's a vibe killer, i do NOT take this forum seriously, its a fucking joke to me, how could u take leo seriously? lmao hes a nobody dude Yet im still here, because the journal structure is good Im here for structure, im here to journal, here for fucking results. No silver spoon, have to work hard always inlife. Alright lets go 1. Im in the hunchback habit of working slouched on my shitty cheap low desk and im killing my back and posture nad health. I need to stop this, its so easy to just normalise to bad stuff like this, kind of like how someone in cuba just normalises to poverty (people in general normalise to anything) yet i actually have a conscnious choice and ability to change it, i can get a higher desk, i can change my setup, i am not stuck in cuba. 2. I am starting a 90H 100H workweek challenge to try and escape poverty and change my life. I am trying to move country, to get more visas, to have money in the bank, to be free, to sleep better, eat better, to have time to date and all this. It always comes down to money in this world, i cant complain anymore, i have to fight for it, im not lazy but im simply not doing enough, whatever u think it takes, it takes 10* more. I'm not american, i dont have a silver spoon, i have no one, i was giving nothing, no good schooling, no encouragement, no connections, no infrastructure, no ambitious friends, nothing, just a dawg inside of me, i have to honor that dawg, i have to work literally 90 hour weeks. not literally 90 hours on working itself per se, but 90 hours of total work output, 5 of those hours could be networking, another 5 could be cold approaching or gym ("work" = goal oriented output, not just performing a job) , but until those 90 hours are up each and every week, there is no sitting around, there is no youtube, there is no forum idling, there is no netflix. In fact, given that im incorporating a broad view of "work", i might have to upgrade my standards for work ethic as 100 hours, not 90, because a solid 70+ needs to be just actual money work, im including studying, language learning as well, getting smarter, then there's like creativity work, brainstorming sessions. 100H/Week = 100/7 average >> 14 Hours, 17 minutes per day average 24H/Day > sleep 7 hours > 16/17 hours in a day Thats still 2/3 Hours not working makes sense takes like an hour just to get up in the morning hour to cool down at night Then lunch break whatever It's doable for sure 100 H fucking work weeks. Time to mog all you fucking lazy mfs Ok journal structure = report : 1. Hours drifting (doing nothing/indecisive, being slow, durping) 2. Hours distracted (i am allowed to watch youtube or whatever, but i have to notice it, record it and time it with my stopwatch, every single time, then log it) 3. Hours of work With trend is feedback and dopamine from seeing the numbers go up Ideally id say fuck all this just start 100H workwee now fuck it dont think But if that doesnt work, then i'll hit plan B, which is the tracking/dopamine, gamifying strategy AGGRESSION MONEY POWER PURPOSE IINFINITE SUCESS 100 HOUR FUCKING WORK WEEK

Thank god Im not a pedo But sadly, I was Born with APD - Autistic Penile Disorder Hopefully the state will fund my rent out of sympathy

Yes 2 so far 1. was working with immigrant woman back of kitchen together 2. I was a waiter and she was with her husband, she started eye fucking me and .. i made a quick move at the bar Its pretty funny to me tbh I will spare the more vulgar details

As do surely 99.9% of the human population because the brain is hardwired to remember the shocking, vivid, visual, disturbing pattern interrupts like 9/11

No its not a spectrum. There is a clear line between pre pubescent vs post puberty/fertile woman. That isn't to justify fucking a 15 year old because shes post puberty. But Pedophile = Exclusive attraction to pre-pubescent woman. There is a hard boundary i believe for the clinical disorder (not talking about general sex offences)

Yeah leo is right, "most arent molesters" because of the logistics of doing so is so awkward, difficult, illegal and clumsy, combined with the obscene risk If there was lower surveillance, police, social media, social outrage/awareness, and lower social safety nets and weaker communities, im sure all th latent molestors would suddenly appear and start running rampant

Unless it was sex with a perfect 11/10 who was some kind of divine geenie goodess from the kingdom of atheness with 4D Tits.

This sentence made me sphill my drink and burst out laughing I am sorry but those 2 words should never coexist in a brief sentence

Avoidance Te : RUNAWAY RUNAWAY Actualized.org - Leos blog Actualized.org Forum - All of it Actualized.org in general for now - Blocked, Te journal 1*/week only Youtube - blocked Google/microsoft browser ads, suggestions, feeds, blocked Epstien and conspiracy content - blocked *None of these things are inherently bad and can make life interesting, but I have extremely high standards for work ethic (not merely as a principle, but i wasnt born with a silver spoon, I have to work my ass off just to get a chance at a decent life, i dont have time for this, but i will allow myself conspiracy content, podcast, whatever, for 30-60 minutes if i have successfully done a 14-16 hour work day that ticked off the boxes for momentum driving material results that i set out, then i can unblock youtube for an hour or soemthing, watch something then block it again Move towards Te : Work (money), 600 million in the bank Logistics, passports, power, multi country man, transcend beauracracy, Cold approach, multiple girlfriends, dating abundance, 15 mothers, 40+ children, Hobbies & Practical/useful learning (foreign language practice, marketing/sales, Gym, low bodyfat cut Start making content myself, mostly for personal hobby, personal brand, self expression, creativity, intellectual development and expression, money not the agenda of this at all, but could be a side effect. Decisive bold, discplined, abundant, creative, flexible, fast acting warrior time, once again.

I commited and emphasized Te, discipline, material results, momentum Getting lean, losing bodyfat, Making money, logistics, power throwing away cheap pleasures that dont fulfill me (junk food, binging content, porn ect..) - These are "cheap" and dirty pleasures, but actually very expensive ; time and focus cost ... and money (junk food can add up to thousands of dollars a year without realizing) 2. Something has happened to my brain and body, I dont know what happened - basically months ago i was easily able to stay off the content, avoid or minimize sugar, junk, futile spending, wake up early ect.. but somehting has actually happened to my brain and body on a physiological level where i feel like im a daily walking ball of addiction, hard to explain what i mean lingusitically, but its like i started to just introspect the trappy addictioness in my body, you know, like its not just like "hey let me ban youtube on my laptop to limit content use (its valid) but the deeper layer is moreso, "what's actually going on in my body that makes me keep retreating into this energetically, why am i so stuck, because its not exactly depression, its something else), hard to explain but addiction is widespread, systemic and sneaky as fuck, it creeps in, i have had multi year periods of almost no junk, and somehow im eating junk daily again, somehow i am spending multiple hours a day on content How do i find myself again? Te - Consistent, cyclical, daily, weekly, monthly Te - Goals, Structure, decisiveness, mastery planning, review, written lists, feedback, accountability, coach, goal setting, audio reminders, alarm clock reminders, notes, self honesty, tech blockers, declutter, mental clarity, commitment, regrounding to purpose, that my time is so valuable, that my talents are invaluable, that I deserve success Introspection, feeling into my body reguralry if i do get into these states or addiction loops Written reminders and drilling in, day by day goals, to do, to not do, to stop doing, targets, metrics ect..