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yes, I've felt that, I was homeless once with a child, we had to live in a walk-in closet for 6 months, I've gone without food, been beaten, etc, etc, etc money troubles and trying to survive can be so hard I thought about suicide a lot, and took a lot of chances where I might die by accident but it never happened the thing is, that today, I am so glad I didn't die spiritually though, if you die without going through this then won't you just go through it again in the next life? might as well just plow though, I hope things turn around for you soon <3

clinical depression puts you at a different starting point, most people can't directly go from being clinically depressed to meditating and exercising every day it could be different for you but most people would need an in between step like therapy and or medication, idk if you can just overcome clinical depression on your own by exercising and meditating...

if you're not sure but you think you might need a doctor you should call, better safe then sorry... if it turns out it was awakening then great but if you don't call and it turns out to have been an emergency then not great

nothing. that's why I did a whole bunch of drugs and other things, I was for looking satisfaction I know what satisfaction is now, it's the absolute infinity, but I'm not satisfied because I've only glimpsed it, I'm at the beginning, I don't even know really what any of this is

I first started doing drugs because I just didn't care about anything, so why not? there was never any reason for me to not do drugs as a child plus at that time I could not imagine doing something like going out to a movie, things like that seemed like such an incredibly boring waste of time why would anyone go sit in a boring movie theater when you could drop acid and watch the entire sky turn into a strobe light and then melt? I don't do drugs anymore and I now enjoy just simply watching a movie...but I am certainly still not satisfied with only that!

how cool! what else have you been doing besides watching videos? do you watch others in addition to leo, meditate, what else? thanks!

haha yes crying, laughing, both at the same time one time I was walking down the street and had a realization, I didn't laugh or cry that time I just yelled out "oh!" really loud and a lady who was walking her dog looked at me like I was a crazy person

@PsiloPutty thank you!

@i am I AM @WindInTheLeaf thanks for your help guys, that was kind of scary...

does it mean that what I think about my child will be taken from me? meaning the way that I think will change, I'll see things in a different way as I advance

Warning: All your beloved attachments are going to be taken away from you. my child is my most beloved attachment why does it say they will be taken from you?

a lot of people think they can't get rid of their car when they actually can it's challenging but I'm in excellent shape from walking everywhere, I have more money, I feel complete freedom when I walk out the door, like I can go anywhere (and get drunk there if I want lol) there are buses, trains, ferries, taxis, bicycles...idk but I love being car free also products from china are the worst, everything is made there - if you ever have a choice choose not to buy products from china be as vegan as you can

I took a nutrition class in college and in it we analyzed our diets, we just ate normally and then looked at the results, everyone in our class got pretty much exactly the right amount of nutrients that they needed each day naturally it's absolutely amazing that we are able to do this without even thinking about it! because there are quite a lot of different things we need in varying amounts from a lot to very little, it's truly amazing so I'm vegetarian and I'm slowly becoming vegan I'm just letting it happen naturally, I eat whatever I want but I naturally want to eat what is good for me and my environment I think that's best, just try to realize that and then whatever you do will be best for you

same! I spent years arguing against the bible until I suddenly understood it from a different point of view

all the time! I just daydream about it...but I guess I would be a nun not a monk or if not that then just living in a cheap little place out on one of the islands or in the forest...

thanks you guys! I'll go over all these suggestions, sometimes it's easy and sometimes it is a lot of work thank you

earlier this year I was completely caught up in negative thinking I've made a lot of progress by just refusing to get caught up (I still get caught up a lot but I see what I'm doing now and eventually I can get back out of it) what I do is just switch to another thought like baking pies or something my negative thoughts are almost always around my abusive childhood I want to let that go now I want to stop those types of thoughts from arising altogether is it possible? thank you!

@cirkussmile thank you

what does it mean? when you feel pain, accept that pain is there, then go to the breath "the present moment"?

wishful thinking/wanting doesn't work you can only attract what you know you can have once you know you can have it then you have the feeling you wanted from the thing that you wanted you realize you already have the feeling and you don't even really need the thing anymore you get the thing then sometimes

ah beautiful, love you too

yes, people say it's "just weed" but even back when I used to smoke it every day there would be times when I was really high, so high that we would think that it was laced with something...

I sit with the soles of my feet touching each other instead of having one foot tucked higher or lower than the other for that exact reason it works great it's called the butterfly pose also just one minute of stretching and no pain

thank you, love you too <3

he's not following his own book on a super obvious point, judgement the bible is super clear on that one, it says don't do it yet this guy literally and clearly judges leo's very soul as unworthy of entering heaven lol he's the blind leading the blind...