Breathe

TWIM looks fantastic. It has similarities to MIDL. I'm looking forward to playing around with this.

Two minutes in and my brain started hurting. No effing idea what this guy is smoking

Personal preference. Maybe you should see if Hulk Hogan offers any deep insights. Exactly

You are correct. Relaxed and alert is what you are after. I am the same way This is exactly right. Your self-awareness your instincts are spot on. You just need to learn to trust yourself. And like Leo said, you will have to feel through this. You need to develop the skills navigate this terrain and find the right activities to help you stabilize yourself in calm and tranquility. As you become more self-aware and disciplined you will learn to self-regulate throughout the day. This is the system I use. Given your level of self-awareness you may want to check it out. https://midlmeditation.com/midl-meditation-system Everything you are describing is part of Cultivation 01: Skill 00 and Skill 01 (It's about balancing effort and relaxation). That is where you are at on the map. For shits and giggles this is called Right Effort as part of the 8-Fold Path in Buddhism. Diaphragmatic (not thoracic) breathing will help you regulate your nervous system as taught by MIDL Skill 00 and Skill 01. It's important that you breath correctly. They also have a YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@midlinsightmeditation And an active reddit channel: https://www.reddit.com/r/midlmeditation/

I'm not saying that I wouldn't learn but I would look elsewhere. Why waste your time digging through a sea of lies for a nugget of truth.

@mmKay Some of the topics discussed in this video were also in the article that I read:

@Davino Just no

I disagree. Take useful insights from people who don't fly red flags

I looked for it briefly but apparently there is a sea of content out there.

We're having two different conversations and I'm too tired to clarify

The difference between you and her is that your words are verifiable. I could be mistaken but I don't recall you saying that you were an alien or that you grew up in a satanic cult. Come clean now LEO!

I meant that she did not grow up in a satanic cult. Sorry for the confusion

She's an attention seeker for sure. I know I'm commenting a lot on this thread but I only saw a couple of her videos many years ago. That said, I was fascinated by the extremely long article that I read. I think I had googled something about "cults" and the story about her came up. I was not surprised by what I read. I am not a Teal Swan expert but she's 100% ego.

Choose your mentors wisely.

So, in the I article that I read, this story was debunked. She made this whole thing up. The author interviewed people from her childhood and said that she did not grow up in a cult. She is a chronic liar. She is an extremely fucked up person.