Peo

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  1. 47 minutes ago, Joseph Maynor said:

    The best thing would be for you to get a girlfriend.  And then just stop looking at porn.  You'll slip every now and again, but not too much.

    Would not you just replace porn with a girlfriend. Insted of looking at porn you will rather then look at your girlfriend.


  2. The only way i mange to cure my porn addiction was, that i watched porn so much that i got tired of it. I just watched it so much i eventually it just became boring and my addiction faded away. But if you have watched porn for over 9 years of your life i quess you dont get tired of watching porn.


  3. Just as you know sucidal thoughts are normal to have, i have them almost all the time so for me i dont take them really serious. The problem for you is that you take them to serious. I think the do-nothing meditation can help you just observe the thoughts without reacting. 

    11 minutes ago, Swagala said:

    I sought spirituality in hopes that I can keep living but not have to suffer which will get me back to suicidal thoughts.

    Just as you know spirituality will one day give you liberation from suicidal thoughts, but before that point you will just have more sucidal thoughts then before. For example when you go to a solo retreat you should expect sucidal thoughts to occur. 


  4. The short answer is yes. I self inquired into my true nature for 50 minutes, with a silent mind. I looked at my feet and closed my eyes and opened them again many times. After that i looked at my feet with silent mind and then I suddenly I realized that there were no one looking at my feet. Then i got overwhelmed by this emptiness all over me. My heart began to beat like crazy and it felt like dying. This was how my first ego death felt like.


  5. 8 hours ago, leintdav000 said:

    So, I had a really hard upbringing, and at 17 I woke the F*ck up! I mean 0-100--I was not prepared... The curtains of reality were lifted, I broke through my ego and discovered my no-self-- essence-- and felt like I woke up from the dream of life: Who am I; what am I; where am I, when am I?

    I wish this will one day happen to me and not just a small awakening, but like from 0-100


  6. let us say i have done a 3 dayes solo retreats and then my next solo retreat i just go straight for a 30 days solo retreat, with using pure self discipline. I just ignore my emotions and my monkey mind and keep going. Will this lead to a really strong ego backlash so strong ego backlash, that it will just knock me right off my spirtual journey permanently? Or will i just become so depressed that i will considere suicide? Do self discipline have limits or can i push it endless?

    Maybe i should try this out and see what happens. Maybe i will just go from 3 days solo retreat to 30 days and see how far i can push it.