Shadowraix

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  3. Posted · Edited by Shadowraix

    Death is a bit of a paradox. The experience of dying is as real as whatever is being experienced right now. But yet to say I am dying hinges on some form of separation. 

    Separation isn't wrong. It just isn't total. For separation we must first have oneness to even separate. Within the nondual paradigm it is just consciousness changing form. Just consciousness experiencing itself. 

    The perspective you talk about is one everybody knows, nothing new. This work is not about removing that perspective but transcending it. To be outside of the box so we can see the bigger picture. 

  4. Posted · Edited by Shadowraix

    @Psychonaut I've candy flipped once with some friends. 200mg+500ug. It was by far one of the most amazing experiences ever. I had a thought loop which was a little scary but I do think it has incredible potential. For me I can feel a consciousness transition when I am more open to insights which is hard for me to get on acid by itself. Candy flipping did it with ease. The visuals are downright orgasmic too. Put some music on and become the music. 

    The biggest advice for candy flipping I can give is make sure the acid is more powerful than the mdma. My friends didn't enjoy it because they felt like the drugs were like a cat fight in their head for control. Their acid doses were much lower than mine. 200mg+200ug I think. 100mg+200ug would have probably been much better for them. 

     

    On mdma after effects, it is using your serotonin so of course you will probably feel down until it is fully replenished but it's not always that way. The first handful of rolls can be amazing. My first roll was so amazing that I had a week long afterglow where I felt so much happier than I usually was. What I felt and what I realized on my roll was so vivid in memory it would make me cry in happiness during that week. I've only rolled like 3 times, 2 being by itself so I can't confirm how many rolls it will take me to experience the negative comedowns but I suspect it'll happen eventually. 

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    My first time was alone and it went great. That's not to say there aren't risks though. You won't have anybody to talk yourself out of anything. I'm in a boat too where doing it with people really alters the experience. 

    The best thing I can recommend to you is really know yourself, do some observance. I'm typically a very calm and collected person who can work with my own mind well. 

    I often see those who are more anxious, worrying, get lost in themselves etc etc to be more likely to need some assistance. 

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    On 10/4/2019 at 9:30 PM, enderx7 said:

    @Leo Gura Maybe shrooms could do the trick I have only done those  twice but that was earlier into my actualization process when i couldnt go very deep, but I've done about a dozen heavy lsd trips 300-500 ug. I have had completely life changing insights into love, god, desire, and intelligence but there is always still that persistent illusion of a separate thing experiencing god. A little sliver of duality, but I'm sick of it a want to just be gobbled up and digested. Or maybe its not a illusion because I have been unable to pierce it, but thats exactly why I want to get the big league stuff just to make damn sure. Or maybe I'll try like 700-800 ug  I just dont want to trip for multiple days which frequently happens at mega doses, but my level of fucks given is running out haha.  

    You should not be having psychoactive effects from lsd for multiple days. Even on those high of doses. Have personally confirmed up to 1500ug

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    7 minutes ago, Shaun said:

    I am not touching any of that shit ever again. It is so dangerous and the reckless promotion of it needs to stop. 

    About as dangerous as driving a car yet we all promote that just fine. 

    You don't go straight onto the highway. You start in the driveway or parking lot. The people who end up worse off typically end up that way due to misuse of the substance despite guidelines, precautions etc plastered everywhere. We always say to not go 100mph on most highways but yet people do it anyway and crash. 

    There's a reason you need to take a driving test to even get your permit at least in the US. You don't go out driving without proper research. 

    The people make it many times more dangerous than the substance is inherently. 

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    13 hours ago, whoshearts said:

    This is a very unnecessary thread... You aren't owed an explanation...

    Asking somebody for their pov isn't equivalent to feeling like they owe you an explanation. A teacher-student relationship often involves the dynamic of wanting to fully understand a teachers pov when they express an opinion about something. 

    Every forum post ever made is unnecessary depending how you look at it. ?

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    2 hours ago, zeroISinfinity said:

    @Shadowraix God is not a concept. Is Love a concept or you can actually feel it. This is not question of philosophy. I am not efin philosopher haha. 

    Yes practises are the way. ♥️

    God is a concept but God is not is the best way I can make my point to you. 

    We become philosophers the second we try and put direct realization into words. 

    Do you not get tired of how indirect that is? When talking about it, it feels like im beating around the bush. That's what these mental models do compared to direct realization.

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    Really doesn't matter how you label all of this. 

    Direct realization is not dependent on any of it. It comes prior. In the long run, you won't benefit asking such questions that do nothing but to build more mental models that will just drive you in circles. You gotta let go of them at some point. 

    Call it what Nahm said, call it what infinity said, call it what Leo says. Call it a truth, call it a lie. What's behind those things are far more important than trying to achieve the holy grail mental model of God. 

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    I find it interesting how these perceptions of specific drugs occur when there are many experience reports you can sift through as well as Google for research on any medicinal effects regarding it. Browsing websites like erowid might help you out a lot. 

    But yes mdma has incredible value for personal development. It makes processing emotions, even painful ones, much better. It can help connect with them, find emotional roots, and resolve longstanding issues. It's what makes it so good for say those with ptsd. 

    There is a neurotoxicity regarding how frequent you dose and how much you do. Every 3 months is the general rule of thumb. Treat it as if you have a limited number of mdma trips in your life. 

  18. Posted · Edited by Shadowraix

    3 hours ago, Meditationdude said:

    @dimitri Homeboy says 5meo is the “see god” drug.. not sure if mushies will do it. During the recent facets of awakening video he mentions that certain psychedelics produce different insights into the facets of reality. Like MDMA for love, LSD for understanding oneness and 5meo to get the “god head” or whatever. 

    Shrooms tend to work on the emotional level for me, and like I said I’ve never realized that I’m god. In fact I’ll be skeptical until I realize it myself because  I question EVERYTHING! 

    Realizing you are God can be done on most traditional Psychedelics. The distinction between lsd and the likes of nn/5meo dmt is their insights on realizing this can be deeper per trip due to their sheer intensity. For me it was a combo of lsd and dxm. 

    Personally I think it's best to let go of any ideas that psychedelic A will give you this and instead just let go of expectations and see where it takes you. Take the substance for the substance so to speak. 

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    NSFW warning for those who care about the video. 

    The message of the video is opening chakras by external means opens up for an entity to control you, make you do things you would have never done, be destructive etc. 

    Makes a lot of claims with whacky clips, mentions of a reptilian lord.. 

    Follow direct experience. Who knows what he did to invite what he describes as an entity. It's a vague video you can't draw any conclusion about. 

  21. Posted · Edited by Shadowraix

    @Angelite There is no problem with claiming you are God unless you have a perceived separation between you and God ? many people have misinterpreted the you are God statements. 

    The details of the chair are irrelevant to the point I am trying to make. 

    Who is the one that is controlling? You are still making your claims on a sense of separation. You seem stuck on this egoic identification. 

    Yes God is the creator of creation and is simultaneously creation itself. The case in point I am making is there is nothing but God. God is all there is. To say something isn't God is hinging on flimsy dualism.

    Yes this means God has deluded itself to not knowing itself to experience itself. 

    Yes I am presenting beliefs, beliefs that point to actual insights. Unfortunately language is extremely limited. These can be realized with or without psychedelics. 

    Anyways I've beaten to death about any kind of perspective I can contribute to this thread, so this will be my final post. (feel free to give your reply ill still read it) 

    Hope if anything this was a good discussion for you. 

  22. Posted · Edited by Shadowraix

    @ardacigin Most definitely not always just temporary. Be careful to not generalize all of psychedelic use under one umbrella. 

    By permanent I mean after such a profound experience, the insight does not fade. It doesn't not depend on memory of the experience. I barely remember the experience because it's been so long. That increase happened before I got into consciousness work. The only thing Leo did was describe it in some way the intellectual mind can digest. 

    You don't have much psychedelic experience, yeah? I remember you inquiring about it before. I would be careful about drawing conclusions about Psychedelics so hastily. 

    @TheAvatarState Yes exactly ? 

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    Yes, this is why psychedelic experiences almost always have to be followed up on. They can result in a permanent increase of consciousness depending on how profound it is, happened to me, but the increase is nowhere close to the levels that was experienced on the substance. 

    Psychedelics in a way lay the groundwork of what is to come if you keep moving forward. It can be a catalyst for one to put in the work. 

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    1 hour ago, Angelite said:

    @Shadowraix ok

    What do you get out of it?

     

    My life is radically different because of my psychedelic usage. It was the catalyst out of the chains of rationalism and atheism. I had a great deal of consciousness expansion just from one experience. After that I became motivated to work on myself, eat and be healthier. I can handle rough experiences, calm myself down and go out of my comfort zone much easier. I can empathize with people better even if they do something I don't like. My love reaches further, I am more social and confident. Probably many other things I can't think of right now. My life is many degrees better because of my past usage. And I can maintain this without drug use. It's been 2 years as I haven't felt any need to do them. 

    58 minutes ago, Angelite said:

    Am I you then? Can you make me sleep now? 

    Is drugs the same as my tea? Tea doesn't make me high. Is it the same? 

    Can I lift your hand now? 

    Who's lying? 

    Yes and no. When you lift your hand that is me lifting your hand. You are still perceiving me as a separate being which is another notion of separation. If you maintain that the answer is no. If you dissolve that though, the answer is yes. 

    When the ego dissolves, you and reality = same thing. The boundary between you and God become no more. 

    Watch how your perception shifts with these words. 

    Chair > Room > House > Country > Planet > Galaxy > Universe > Reality 

    Do you see the games of the mind here? You can break down a house into many separate things but then unify it under house. You can also unify you and me under planet or above. Whatever we do, the universe is doing that. Under the universe unity, we are one and whatever you do I do and vice versa.

    Take that as high as you go and that's what people here describe God. Separation is a construction out of oneness. A lot of this work is about deconstruction. 

    Separation still has a part in all of this. Paradoxically oneness includes separation and is why we can see it, but to not be trapped by it, you gotta see the bigger picture too.