Of course, I get it.
Only in your mind.
But I get it.
Well, what's to that is that she's a central part of your dream.
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To answer your question in a practical way, the difference is that there are many unusual and strange states of consciousness which could even be mystical, but they are not awakening or God-realization proper. And also, her ego-mind might be struggling to properly make sense of and integrate genuine spiritual insights. Or her awakenings and spiritual insights may be very lopsided and incomplete.
The hallmark of the deepest awakenings is the overwhelming, intense recognition of Love, Beauty, and Perfection. Without these the awakening is incomplete and can feel negative.
If your awakening is not the happiest moment of your life, then you haven't really awoken. You should be dying from joy. Awakening is literally heaven.

Just because someone has a different survival agenda than you does not make them a psychopath.
You guys are starting to disappoint me with your flagrant self-bias.
This reminds me of a rube who goes to China and calls them psychopaths for eating dogs.

I don't particularly feel a deep love for people. People are pretty huge pains in the ass.
Some people are people people and others are not.  Your love might be more universal and should be expressed in ways that are not one to one.
Then again, don't turn this into a crutch. Explore deep intimacy with a few select people and use that to open yourself up to loving people more. Or psychedelics can do that for you.
Overly flowery love for people is usually paper thin and doesn't hold under survival pressures. As soon as you do the wrong thing those flowery lovey-dovey people get all pissy.

@Forza21 Lay off the psychedelics and turn your mind elsewhere. You're just struggling to integrate.
It is about Love but your mind is too selfish, attached, and fearful to see that yet.
You are experiencing God-realization through a thick layer of ego and fear. Which is why it freaks you out and you don't see the Love. You need to do a lot more work letting things before you realize the Love.

@hello1234 You are obviously attached to the Ukrainian survival agenda. I'm not blaming you for it -- you are in a difficult position where your survival is threatened -- but just notice that. This is the essence of self-bias. It distorts your perception of reality.

No, your consciousness is Absolute.
You imagine other people's lives.
What God breaks through is the idea that things exist outside its mind. You are imagining things beyond your mind. Which is just your mind.
When you are sitting on the toilet, all the exists is that toilet and the room it is in. That's what reality is: a room with a toilet in it. The rest is your fantasy. The room and the toilet is also your fantasy, but on a deeper level.

@AMTO You can use thought to change your life. But thought is very limited. You can't use it to change the speed of light.
Changing how you think about yourself will slowly change how people think about you. But indirectly.
For example, if you think you're not attractive, others will think the same. If you change that to feel you are very attractive, others will start to get attracted to you. This is inner game 101, and it works.

Selfish and selfless are one, obviously.
You became selfish because you were selfless, and you will become selfless because you are selfish.

This is a great video. It shows you the Russian survival agenda which no one in Western media is talking about or taking seriously.
When Western media calls Putin irrational or evil, they show their utter self-bias and lack of perspective.
THIS is the perspective that the West is missing.

It's weird if you make it weird.
This was 10 years ago.
She told me she had a boyfriend before the date, but she agreeed to go on the date with me, so I didn't protest. I wanted to see what would happen and how girls work.
As part of my learning game I have pushed ethical lines. Sometimes just to see what girls are willing to do and as a way to decondition myself from being a nice guy.
My natural impulse is to be too nice with girls, so I had to untrain that.
I don't recommend sleeping with girls with boyfriends or husbands. Bad karma.
I do consider it unethical to sleep with girls who are taken.

All unethical / selfish behavior has consequences.
Be as selfish as you want, but be prepared to pay the cost.
Maybe one day you will feel what it's like to be cheated.

3 second rule. You see hot girl and you approach. Don't wait for any signals.
I once saw a girl at the gym running on the treadmill with earbuds on. I walked in front of her treadmill. Did a big wave at her. Signaled her to stop running and take out her earbuds. She complied with all that. Then I told her I found her cute. We exchanged numbers. We went on a date. She had a boyfriend. I made out with her. But she refused to come home with me. And that was that.
Don't let any minor obstacles stop you. If she's on her phone with her mom, you stop her and tell her to hang up on her mom. I've done that and gotten laid from it. Hot girls are attracted to leadership.

Take a boat to Fiji. Live out life on a tropical island hunting for coconuts.
Ironically you'd probably be happier than how you live now.

https://www.youtube.com/user/TaraSpringett/videos
This channel was helpful for my Kundalini journey
I also read her books I recommend this one for you: https://www.amazon.de/Healing-Kundalini-Symptoms-Proven-Techniques/dp/1689344970/ref=sr_1_7?crid=2M9YC09XP7B6F&keywords=tara+springett&qid=1645878736&s=books&sprefix=tara+sprin%2Cstripbooks%2C147&sr=1-7
These techniques will get you rid of your symptoms very quickly

Good, but you're still so far from the ultimate God-realization. This was just a baby encounter with God.
God is you! But it will take you many more trips to realize and fully accept that.
Keep tripping, carefully. You don't need to wait a whole year to face your resistance. Give yourself time to integrate but also don't waste time in avoidance and fear. Fear has to be faced. Reaching the ultimate levels of awakening will involve facing lots of fear, over and over again.

You pull to the biggest and closest place. So ideally a place with 2 beds. You never split a set of girls who are close friends, they will refuse it. Just pull them both.
Pulling 3 girls with 2 guys is gonna be very challenging. You basically need one of them to drop off, leave, or fall asleep. Or you can try to grab a random guy to join you two. Or you can even call a wing to come join. Once you got a contact list of local wings, you can text them and say, "We got an extra girl who needs company. Come to my place."
Another thing that's possible is you pull all 3 girls to your place for an after party. As you party with them and have fun, you take your girl by the hand and lead her to the bathroom and go quick sex there. This is a good option when there's just no way to properly isolate. Just make sure she don't regret sex with you. Make sure she wants it.
Another good option is to party with them till the dead of night, till everyone is dead tired and start going to bed. Then just follow your girl into her bed. Often her friends could fall asleep early, giving you privacy with your girl.
You could also take her to have sex in your car if you got one. Or even outside in some dark alley.
One of my old wings literally fucked a girl in Austin under a bridge.
You gotta be creative. Again, make sure she's into it.
I've had wings fuck girls in restrooms, parking lots, cars, bridges, rooftops, ice rooms, and even in the middle of the dance floor at the club. You can even fuck in an elevator.
The other option with a 3-set is do it solo so the other 2 girls can entertain themselves while you eventually walk off with your girl at the very end of the night. You just stick around with them an be social until your girls to bed and you follow her into her bed.
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Just keep looking for better wings. Yeah, sometimes wings can be very immature or inept. But you will eventually find great wings, especially in a place like Toronto.
A great way to find wings is to attend an RSD Free Tour event when it comes to your town. The best wings tend to show up to those.

Yes you should as long as you find them attractive.
Personally I don't approach girls over 5'10" because I'm not attracted to that.
Never don't approach a hot girl because you think you're too short for her to want to sleep with you. That's pure bullshit.
If you approach a lot of tall girls, you'll see that many of them will get attracted to you and will be willing to date and sleep with you. Not always, but enough that its worth it. You don't need every tall girl to like you. Even 5% would be more than enough for you.
Not approaching because she is 1-2 inches taller than you? This is just laughable. Stop being a pussy and approach!
Maybe if she was a foot taller than you, your logic might make more sense.

Dude, Toronto is one of the top cities in the world for game. So none of your BS excuses.
You can find tons of wings and you can also game solo. But solo is very hard to start with so look for wings. Fuck your values for now. You don't need these wings to be your spiritual gurus. Their only purpose right now is to get you laid. Later you can be more picky.
The dude from HonestSignalz YT channel is from Toronto. Watch him game.
You are not going to find enlightened wings. PUAs are all around stage Orange and they are obsessed with one thing: getting laid. Which is what you need right now.

As per Leo's advice, I ventured out into the world of nightgame in Toronto. It was an incredible experience. However, I tried finding wings on the Game Global Chat (as I was advised here) and they weren't the type of people who shared similar values as me. I noticed that most of them just want is to get the close at ANY COST and some of them (but not all) are quite cringe and have very little ethical concerns in their dealings with women. If anyone reading this post is in that Game Toronto chat, they probably know what I am talking about. 
My vision is to just develop myself as a man and learn these skills and have fun with better looking women than whatever the dating apps got me. So here come my questions:
Did Leo find success in nightgame while doing it solo with no wings? I really don't care about wings unless they share my values and such wings are hard to find (but if I find one, I'll go out with him).
If I do nightgame alone, is it really possible to pull a girl while remaining socially calibrated? The problem is that all these girls come in groups of 2 or 3 or 4 or more, how do you effectively pull?
I am guessing the answer is the whole "Can I come with you?" Method at the end of the night. However, even when Leo mentioned it, I feel like I can't do that shit while remaining socially calibrated and not crossing some lines. I hate it when guys push themselves on girls, and if I do that, it feels like I am pushing myself on girls. 
But yea, if @Leo Gura or anyone with success in Solo nightgame answers this with his experience doing nightgame alone and some tips on how to pull a girl from a group (by going with them or bringing her to his place) , that would be fucking awesome!
Also, logistical pointers and other pointers for Leo or anyone answering this:
I have my own place downtown Toronto and it is within 10-15 minutes by car from every single nightlife hot spot (so YEA, I am good when it comes to logistics).  I have NO ROOMMATES, so that is also nice, but one bedroom and a living room.  I don't fear approaching. I am comfortable getting rejected. It is no big deal.  Those pointes should help anyone trying to answer and help me. 

Because you are dreaming that you're a human. And humans are limited.
If you were not dreaming, there wouldn't be any human life at all. There would be nothing. And you are attached to dreaming. You call the end of dreaming "death" and so you avoid it at all costs.

No, intellect is an aspect of consciousness. Consciousness is intelligent.
I have a video called What Is Intelligence?
It's hard to define. But intellect is that aspect of conscious which is understanding and making sense of this communication right now. Right now you are understanding me. You might be tempted to dismiss that as "just concepts", but something way more profound is happening than that. The Universe is literally understanding itself as you listen to me talk. This requires extraordinary intelligence.
We might say that intelligence is a holistic, high-level self-comprehension which transcends concepts & symbols, but also makes use of concepts and symbols.
Without intelligence you couldn't open a can of Coke.
God-realization is similar to opening a can of Coke, but it's a can that requires infinite intelligence to open. The only one who can open this can is God itself, because only God posses sufficient intelligence to do it. You can't understand what you are without intelligence. Which is why just sitting in meditation is not God-realization. When a dog sits in silence it is not grasping what it is or what reality is. It may have a perfectly still mind, but it has no clue what's going on in the metaphysical sense. It doesn't understand where it came from or why it exists. Nor does it even have enough intelligence to care about such things.
Just to ask existential questions like "Why is there something rather than nothing?" or "Where did I come from?" requires extraordinary intelligence which even many scientists lack. The depth of these matters is not being understood by most human minds.
So what I teach is how to access the highest levels of intelligence which are necessary to fully grasp the nature of reality and self.

Not 8hrs.
More like 3 hrs.
I'd show up at 11pm-2am in most US cities. In Vegas it would be from 12 or 1am to 4am.
What you do is hang out with your friends (hopefully you find some wings) and approach girls. Not 100 approaches but more like 10-20. Your goal is to hook a set and spend a lot of time in set with the girl. So ideally you spend most of your time engaged in conversation with a girl and having fun with her, then bouncing her out of the club. The point is not to be in the club till closing time, the point is to find a girl to bounce out with as soon as you can. If you can find one by 12am, then you leave at 12am. Otherwise you stay till it closes.
Also, the point is not to approach many girls, the point is to hook one girl. You approach until something hooks well. Then you work that set all night long. In the end you're just looking for one girl who likes you and is down for fun.
Alternatively you can collect a bunch of phone numbers. Then your sets will be pretty short and you will do more approaching.

I'm not saying you got out-competed per se. I'm just saying that attractive girls can afford to act nonchalant, picky, and flaky. They often don't need a good reason to ignore or reject you because they know some new guy will come along soon.
I slept with a girl who was brand new in town once. She barely knew anybody expect her aunt and uncle. The night after I slept with her, I drove her home, and in her house was already sitting her aunt and uncle with some random dude they found for this girl to date. He was sitting there patiently waiting for her as I drove her up. Unfortunately for him, in the car I told my girl that she should suck this dude's dick. Which basically blew him out with her. That poor dude had no idea that his sweetheart had already fucked a player on 1st date from a random approach at the mall.

All my wings are shorter than me and get laid more than me.
One of my wings recently got a threesome. He's 5'4". He makes out with girls taller than him all the time. He got a BJ in the bathroom from a girl with a bf 30 minutes after meeting her in the casino. He's got great game and girls love him. He's also non-white and bald.
Why does he get laid more than me?
Why is he not using height as an excuse?
Why does he give me tips on how to improve my game and I listen?

@Husseinisdoingfine Don't get ahead of your skiis buddy. Give yourself a good 10 years to figure out spirituality. You don't need the highest fucking teaching at 19.
Relax and enjoy learning about life. Enjoy building a good life for yourself.