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Girls I am curious about what do you want in a relationship, especially as a more high conscious girls. I know all the stereotypes of marriage and kids, but besides all of that, what are things you would want in a relationship?

I feel that a deep relationship with a girl is almost impossible and therefor I feel less and less want or desire to be in a relationship. My first relationship I went all in depth about spirituality, both me and her got awakening experiences and it was beautiful till it all backfired. She wasn´t truely intrested in spirituality, she just got into it as I was making my whole life about it. Then it ended up breaking both our hearts, as she wanted to be less and less with me, the deeper I got into it. There was resistance from her to go into the depth and I don´t say she is wrong for doing that, it just simply meant she wasn´t ready for more and neither do I feel other girls are ready for such depth. If you want a shallow relationship, I know a million girls who would be excellent partners, but that just doesn´t sound meaningful to persue and waste time on. Also what are you getting out of a shallow relationship besides sex and comfort? It is not even a deep friendship, as even that goes deeper then a girlfriend that doesn't want to go deeply into the depths of spiritual rabbit hole. I have had 4 girlfriends, the last 3 being superficial girlfriends in the sense that I didn't mention anything about spirituality and we kept things basic and "normal". I just don't bother going in such a relationship again, cause it just feels like a waste of time and I don't enjoy it much. Neither do I think its good to bring girls that are not ready into this whole rabbit hole, it will only backfire on you and on her. I think I might give up on relationships for now, I don't even romanticise as I used to do, because I literally can't imagine a relationship beyond the superficial ones, my belief in such a relationship existing feels like a fantasy. Just needed to put this out there.

I feel that the older I get, the more I realise the fakeness of everything. Money doesn't make you happy, relationships are great experiences but won't last and will leave you heartbroken, getting fame in small or big amounts gives you validation that wears off, highs turn into lows. A middle path as the buddha describes is maybe the most blissful way to exist. Things seem to matter less to me the older I get, I am less intrested in making money, less intrested in helping people, less intrested in making friends or getting into a relationship, maybe I am going through some spiritual depression where the meaning of things seem to evaporate and the only thing that is left is just this moment. What is really the goal here? survive? Leave a contribution? gather beautiful moments that are very small and temporary? I think I glorified life when I was younger, now that illusions break more and more nothing really excites me. Even spiritual practices seem just a way to avoid a bigger problem, what is that you still have to survive and live and without any ambition to do so, as illusions of a great future or even a great NOW as eckhart tolle would say seems to fade away, if I want to be NOW all the time, I don't have to be in this physical body suffering the maintenance of keeping this body alive. Survival seems truely pointless, unless there is meaning to your life. For me, very little meaning seems left in keeping this body afloat. I guess not upsetting anyone, but that is just to keep the peace, not really a reason to keep going. Going through the motions is probably the most true statement I have heard, that is how my life has been feeling for years, it has been feeling far from something great. I think I might even be jealous of Jesus, cause atleast he was able to use his suffering for good use, my suffering just seems of no use and therefor it becomes moving through the motions instead of moving towards something. I don't hate life or people or existing, I think I am just tired and have not much left in me. I had an exciting run in my younger years until truth started to become more clear to me and illusions, dreams of the ego started to be realised as illusions instead of great promises for a great future.

For me the more high conscious I become throughout the years, the less I feel drawn to survive and take care of survival. I feel like I should have taken care of my survival more before getting into spirituality. I actually block myself off from growing further as I know if I grow any further I wouldn´t be able to get any motivation to play these games anymore and even now its getting very very close to it. I would say for most people starting this conscious journey, don´t start yet. Like literally do this when your retired or have enough money to not have to make any money anymore. The stereotypical reality of spiritual people being lazy and doing nothing is not just true, its much deeper then that, its that the more conscious you become the less you want to survive, as survival is selfish in nature and being conscious is selfless. That is why God is dead and you are alive. If you feel the same way let me know your story.

As a performer its very important for me to gain attention and be funny and even tho I got chuckles in the past, actually someone breaking down in laughter rarely happend until I realised volume. Its not so much about the joke, its about being LOUD. Why? Volume is the number one way to get attention, that is why before making a toast you cling your glass, why they blow a whistle before the train leaves, why you have the noise of a fire alarm and why an ice cream truck has bells or has an ice cream tune to let everyone know it is there. It instantly grabs attention. Now we are scared to be loud, because subconsciously we know that if talk almost as loud as yelling, that people will notice. So fear has to be overcomed. Once you overcome the fear of being seen, gaining attention both positive and negative, you will be able to be ALLOT more funny, gain attention, make people stop. Like everytime you approach someone on the top of your vocal projection (not yelling, but just one volume below yelling) you make them stop everytime. For most people its not being 2x louder, but 10x louder. People simply ignore low volume. So next time you make a joke, say the joke as loud as you can without yelling (as yelling is a bit too aggressive) notice how much attention and laughter you get. Now this doesn't work if its a really shitty joke or it might even work with a shitty line if you really dramatise your volume. Now its also safe for others, because being loud means not only the person you talk to hears you, but everyone around you aswell, what makes it not a secret creepy thing. Being loud shows your not hiding. If your loud without humor, it can come off a bit too aggresive, keep in mind people are scared so aggression needs to be mixed with something funny or cute, being loud is aggressive so that always has to be combined with something cute or funny otherwise you will scare people, because remember, LOUD is the number one way to gain attention, but that also means you can come across as the alarm clock instead of the loud charismatic person. Unless your a cute girl hahaha, that is why loud girls like Cardi B or other celebs are so big hahaha because they are cute and loud as hell. Balancing the agrression/ cute & funny.

I just noticed how important hooking is when it comes down to interactions. I do allot of approaches and I am getting to understand how a good hook in the beginning makes all the difference. Its the same thing as with a youtube video. You watch a video based on the hook, if the hook is good you keep watching. So what are your best hooks?

@Recursoinominado yes I think that makes sense why I don't resonate with it anymore, thank you for your answer.

Anyone that recently has adopted a more abundant mindset that actually worked out for them? Meaning not someone that says they are abundant and then remained broke, but a mindset that brought out actual change. I would like to dive a bit in that mindset and what changed for you internally? Specifically around carreer and money, not relationship wise.

Am I the only one that went from listening to the big spiritual gurus to more basic almost beginner meditations? I don't feel these gurus have the effect on me they used to have, I rather do a quick 15 minute basic meditation on youtube. I am intrested how you feel about this and what is your favorite meditation?

@Joshe I agree with this to great extend, I would say my purpose first was more brought and then it became more narrow, by noticing what resonated with me and what didn´t or as chatgpt says `what fucked me up` hahaha. I would say first find the broughtest thing that could be your purpose like. Inner work, inner growth for example. Or self development. Or even more general like growth. Then you take in this case the direction `growth` and explore all aspects of that and just go in a direction that resonates more with you and overtime it becomes more and more specific. Because even if your purpose would be cooking, it wouldn´t be likely that it would be all the different dishes from all the different countries of the world, you would probably resonate with either Japenese cooking or french cooking more then cooking all of the different dishes. Unless you have a very specific personality type that wants to cook a dish out of every single country and never get to perfect a specific dish. If everyone had that personality type then the world wouldn´t have Indian restaurants versus Japanese restaurants, I think we are naturally going from more brought to more specific, but its about not rushing that natural process and starting as brought as you can.

I have an intresting question or atleast I find it intresting to hear from different people the same or different answers. How do regular people respond to you, not people into spirituality, regular folks and strangers, after you are very present? have been meditating or when you are in a super high vibrational state? I am intrested to hear everyones response to this.

@theleelajoker Yes I hope everything is clear now

@Joseph Maynor I think that is great news for you, probably you have found a purpose that is on the higher scale of consciousness therefor even if you grow, your probably still gonna feel alligned to it.

@Alexop I feel in stage green many people still get triggered allot by even more open minded perspectives. I had a girlfriend in stage green and when I started to be really authentic and transparent about my inner process and perspectives shifts and all this work we do with Leo, she said I turned too spiritual and it actually let us to break up. Now you said older woman, I never had a older girlfriend in stage green, but I wouldn't be suprised if they get triggered the more authentic you become and tell you something like your "too spiritual" aswell. Yet I haven't dated them so I don't know.

@LastThursday Could you ellaborate a bit more, because to me I don't experience a character as fun, only practical or necessary honestly. Fun would be to be completly authentic to me, yet that driving most people away as they resonate at a lower level.