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  1. Posted

    4 hours ago, MFateh said:

    @billiesimon

    I am glad that you're doing better now. Really happy for you ?. I think I might consider this issue more deeply. I will try to understand what murders driven by jealousy and mere joy of killing are caused by. It's going to be hard to accept all and give everyone a second chance, but if it's for the good of the society then it's okay I guess. 

     

    Thank you ?

  2. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    6 hours ago, MFateh said:

    @lmfao

    I am not saying that they are not nice or that they don't have a rich life. I am just saying that what they have committed by ending a rich life of someone else, sadistically or for a silly reason, deserves a proper punishment. Even if it's not killing them, I think they deserve to have most of their rights taken away. They don't deserve to enjoy something they've taken away from others. 

    I am aware of this, too. But I don't think this is something that might avert me from my stance. Because, in the end, if I am going to forgive murderers from the fear of getting killed myself for committing a murder then it's going to be a lacking perspective filled with fear. 

    Again, if you think my stance is regressive and lacking in compassion/sympathy then I would love to change it. But I want to see your perspectives first to know better.

    The perspective is that those people could have easily been me. 

    I know what they feel. 

    I have never hurt anyone, I've always been nice and progressive. But I have been subjected to a lot of trauma, bullying, divorce, abusive friends, abusive bosses etc. A lot. Truly a lot. 

     

    I'm finishing therapy, and yoga and self inquiry have helped me so much to remain the same nice person i've always been. 

     

    But i can assure you:

    There's a part inside of me that is so angry and furious for what they have done to me that it is thirsty to kill. Literally thirsty to kill.

    And it's NOT my fault. I have cried rivers to heal and quieten this trauma. 

     

    Am I a nice and conscious person?

    All people tell me so. 

     

    Yet the line that could have led me to become an evil beast was so close... 

    Do you get it? 

     

     

    You are nice only because you got lucky. You don't know what it feels like to work you ass off every day to remain conscious and caring after what i've endured. 

    Suffering is the greatest teacher. 

    Killers already have suffered much. Let this planet become a warmer and kinder place. 

    Please. :)

    Yet, I love you too and want you to feel love for the unconscious ones. 

     

  4. Posted

    I've read too much nonsense and regressive opinions here.

     

    People who kill or get into crime are nice people as everyone else.

    It's not their decision. They are completely unconscious and subjected to trauma.

    Your "civil and educated" human life is not more worthy that theirs.

    They need to be rehabilitated and healed from their trauma.

     

    Or are we going to regress into the middle ages?
    What next?
    Killing religious heresy?

     

    Always remember that that killer could have been YOU.
    In fact it is you, it's just that your ego got lucky this time.

    They deserve the same help that you deserve.

  5. Posted

    On 12/10/2021 at 8:59 PM, somegirl said:

     

    If she is unable to, and that obviously hurt you enough to make a thread, then you should think hard if this is even worth it. You don't want to be with a gf who secretly judges you for expressing yourself. You won't grow that way. It will always sabotage you unless you guys communicate.

     

    The best advice.

    I suppose from a woman, judging by the username xD

    You need to ditch her and find a more progressive girl. You need to find someone who is not so closeminded and low in human development.

  6. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

    There was no world before you were born, and there will not be any after you die. Because the world has never been anything more than YOUR dream. If you stop dreaming it, it disappears.

    What is "you"? 

    God or separate self? 

    I guess the latter, since God can't die. 

     

    I also guess that the reason why you're interacting with interviewers and the forum etc is just to play the game. I mean... You might be well aware that "others" (deliberately in quotes) cannot awaken. 

  7. Posted

    2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    @wildfloweris possible to take so much 5-MeO-DMT that the visual field sort of collapsed into an infinite singularity. It feels like being inside a black hole sorta.

    Have you had experiences of the "original" singularity of God? 

    I mean, without any forms and dualities. Just the pre-creation God. 

  8. Posted

    8 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

    I'm so tired of every little thing being labeled as toxic. Guys could fight and throw a few punches without it being a bloody violent mess or they could have a verbal fight. I'm so done with all this judgement bullshit. Like get a better job than constantly criticising and jumping on people over little things and making a mountain out of it. Grow a bone maybe. 

     

    :D:D

    Too much disfunction. 

    I'll have a nice meal instead. 

    Peace -_-

  9. Posted

    4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

    @something_else it feels hot because it means you had the balls to do something that got you kicked out, something that most guys won't even try. 

    If it's sexual harassment, that's really bad. 

    But if it's something like fighting another dude over a girl or getting into a brawl to save a girl from getting hurt, omg that's hot. 

    Only few men have the balls to do something radical in social situations. 

    Most guys act like pussies anyway. 

     

    Toxic masculinity is attractive to toxic femininity 9_9

    Violence (and attraction to it) is a huge red flag in men and women. Huge subconscious anger issues.

  10. Posted

    2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Well, there are really only two options:

    Either God is fully awake or God is dreaming.

    So if you ain't fully awake you are dreaming, and you will continue to dream until you become fully awake.

    I expect that most people on the planet are so far from awakening that even death will not fully awaken them. So they will keep dreaming many more dreams.

    And remember, there is nothing wrong with dreaming. You can dream as long as you like. If you want to dream 100,000 lifetimes, have at it.

    So advaita vedanta might be right on samsara. 

    I tend to see reincarnation as BS because God seems to know it will recognize itself once the ego dies. That's because during awakenings/glimpses I feel like I have already planned everything. 

    So... My guess is that God doesn't reincarnate in a loop.

    It might reconnect with its true nature at the end of every ego's lifespan.

    Why should the ego awaken for God to come back to singularity? 

    God recognizes itself clearly once the false self is dead, or transcended by spiritual work. So... I'm still very skeptical about samsara... Seems like a fairytale. Pretty absurd to create other dreams and other dimensions without coming back home to design them :ph34r: isn't it?

  11. Posted

    3 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Not all knowledge can be direct consciousness. You cannot have 100% certainty about everything in this work. Science is often uncertain about things. There is no reason why consciousness could not dream a series of dreams back to back. This is highly likely.

    Is this what ancient hindu sages meant with samsara and reincarnation when a person is not enlightened? 

  12. Posted

    2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    @BlackPhil You are correct that even though the ultimate destination is Infinite Love/Godhead, that does not necessarily mean that everyone will go there directly. There could be many longer paths. It really depends on how conscious one is.

    At the highest level of consciousness death simply does not exist and it never even happens. But at lower levels of consciousness it seems to happen and it could be followed by other dreams. So in practice not everyone who "dies" goes to Absolute Infinity. They might go down some rabbit hole of consciousness. And the rabbit holes of consciousness could be infinite in number.

    What? What do you mean?

    Why should not a dead ego merge back in the singularity?
    Once the false self disappears, your true identity should be clear to itself.

  13. Posted

    It's been several days since I've had this massive shadow work crisis. I'm cleaning up major childhood trauma, and these last days I've been feeling sad and deeply introspective. 

    This is not an awakening episode, it's more of a contemplative inquiry into the nature of the ego self and The Self. 

     

    Others and the "outer world" are just a mirror of me. This has been noticed over the course of several months, and probably amplified by several psychedelic basic awakenings. 

    As I've seen my ego become more and more positive, pure, peaceful and clean, I've noticed how others and reality has become more like me. 

    But it has always been like me. 

    I have noticed how the violence in the world is reflected inside me (as an ego). 

    I have noticed how my problems are reflected outside in others as well. 

    I have noticed how the world cannot exist without my conscious existence alongside it. This one is especially radical and eerie. 

     

    There are other aspects of this mirroring of ego self and others, and this mirroring becomes a fusion of ego and others in the unified form of The Self, or Atman. 

    For some weird reason, "I" am playing an eerie play with myself, disguised as billion forms. All connected. All mirrored in some sort of vibrational resonance. 

    I am not conscious right now of being the others. No.

    But I am conscious right now of how much they represent what I have inside me. The violence, the fear, the insecurities, the desires... I can see how they mirror my egoic condition. 

    I can see how being disturbed by their own hatred and fear is REALLY JUST being disturbed by myself. 

    Yup. 

    It's that creepy. Still, I'm not soberly conscious of oneness right now. 

    Just a simple inquiry :)

    Be at ease with yourself, love yourself.

    I need to love myself. Deeper. 

  15. Posted

    9 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    See, ego is simply that which resists Universal flow. The sun is never confused about which way it's going or what is right or wrong. It just follows God's flow. Without ego you become like an object of nature.

    Yes, but that resistance is just conceptual, because egoic actions are "God-sent". What I mean is that God decided what the ego should look like and what it wants to do. So, in a sense, God wants the ego to act based on unconscious desires, because that's the only way to get an experience of struggle and progression. 

    I totally agree on the ego resisting God realization (because of the death it implies) but the ego is still 100% God's pure will. 

    That means that the Ego's resistance is just conceptual, because emotions, thoughs and fear are just phenomena happening to God, who is observing them, and at the same time believing that it is a limited human. 

    At least that's how I've felt it myself. 

  17. Posted

    Thanks for the replies, to everyone.

    Well, I get what you are saying. The Self is the one who awakens inside the dream, and not the imaginary people (my ego is included of course).

    But what I mean is that an awakened "person" is capable of showing that they are realized. I was just wondering if other people, EVEN THOUGH they are conceptual and not actual, can show this sign of realization once you realize the True Self.

    I guess it's still a game of duality that my mind is playing. Nonetheless, I found it possible.

  18. Posted

    8 minutes ago, Mason Riggle said:

    'They' are the mask. If you full drop your mask, there is no them.. it's all you. 

    I get it, I'm not talking about the core Self. I'm talking about the illusion. 

    Does the illusion become self conscious? Do the people show recognition of their true self? 

    You look at the mirror. Then you recognize that you are the person in the mirror. "oh it's me". 

    The image in the mirror should also reflect that recognition. That's what I mean. 

  19. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    Hey, @Leo Gura,  I was contemplating my perceptions tonight, alone in bed, and noticing how other people in photos are just my own perceptions, not real entities. But still I can't feel other people as me, because of survival agenda I have. I can on psychedelics. 

    But i notice during my contemplations that people in photos are just my perception and not real objects. 

    This is my question:

    Does the game of separateness collapse ON THEIR end too? 

    I mean... You become conscious of being them. And that's ok. 

    At that point do they drop the mask? Do they mirror your understanding? Or do they keep acting unconscious? 

    It makes sense to me that they should drop the mask once you become totally omniscient. Why should they keep the facade up? 

    Sorry for the weird question :ph34r:

  21. Posted

    18 hours ago, fopylo said:

    But you kinda contradict yourself because you just said that lower SD stage girls will not be attracted to this. Most girls are not super evolved psychologically. Basically most girls will go away from you while you still attract girls, but less

    If you want tribal or violent/impulsive girls, yes. 

    Generally from stage orange and above girls tend to like personality, humor, authenticity and social freedom. Generally self expression is very attractive to a sufficiently evolved girl :)

  22. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Lucas-fgm said:

    Being strong men= being authentic, and stop caring what others think.

    Being strong doesn't mean being a gym rat that never laughs or something.

    And women love high-status guys. Independently of his personality, a big percentage of women will want him.

     

    You are so clueless, man.

    What you believe you attract :) watch your beliefs as they get mirrored in reality. Attraction is far below Mind in the hyerarchy.

  23. Posted · Edited by billiesimon

    4 hours ago, StarStruck said:

    It is so hard to understand this perspective. How come they treat nice guys as trash and dick heads as kings?

    With girls treating guys nice I mean answering their text, being polite and having the dignity to say they are not interested. Instead they just ghost you and just leave you out to dry.

    I talked to some female friends about this and they subscribe to what I said. Guys are much nicer towards girls in this regard.

    My theory is this: girls have more power because they chose, and nice guys who don't have power get treated as trash; there is no reason to treat nice guys with respect and dignity.

    This is a massive strawman.

    People in general tend to respond to authenticity, freedom, confidence and good vibes. The last one is not a buzz word, it's a true energetic component. You could have seen millions of girls loving Justin Bieber when he was still girly and soft. Where's the ruthless and brutal masculinity now? Same goes for 60's rock idols and other soft men like Russel Brand.

    Girls in low SD stages, like stage red, are attracted to brute force and domination. 
    More evolved girls tend to gravitate more towards authenticity, freedom, masculine wisdom and self expression.

    Stop caring about masculine power. That's makinh you more weak. 

    Are you a feminine guy? WHO THE FUCK CARES! Embrace it.

    I am a 45% feminine guy, but I have developed confidence and more authenticity and girls have appreciated it. Of course not stage red girls.

    Be unapologetic about being feminine or soft or lighthearted. The less you care about being attractive to them, the more you become attractive.

    Be your own hero.

    Masculine power is liking your own authenticity without caring about others.

     

    Girls fall in love with lots and lots of gay men.

    Guess why?

    Maybe because they DON'T CARE about being attractive to women? They embrace their femininity and women can fuck off. (not in the red pill meaning xD )

  24. Posted

    43 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    It's not "a view". It is absolutely the case.

    These are just the natural paradoxes of Infinity.

    Infinity has no end. It can keep exploring itself forever. But also it can be conscious of itself as Infinity. And also it can be totally unconscious of itself.

    The mindfuck of Infinity is that it is both infinite and finite! True Infinity cannot exclude the finite. Therefore it is a self-negating entity that transcends human logic.

    Again, the problem here is that your mind is trying to pin Infinity down to some one explicit thing, which is impossible since Infinity is truly infinite. If you could define Infinity, it would not be infinite. But also, you CAN define it too. Since if you couldn't define Infinity that would also make it finite.

    Yes, God is that which always has more of itself to discover, since God is so endless it cannot know itself. But also God perfectly is itself ;)

    Knowledge is a dualistic notion. God's being is prior to knowing. It's more true than knowing anything could ever be. God isn't just something you know, God is what you ARE!

    Is it just my own self deception, or is God in search of understanding itself?

    When I have breakthrough trips I tend to feel like the Absolute/Me is just eternally looking for a deeper understanding of itself. Like it needs duality to study itself, cause in oneness it can't do it. 
    Duality seems to act like a mirror. It can make you look into yourself like you are a different object. Also reality tends to mirror itself a lot, like stated in LOA teachings. Thus to me it seems like God is just using duality as a mirror to inquire its own mysterious existence.

    The biggest question is always: WHY?!? Why am I here and not not-here?
    I might be deluded....

  25. Posted

    3 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    Supermind still involves thinking, but of a highly nonlinear, abstract, and trans-rational sort.

    Thinking is not the enemy. Thinking gets supercharged as consciousness rises.

    That sounds amazing. I really want to reach that sooner or later.

    Thought and emotion are extremely powerful and have a huge impact on perception, and also on manifestation of reality (especially beliefs).

    Reaching levels of trans-rational thinking seems to involve huge amounts of creative and understanding power :o