I'm in Hell. AMA (Ask me anything)

[4201]

1 minute ago, Blackhawk said:

Not everyone. I don't, because I will be single, hated and alone my whole life.

Regardless of if you want it or not, you are learning. You had an experience that had an unfortunate end. This experience is a form of learning. Whether you keep learning or you stop is entirely up to you. You cannot go backward, this progress is permanent.

[Blackhawk]

6 minutes ago, 4201 said:

Regardless of if you want it or not, you are learning. You had an experience that had an unfortunate end. This experience is a form of learning. Whether you keep learning or you stop is entirely up to you. You cannot go backward, this progress is permanent.

Well ok, I agree with you on that one.

But with this pace it will take several lifetimes until I can get a gf. Only the best of the best can get a gf. Sometimes it amazes me how anyone can get a gf.

[4201]

Just now, Blackhawk said:

Well ok, I agree with you on that one.

But with this pace it will take several lifetimes until I can get a gf. Only the best of the best can get a gf. Sometimes it amazes me how anyone can get a gf.

It's absolutely impossible to measure distance from here to a place you've never been so I'm afraid your idea of "pace" is unfounded. (I remember your avatar that said "No bullshit without source" or something). In reality you have no clue when it will happen, could be tomorrow, could be in a month could be in 10 years.

Personally I'd bet my rent money that you'll get one before next year. And trust me, I don't have any to spare lol

[Blackhawk]

1 minute ago, 4201 said:

It's absolutely impossible to measure distance from here to a place you've never been so I'm afraid your idea of "pace" is unfounded. (I remember your avatar that said "No bullshit without source" or something). In reality you have no clue when it will happen, could be tomorrow, could be in a month could be in 10 years.

Personally I'd bet my rent money that you'll get one before next year. And trust me, I don't have any to spare lol

What? Am I reading your post right or am I missing something? You could bet on that I will get a gf before next year? Why the heck do you think that?

[mandyjw]

 

[Blackhawk]

3 minutes ago, Loba said:

@Blackhawk Hey dude, sorry I got silenced for a few days and turned off my dm's for some drama that had been going on but it's water under the bridge.  I'll turn them back on in a few days, I started that picture for you!

Oh okay.. 

[Blackhawk]

4 minutes ago, Loba said:

@Blackhawk Yeah dude, I didn't block you or anything like that I saw your comment on my journal, too.
If you're still looking for a gf after the new year let me know.  I am looking for a kind, sweet guy, but I have a few things to get done first as far as being ready mentally, emotionally, ect.  If you want we could just take the time to get to know each other, and be friends if you aren't interested as well. 

You seem cool and I like that you are honest and direct.  I could spoil you with my art.

I'll do a video of myself in a few days, maybe for Halloween and you can decide then.

Finding partners is easy, you just gotta go for what you want/like.

Wow.. Okay 

Finding partners is easy for some people, and difficult for others.

[4201]

2 hours ago, Blackhawk said:

What? Am I reading your post right or am I missing something? You could bet on that I will get a gf before next year? Why the heck do you think that?

Yes I have no doubt about it my friend. I think you are a deeply intelligent person but sometimes you use your intelligence to sabotage yourself. I believe in the real you hidden beneath the lies and the sabotage. There's not a single doubt in my mind that you will reach the life you want. Your desire is stronger than the thoughts that try to hold you back, that say it's not possible. The thoughts can slow you down but they'll never undo your progress or prevent the inevitable. 

 

[Nahm]

@Blackhawk

Follow up hell inquiry… in hell, when someone realizes they were wrong about some stuff, do they stay in hell anyways or do they get kicked out? 

Thank you once again sir. 

[Breakingthewall]

6 hours ago, Blackhawk said:

Yes, but unfortunately all that nice stuff is non-existent for me. And strictly speaking I can't be 100% sure that other people are even conscious, so maybe no one is experiencing anything nice anywhere in existence. But probably there is other conscious beings who experience nice stuff, even though that can't be proved.

@Blackhawk the one who puts the label of pleasant or unpleasant is you. things are as they are, and only you are printing negativity or positivity on them. I'm not saying that you get to really live this like that, in a moment, but at least see the truth in it. I don't live it like that either, there are things that bother me, I'd rather have girls on my schedule than not having them, etc, but I know that any preference or rejection are my projections. The world is not bad or good, it is you (and me), the ego, the one who does not agree with the world. match your preference with what it is and you will be absolutely happy. the more you separate what is and what should be, the more anxiety and unhappiness there will be. be aware that you are the one who does it !! 

Seriously, try to see the truth of this, take responsibility for your reality. not blaming yourself, but realizing that it is you who is creating the negativity. it is very difficult to see this! It has been very difficult for me, but it is completely real. admits its theoretical truth, and tries to put it into practice

Edited October 26, 2021 by Breakingthewall

[Gili Trawangan]

@Blackhawk Are you physically healthy? I mean, do you live without any debilitating diseases or chronic pain?

[Blackhawk]

4 hours ago, Gili Trawangan said:

@Blackhawk Are you physically healthy? I mean, do you live without any debilitating diseases or chronic pain?

Yes.

[Gili Trawangan]

48 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

Yes.

@Blackhawk Look, I've been in hell before. I know what it's like, it can be really hard to turn it around. During my twenties I was more often than not depressed, and on top I had pain that didn't go away for years. Today things are very different, I am fulfilled, and the way this transformation occurred was through a change in perspective. The first step was crucial: I learned to be grateful for what I have. Gratitude is where it all starts, and it doesn't come from the outside world, you can't expect things to turn around without taking the first step yourself. Be grateful. If you're physically healthy, you already have so much to be thankful for. Two weeks ago I had a kidney stone and it was the most excruciatingly painful experience I've ever had. I can't tell you how lucky you are just by being healthy. The world will not change things for you, change has to come from you. Start here, "I am young and healthy, and I am grateful for that". Start a gratitude journal, what else can you be grateful for? It's all up to you.

[Blackhawk]

@Gili Trawangan Okay..

[Random witch]

I hope your mental state is better now.

I don't know if someone already asked you these question but I will:

What was your childhood dream?

How do you think the ideal world should be like?

 

[Blackhawk]

3 hours ago, Random witch said:

I hope your mental state is better now.

I don't know if someone already asked you these question but I will:

What was your childhood dream?

Thanks.

I didn't have any.

3 hours ago, Random witch said:

How do you think the ideal world should be like?

I assume you mean realistically.

I don't know.

[Blackhawk]

Just endless suffering.

Stop telling people to not kill themselves. It's not going to get better, so don't give false hope. Everyone and everything wants to hurt you as much as possible.

You are brainwashed into thinking that you must live at all cost, that suicide is always wrong.

Edited November 2, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

When you try to convince someone to not committ suicide you are just trying to convince that person to stay in hell. I would never do such a thing, that's for sure.

But of course I don't tell people to kill themselves either.. But it's their decision to make..

Edited November 2, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

For the suicidal ones you are damned if you do and damned if you don't.

If you kill yourself you will hurt others.  If you don't kill yourself you will hurt yourself (because being alive hurts).

See how masterfully designed hell is?

So anti-natalism is a no-brainer.

Edited November 2, 2021 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

Everything you do is an attempt to ease the suffering in hell for yourself or for someone else, in one way or the other.