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[Jodistrict]

The traditional religions actually make a lot of sense.  You can pray to Allah 5 times a day and still have plenty of time to build your life.   The unfortunate alternative is to confuse left brain activity stimulated by endless reading with spirituality.   
 

[Kambido]

Here is a little thing, once you drop your self presently, go into spirituality, get enlightened, become god, then what? Here's the thing, then you have to deconstruct being god and guess what you'll realize... full circle back... you're you again. That's what i've found pointless about these pursuits. Unfortunately, i can't escape it bc it's just who i am and my thoughts, but i've realized i am exactly where i need to be. Go with the flow of the present moment, that's the best you've got. Your experience is yours, and circling back to your experience, it's forever yours. How many times do you want to be "enlightened"? You shouldn't be forcing yourself to be something you know you're not, and from reading what you wrote, i think you're realizing that... the game needs you to be you, there is no escaping that. 

[OBEler]

@King Merk you are very wise for your young age.

I also was addicted to spirituality. Some other parts in my life suffered from this...but now it pays off a little bit.

But always get basic first. You are young!! Be grateful to discover spirituality so early in your life. 

[Jeff Zhang]

@King Merk As a peer, I can very relate to your situation here .   and just like you, I come to realize how important it is to work on the basis.  Everything would be fine and better  after our hard work on the basis.

[kieranperez]

@King Merk that is actually part of the part. Getting your life handled is actually laying the foundation of becoming a stable person with a more stable mind. So you're still on the path Those that pursue what they honestly want, without lying to themselves about that, is the path of truth believe it or not. It takes much more honesty and truthfulness to say "I don't want truth" when you genuinely don't than if you just stay on the path because you think you should because of ___ (insert whatever logic you were told and came up with). There's a saying in the Gita that says something along the lines of... 'he who renounces the world in name and action while still having a secret craving for it is a hypocrite'. Doesn't sound like you're deviating  Getting your shit together is spiritual development. What that means and how that shows up for people in practical terms is different for so many. All of this cultivates a mind that is more at peace and has the capacity and bandwidth to turn inwards. Godspeed! 

[Steelheart]

@King Merk Leo has a video on this I think. You need to get the basics done right. Watch life advice for young people 

[sethman]

@King Merk yes absolutely. I agree with you, and me too. I need to get the basis addressed. even though I am God. I need to resolve the most fundamental. I will be back to Leo teachings after decade.