Something casual

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Paradise can turn into hell with abuse, and hell can turn into paradise with care.

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I remember back in 2016-17 when the city was restored by Al-Assad forces and I went back home to check if it's still there lol. I was in the alley and I saw the soldiers breaking into houses and stealing everything of value that's in there. So, I got into the family's house and waited, and I was alone along with very few people in other nearby houses. When the turn came to our house, they started trying to break the main door, so I got up and told them to stop. They became vigilant, thinking that I was of the opposition or something. With an AK-47 to my head, they started questioning me. I was surprisingly very calm at the time, thanks to my Islamic beliefs and mantras, I felt safe despite of everything, I was ready to die. But there was an aura of innocence radiating from me that even those monsters could feel. Anyway, a few minutes later, they took my wallet and left the house alone and went away to complete with the rest of the houses. Funny thing is that I was carrying two phones and they didn't find any of them, one of them carried potentially sensitive videos that could be interpreted against me. I was lucky, I guess. But I basically protected 7 apartments from theft with a wallet that contained less than $10 at the time lol.

Edited April 29, 2022 by Gesundheit2

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• The opposite of authentic is not inauthentic, it's forced.
• Ironically, being evil can be good.

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Life is hard, and it's getting harder. I am tough, and getting tougher. Bring out your worst, I don't care. I will only get better. I will not break, you will bow down for me.

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Sorry, Joseph. I disagree with you on this. Crazy and deluded are not relative things. At least, not as relative as you're portraying them to be.

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Beliefs are the thoughts that you think, but don't think about.

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God is the only scam that you will need in life. No more scams will work on you afterwards.

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Ramadan is finally officially over. Now I don't have to pretend to be fasting anymore. I pretended for 30 days. It wasn't hard, but it was a little bit annoying. This week is a holi-week. No work, no university, no hospital. Nothing. Just visiting relatives and stuff, most of whom I don't really like, but whatever.

 

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Life is a game of musical chairs.

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Hard to describe what I'm feeling/thinking. I know what it is, but I just can't put it into words. Not that I need to, but that it's annoying. Like, I see everything with clarity. Literally. No doubts. No confusion. All clear. Yet, nothing is happening like I want to. And I know how and why. But I can't really do much about it, at least at this point. At the same time, I don't really want things to be any other way. So, I don't really have problems with how things are. It's just that things could be much better. I can see the potential, and how it's being wasted. I can see the future, and how things will turn out to be. It's just not that good. Seize it now while you can, that's all I can say to anyone reading this. What is this "it"? I can't say, cuz it's different for everyone. But now it's more than it is tomorrow. The only thing that is increasing is the collective suffering. It will keep on increasing for God knows how long. I will be dead by that time, so it's up for others after me to figure out the rest.

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I don't believe in love. It exists, but it's unreliable. There are better delusions to chase and have.

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On 20/12/2020 at 5:45 PM, Gesundheit said:

I wish I could live there forever! The sea close to the beach was green, like really, really bright green, almost fluorescent teal. Very pure, and with foam. The waves were strong and violent, almost tidal. And into the horizon, deep blue sea. That's where I did my retreat two months and a half ago. It was the best experience of my life.

I remember the odor of the sea. It felt fresh, full of Oxygen, very refreshing. I plan to go there sometime within the next 12 months. Once I have enough money, I will move there permanently. I want to stay near the sea for the rest of my life. The sound of the waves, the colors, and the smell. I don't think I will ever love anything else as much.