Jai

Spiritual Review and Progress

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Jan 20

Had a solid day today. Bounced back. Wasn't in resentment which was good. Had some minor frustration but didn't throw me off. So improved vitality, had really good habits, was positive and optimistic. Hung out with a friend also and did a meditation. Had 55 minutes of total meditation/prayer time. Also decided to buy a camera. It's expensive but I think it will add to my life and be a nice hobby. I've been on the fence about this since saving money is really important to me also. I'm really frugal and live really basic. I'm such a minamalist. But some things really can add value. I have some nice clothes, a nice computer and I like these. So having a nice camera will also be a benefit. Got to plan to use it on the regular and get into this and photo editing and have a nice hobby. Plus it's nice to take good photos of things I do, friends, family, myself, etc. So I can use it to document all the nice things in my life. Over 10 years the price probably isn't that much if i use it all the time. Same thing with my computer, expensive but totally worth it. So just got to make the right decision on which camera.

+ spiritual practice: good here. Really nice robust sessions. High quality. Chanting feels so good now that I know the chant! Now I just have to do it on the daily and perfect it.

+ Attitude of service: Good actions and good attitude. wasn't resentful or frustrated, just looking to help. Felt more relaxed at work. Got to remember not to get drawn in to conflict or getting upset.

+ Mental and emotional states: Good todya. Not thrown off. Nice and where I'm supposed to be. Good mental clarity and focus, better phone habits also. Need to stay away from checking my phone. Kept my phone away while I'm at home.

+ Life habits: Good also. Really clean living. Got up early worked out all throughout the day. all good habits and clean living.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 21

Really solid day today. I had some good God connection on my walk during lunch. Really felt at peace. Felt positive and like I'm on the track of something good. So just got to keep investing in God. Really live out of faith. My daily spiritual practice had been the foundation of everything, been doing this for 9 months now day in and day out. The results are so clear. If i really put God first and really put time into meditation, prayer, review, service, etc then I end up in a good spot. Most of the time feel connected and free from fear, doubt, worry, regret, etc. So there is no going back, I have to stay commited to a spiritual practice indefinitely, why would I want to go back? This gives me the best results and best life. Best thing is I'm super busy and still have time. I work 40 hours a week and I study 18 hours a week. I put in a bunch of time for God also and that's what makes having so much to do possible.

+ Spiritual practice: good job with chanting. Almost totally done. Prayer and meditation was good also.

+ Attitude of service: good at work. Tried to be helpful. Good outward energy. Not stuck in self all day. Keep need to remind myself that I need to focus on service and contributing.

+ Mental and emotional states: Really strong, free from resentment, really turned that around. Optimistic, positive, good vitality and focus.

+ Life habits: all good but stayed in bed an extra 20 minutes. But still living really clean.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 22

Another solid day. I'm on a nice streak. Starting out the year pretty strong. My habits are solid, I'm on nice retention streak also so my sexual energy is high. It feels good to be on a streak after going back to porn a handful of times over the previous months. I'm making good progress and want to focus on progress. That keeps me feeling good. My goals are far away, and I got a nice vision for myself in the future. But I can't postpone well being and connection in the present. So the future is important but so is what I'm doing now. And I'll never stay motivated if I postpone happiness and well being. So I have to do what I'm doing now well and enjoy it and live life. Other than that I ended up buying a camera. Will arrive in a couple weeks. So I'm getting into photography. That is my new hobby. I have seen photos by people who are in to it and it seems cool. Plus I also want to take some nice photos of myself. Gonna use it to do that and use them for online dating also. I haven't been too motivated to put effort in to that but now I will. Plus I can document all of the cool things I'll do over the next 10 years with a nice camera. So it's an expensive hobby, but over time I think it will be worth it. Other than that have had some good God connection recently. I really want to keep that up. My effort in my spiritual practice is good, so just can't back off of that.

+ Spiritual practice: Definitely solid here. Such a natural part of my life. I really look forward to my spiritual sessions.

+ Attitude of service: tried to be helpful at work as best I could. Good outward energy and not stuck in self.

+ Mental and emotional states: Optimistic, connected, participating in life. I had a nice walk on lunch and really had a clear sense of God's presence. A nice serenity but also heightened perception, just an awareness. I keep getting these nice hints that I'm on the right path.

+ Life habits: Good today, living really clean and staying on top of habits. Cold showers are great, but I always have some mental pushback to fight through to talk myself in to it. I also have organized my apartment really nicely. Everything has its place and I'm always keeping it really clean. A lot of this has to do with sleeping on the floor and just really liking the empty zen space of everyting. So hope to keep this up.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 23

Solid day today. Got up early and then studied. Then I hung with a friend all day. We did a bunch of meditation and did some spiritual review of ourselves and chatted. Great day. Glad to have people walking the same path as me and growing toward God. I really put all of the time today to good use. Glad I got up early to get some studying done. And also really present to hang with my friend. Not at all disturbed or drawn toward other things. A big topic of today was avoiding fear and living in God's presence and having faith. Easier said than done. It's easy to fall in to fear. It's easy to live in the future also and postpone happiness and well being. Good thing is over the past 9 months or so I've been going really strong. I've had times of weakness and have fallen in to fear but I've lived in faith more than ever. My relationship with God is stronger than ever. I feel like I'm on a nice path. And I've had more discipline than ever also, it's not being driven or motivated, it's just inviting God into my life and cleaning things up. Living really clean is the reward.

+ Spiritual practice: Solid here. Not the normal day. Really set aside most of the day to spiritual activity. It was like a mini-retreat. Great idea to do these once in awhile.

+ Attitude of service: Available to my friend and willing to be helpful. Good outward energy and not stuck in self.

+ Mental and emotional states: where I want to be. Solidly on the positive side of the spectrum. Free from negative thoguths and emotions like doubt, regret, fear, worry, self pity, etc. Also not preocupied with work or other concerns. Able to enjoy a day off.

+ Life habits: Solid. Got up at 4:00. Studied. Walked in to a cold shower. Cleaned my apartment some. All really good stuff.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 24

Not really my best day in habits. Was kind of a lazy off day. I did get some studying done which was good. But I also didn't do a long meditation session, I ate some junk food like chips and pretzels and didn't exercise. Wasn't a horrible day but felt kind of like an off or recovery day. That's okay though. Week is tomorrow and I can go as hard as I can. Week I usually have really high energy. This week is good because I only work 4 days. Gonna code a lot on Friday when I'm off and go ski on Saturday. Also going to try to code on Sunday. Today I felt a little off with my connection and positivity. Had a little doubt for the first time in a bit. So that was different. A little doubt about the future and not making enough money now, a little fear or regret mixed in as well. Instead of being in gratitude. So I can have these days and not have them derail me. It's day at a time over the long haul. I am building something nice so of course it will take time. Just got to keep the main thing the main thing and have faith. I did watch some football with friends which was good. Good to hang out sometimes.

/ Spiritual practice: okay but not up to my high standard. Just did a morning meditation. Normally I have more significant effort here. Not bad, but not as good as usual.

+ Attitude of service: Okay, did a couple small things, but not really strong outward energy. So okay but not where I want it to be.

/ Mental and emotional states: Not horrible but I did have doubt and some fear. Good thing is it didn't really throw me off. But I wasn't as connected and vibrant as usual.

/ Life habits: Not horrible, still got up early, still got some studying in. But also made compromises on my diet. So want to improve that for this week.

Neutral day, kinda moved forward with coding, but overall don't feel like it was a clear day of progress. Didn't move backwards, but the lower energy, lower connection, a little doubt and making compromises on diet kind of cancel out the good things. So neutral.

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Jan 25

Good day all around, even though life is seeming a little monotonous now. Once again I think it's a product of winter. I'm not out as much and not hiking. So with all the studying I'm doing sometimes things just seem really monotonous. But for the most part everything is good. I have a pretty good attitude at work but should work on not getting caught up in things. Just have a really measured and healthy perspective. Also, can't get discouraged by how far away my goals seem, just focus on all the great progress I'm making. Plus live in gratittude. Things are going pretty well and I have a lot to be happy about. So it's good for me to focus on all that is going well and just keep the connection with God. That's the real key. Even with as much as i'm doing it's easy to not be grateful. So gotta watch out for that.

+ Spiritual practice: good monday session. Solid 30 minutes in the morning, plus 15 at lunch. It's really nice knowing this chant now. I'm glad I put in the effort and have it down. Now it's just really perfecting it and gaining more confidence.

+ Attitude of service: Good here. Tried to be helpful at work. Good outward energy in general, although in afternoon I slipped a little bit into worrying about myself and the future.

+ Mental and emotional states: Again, pretty good but not as optimistic or energized as I'd like. Not bad but a little worry after work.

+ Life habits: Actually really good. Cold shower today was extra invigorating. Really just felt the rush. It's so hard to get in but once I'm in my body adapts pretty good. The hard part is talking myself into it every day. Other habits were good.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 26

A pretty solid day today. Good habits except for hit snooze and checked a little too much internet on my phone. Good thing happened someone I knew in high school messaged me which was nice. A couple years ago I saw him and apologized for being a dick to him, I only saw him quick so it wasn't a big exchange. Anyway, he said today he didn't really remember me being a dick so that was good. I definitely was kinda a dick so I'm glad we're cool. Funny how things work out like this. I should stop worrying about stuff from years ago. Went for a nice walk when it was snowing out. That was nice. Work went pretty well - I also need to not worry there. Just keep up my effort, practice service and be patient. I'm working toward good things. Good spiritual practice today also. So a solid day all around.

Really the only negative in general is a little bit of monotony. I have a strong routine, but not too much excitement really. I'm missing hiking from the summer. Missing nice days and it being sunny late. I feel kind of isolated sometimes. So going skiing this weekend that will be good. Have thought a bit about skiing some more. But during the week I also need something from time to time to be a little more exciting.

+ Spiritual practice: put in an hour today. Solid hour of prayer, meditation, breathwork. Good effort.

+ Attitude of service: Outward energy, not stuck in self, trying to be helpful.

+ Mental and emotional states: generally good. But need to work on staying more grateful. So I wasn't negative, but i want to live in gratitude.

+ Life habits: All pretty good, except not waking up on first alarm and a little too much phone. Still lots of discipline. Want to clean those up though.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 27

Another good day. Had a really strong sense of God connection today on my walk. I mean really felt connected adn felt a presence. Just a great indication that all my prayer and meditation is a benefit. It's just a good indication that I'm on the right path. Been listening to a great Krishna podcast that has really brought me some good perspective. Been listening daily since like July I think. Anyway so today it was nice to just have some good peace and connection. I still get bothered here and there by work. Sometimes there is a little stress, sometimes there is frustration. I need to step back and not get tied up in this. So today was a great day, but I do get a little frustrated. So need to improve here and just stay positive. Good day all around though. Not really bothered by the monotony today.

+ Spiritual practice: Chanting is going so well. Really like how I got the chant down and now I'm just really improving. Going to do some japa before bed also.

+ Attitude of service: pretty good today. but can always look to improve. I want to keep this perspective at work so I don't fall into frustration and discontent. Just really try to be helfpul even though at times it can seem overwhelming.

+ Mental and emotional states: Right where I should be. Positive, feeling connected, feeling like I'm moving forward.

+ Life habits: strong. Talking myself into a cold shower is the toughest thing. If i can do that I can handle the rest. Need to get serious about the phone though, checking dumb internet stuff is not good.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 28

Good day but felt frustrated at work. I really need to look out for that. I don't want it to turn into disastisfaction. Lately some things haven't exactly gone the way I would like and there can be difficulties. Work will always be like that. Point is to not get frustrated. Overall still doing well. Actually had a good day at work. This month made some investments in lifestyle things. Too big investments. I'm normally pretty frugal, but I wanted to upgrade a bit. So I just bought a really big gong for my zen den meditation room. It will really be the centerpeice of my apartment since I don't have a tv and don't have any furniture besides a desk and chair. I also just bought a really nice camera which was expensive. Part of me feels guilty for this but I do think it will be a nice new hobby. So I have to really get into photography though. Since I spent a bunch of money it's important for me to really get into this.

+ spiritual practice. Solid but didn't do my lunch chanting session.

/ attitude of service:  I'd say good but I was frustrated. My actions were good but I felt on edge and tense. Not the outward energy I want. I want a really nice feeling that I can serve.

/ Mental and emotional states: good except for the frustration. Excited about the life I'm building, excited about photography.

+ Life habits: Overall good, but snacked a bit at my sisters. Always an excuse to snack when I go there.

Overall moved forward today.

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Jan 29

Good day overall. Day off so not in the usual routine and format of things. Was a slower pace day, took a nap because I got up early. Saw a friend. Set up my gong in my apartment and started to use my camera. I definitely am a little doubtful about my purchases, but I think they will be upgrades for my life. I feel like it's a little irresponsable to buy a camera when I could've saved that money. So I'll have to make sure I use it a lot and turn it into a hobby. Same thing with the gong, that's the way now I have to open and close meditations. I'm still definitely a minimalist and live simple, probably won't really buy anything for awhile, but for now I think these things will be beneficial. So I want to keep my focus and connection high and not fall in to doubt or worry.

/ spiritual practice: good afternoon session, but didn't do a normal morning practice. Should probably do at least a little in the mronig to set my day up.

+ attitude of service: was helpful around my sisters and made her coffee in the morning since I was up early.

/ mental and emotional states: generally pretty good. Just still a little doubt about the camera, so I have to go all in on that hobby. Doubt there can drag me down a bit.

/ Life habits: not the best, didn't really eat clean and also had distracted internet use.

Still moved forward today.

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Jan 30

Unbelieveable day. Went skiing at Monarch Mountain. Snowed last night and snowed all today so all kinds of powder. This was the first time I powder skied. I've only been skiing in Colorado like 5 times. Always fun but today was special. Really surreal. We hiked up to another part of the mountain that was less crowded and could really put some fresh tracks in the snow. Great exercise, really exhilirating, great fun, great adrenaline. It was really amazing. Really glad I bought a pair of skiis and I'm doing some outdoor stuff in winter. Generally winter has had me really down. I'm not biking, it's dark early, don't enjoy the cold that much. But today was awesome. Still had time to do a meditation session when I got home.

/ Spiriutal practice: good session when I got home. Probably should've made some time early before I went skiing. But still had some good effort.

+ attitude of service: pretty good. Good outward energy. Not lots of opportunities for service but did have a friend stay and made breakfast.

+ Mental and emotional states: Easy to feel connected when I'm skiing on a great day. Not really worried or in self. Had a nice flow state that comes from skiing like that.

/ Life habits: got in a cold shower but ate some sugary granola bars which are trash.

Moved forward today.

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Jan 31

Got my camera up and running and went and took some photos. It was fun and I liked it. I was worried about making such a big purchase and I had a bunch of doubts. It was nice to get out and take some photos and have the doubt go away. I think this will be a hobby that I enjoy. I was pleased with some of the photos too. took some self potraits since it was a nice sunny day outside and since I don't have anyone else to take photos of. I think potraits are the first thing I'm interested in since I see some nice ones on the internet. So I'd like to get some skill up. So this is an addition to my life which is good. I'm worried about spending money since saving is a big priority. But also I want to invest in things that enlarge my life and live a performance oriented life. So this month I made a couple big purchases. I got this camera and I also got a big ass gong for my meditation room. Totally unnecessary but totally worth it also. So next month back to the old thrifty ways but I can enjoy these things.

Today was also recovery day from skiing. A little sore and worn out. So didn't study much and didn't hit my weekly goal of study hours. Really the first time I've missed it by a significant amount in the 3 months or so I've been studying. I'll be back at it this week for sure tho. I did get in a decent meditation session today so I'm happy about that. Hit my gong and had like a 25 minute session which is on the short end for weekends. Still good quality though. Definitely keeping God first in my life.

Sample photo I took out with my bike which is one of my favorite things.

+ Spiritual practice: Good quality meditation. Ready for a solid week. Not taking days off which is good.

+ Attitude of service: Good outward energy, not stuck in self. Gonna help my sister take care of her dog which isn't really anything or any effort but still happy to do it while she's away.

/ Mental and emotional states: Overall good, but was frustrated in the morning with my computer course. Felt a bit puzzled, frustrated, and like I'm not moving fast enough - not the mind to get anything useful done. So took the day and took some photos instead and set up my camera. So bounced back nicely and had a nice day. Nice to turn it around rather than force myself into studying when I wouldn't have had anything really stick. Better to get back at it fresh. First time I really didn't hit my study goal in months so okay.

/ Life habits: good but a little light on the exercise. Had a retention streak of like 27 days. Broke that but will get back on that. Not at all a problem or let down with this, but still want discipline over the next couple of weeks.

Moved forward today.

 

 

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Feb 1

Good day today. Got studying back on track which was good. Felt nice to be productive there. Also had a good day at work. Did a better job of keeping God conscious at work. Didn't stress too much, stayed God focused and didn't take things to seriously, just trying to do service. It did feel a little monotonous today after work. Went to a meeting and didn't enjoy it all that much. Which is too bad. And then it's like go home and go to bed because I get up so early. But this is life. I'm working hard building a nice future. There just isn't a lot of down time. But did have a solid day. Had a really nice meditation session in morning and during lunch. So spiritual life is good.

+ Spiritual practice: Nice solid weekly session. Good whm breathing session prior which opens up a sense of tranquility.

+ Attitude of service: good outward energy and not stuck in self.

+ Mental and emotional states: Good today, felt pretty connected at work which was a plus from last week when I was a little stressed.

+ Life habits: Solid here. Good habits today, usually start monday strong. Keep this up during the week and weekends I can relax a little and sleep in a little.

Moved forward today

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Feb 2

A solid day in action. I also in thought and emotion good, not as good as I can be there but still good overall. I did put in some extra effort to stay God aware during work. That's important. I really want to bring God connection to work. Otherwise my vitality fades and I fall in to frustration. If I remind myself that all I have to do is serve God then some of the pressure is lifted. Lately I've definitely noticed that I'm feeling distant from recovery meetings in general. The more I get in to a spiritual practice, meditation, prayer, review etc the less I'm relating at meetings. Before meetings were the center of everything, now I feel less connected. Some of it has to do with spiritual pride and becoming a little hardened by a lot of the sacrifices and difficult steps I'm taking. So I need to watch that. Part of it is also just relating less and not really wanting what anyone has. I feel more connection from a new spiritual traditon I'm learning about which is bhakti. I feel more and more drawn to that. On top of my other practices. So that's just how my heart is resonating. I want to be on the look out for that. Other than that going through some photos I took and getting more excited about photography. Also excited to go skiing a couple more times. So overall things are still pretty good. I've had a nice start to the year and have some nice momentum.

+ Spritual practice: Had an nice 35 minute meditation after work. Longer session since my morning session was cut a little short. Maybe a possibility is to do this after work and have a short morning session. Especially possible considering I'll have to go in to work soon and will have to shift my schedule.

+ Attitude of service: Good outward energy at work. Not frustrated or upset, just trying to contribute.

/ Mental and emotional states: Generally good except for feeling distant from meetings. That did bother me a little today. I was a little judgmental of others as well from meetings which isn't good.

+ Life habits: good but I overslept some. I had an unbelievably powerful dream. usually i'm light sleeping by the time the alarm goes off but not today. When the alarm went off I was still just swept up in it. I just laid around and let it sink in. Other than that solid habits.

Moved forward today.

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Feb 3

Did a good job today of maintaing good God connection at work. Really several times brought my mind back to God. This helped maintain connection and I wasn't as tense. It's important to keep this up. I don't want to exclude work from a sort of God connection. I want to maintain God connection and a service perspective. I was also in trust and faith, so not in fear, worry, anxiety, etc today. So obviously that's good. Good habits today also, and actually getting more motivated to do some online dating now that I'm getting some photos in order. Photography looks to be a new hobby of mine also. Today was really warm out and I took an amazing walk during lunch. Laid down in the park and just let the sun shine on me. Felt warm and relaxed. Winter in some ways has been tough. But lucky I get nice warm days like this in Colorado also. 

/ Spiritual practice: Good but missed wim hof breathing which I like to do before meditation. Good session after work. I may move the bulk of my practice to after work so I'm not rushed in the morning. So brief morning session last two days.

+ Attitude of service: Good outward energy. Tried to be helpful. Not upset or resentful or agitated. So good state to be in at work.

+ Mental and emotional states: Good today. Especially the God awareness at work. I want to keep encouraging that tomorrow. Nice to keep in a solid place all day.

/ Life habits: Mostly really good. Only issue was that I didn't get up at first alarm. Tough again today. Was in a really deep sleep. When I'm in a deep sleep it's tough for me to get up really quick. Hit snooze for like 15 minutes today.

Moved forward today.

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Feb 4

Another solid day. Looking back over the past month or so I've really had some sustainable solid days. Not too much to complain about. Usually feeling connected. Usually productive and positive. Generally outward oriented toward service. Not falling in to fear, regret, doubt, worry, self pity, etc. Instead on the connected and positive side of things. So want to keep that up. Feeling pretty good even though my computer course is difficult. It will take what it will take. I think just accepting that will relieve some stress.

/ Spiritual practice: Good but didn't have as long of a session as I would like. After work met up with a friend. I've swithced it to after work which has some benefits. But I think I'd like to get more of a habit of doing it right after work if I stick with the switch.

+ Attitude of service: Good here. Tried to be really helpful at work. Good outward energy. Really kept on my mind today to do God's will. Just orient toward serving God.

+ Mental and emotional states: Really calm at work. Connected, and not frustrated or stressed. Good to feel this way at work.

+ Life habits: Mostly good except hitting snooze. Not super pumped to jump out of bed. I guess since I get up so early I'm relaxed about this. Slowed my pace down with moving my long meditation to after work.

Moved forward today.

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Feb 5

Really nice day today. Felt pretty well connected all day. Did some service at work, didn't get upset about anything. Felt nice because it was a Friday. I have a nice cumulative momentum going. I've been consistently investing in God and I've really gotten to a nice place. Big thing is just keeping this up no matter what. Daily spiritual practice is the foundation of it. From there clean up my habits and try to do some service. All of this has really put me in a nice place. I'm also really seeing my vision for the future more clearly. It's like the fear and worry and doubt and regret and self pity are disappearing and I can really believe in the future with faith and confidence. It's taken some time to get here and I know there is even more better things to come. The point is to never stop a spiritual practice. I've had so many good things challenge me this year. Wim Hof method has been great. Daily talking myself into a cold shower so much benefit I don't want to give that up. It's mentally so hard to face that daily, I'm over 8 months everyday and I say I'll stop at a year. Funny how I want to stop something that is good for me because it's difficult. So theme is to just keep building it a day at a time.

+ Spiritual practice: good model today. morning lunch evening. All pretty good.

+ Attitude of service: good here. At work did well, and in general had a good outward energy, mentally reminding myself thy will not mine be done, that God is the center.

+ Mental and emotional states: Good example of where i want to exist mentally and emotionally, secure, confident, connected, positive, optimistic, really living in the day

+ Life habits: pretty solid overall

Moved forward today.

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Feb 6

Really turned around my day and finished strong. Woke up late and didn't get up as early as I woulda liked. That's been a problem recently, not getting up at first alarm. After a short prayer session I went straight in to studying. My mind was groggy and not as clear as normal. Usually I wake up, exercies, cold shwoer, wim hof breathing, meditate... and then I'm really sharp and energized. Point is this low clarity mind and unenergized mind got me a little down about studying. I was a bit pessimistic and discouraged. I definitely wasn't at my best. So I went for a bike ride and took a cold/hot/cold/hot.. etc shower. It really gave me a strong awareness and presence in my body. Did some deep breathing and meditation after and had a fantastic day. Went to shoot photos which was fun. Definitely a new hobby of mine. so enjoyed the afternoon. Will catch up on studying tomorrow but i have to have a solid start to the day... it's a peformance thing.

+ Spiritual practice: Good effort, decent sessions.

+ Attitude of service: good outward energy today. Happy about that, not stuck in self.

/ Mental and emotional states: Good in the afternoon, but not where I wanted to be in the morning. It's not automatic, I have to put in effort to really exist on a higher level of positivity and connection. Funny how weekends can be some of my lower days just because I lower the intensity and am not as strict with myself.

+ Life habits: Cold shower really did it today. Felt so good and energized, went back and forth between hot and cold. All I have to do is overcome the intial mental block that tells me not to get in. After I get in I end up adapting.

Moved forward today.

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Feb 7

Another solid day. Got started right, got up on alarm, cleaned the house, took a cold and hot shower, breathwork, meditation, then had a nice study session 5 hours today. Still managed to get some other stuff done too and then watch the game. So glad I had a strong day. My connection is growing. Want to keep this going in to this week. Stay connected, positive, optimistic, grateful and just keep being excited about life. Beyond that would like to improve waking up at first alarm, this past week I fell short there. Also just stay connected during work, not get tense and not get stressed. Instead keep my thougths on God and service.

+ Spiritual practice: really nice chanting and meditation session today.

+ Attitude of service: good outward energy, not stuck in my own problems. Trying to always be oriented toward contributing to life.

+ Mental and emotional states: Good and I did good work to get me here. First thing everyday should be setting aside time to get straight with spirit. Felt way better about my computer course compared to yesterday. Want to stay excited about this.

/ Life habits: pretty good but ate some pizza for the super bowl which thinking about it was pretty gross. Not gonna throw me off but definitely a deviation from clean diet.

Moved forward today.

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Feb 8

Really good day and really good connection today. Never got thrown way off track. Also never got frustrated even though I had made an error at work. So I'm happy about that. Definitely some progress there. Also pretty good habits and stayed positive.

+ Spiritual practice: Made some good effort here. Definitely getting it in. Did 3 shorter sessions today.

+ Attitude of service: Good outward energy. Tried to be helpful today, got some stuff done at work to contribute so good effort.

+ Mental and emotional states: I've had a string of really nice days. I'm on a pretty good roll of being positive and staying focused on God. So happy about that.

+ Life habits: Also good. Really nice cold shower and whm breathing. Lived pretty clean today.

Moved forward.

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