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[Aakash]

several holes, several several

none like this, i've never felt fear ever when i opened other holes

this is different

this was as if, if you had to stay in this hole, that thats it thats your life over

but it was so peaceful,

i feel like crying, i feel like i'm going to die

Edited June 11, 2019 by Aakash

[tsuki]

Remember that you can only go there if it feels right. If you do that out of love.

[Aakash]

yeah it got rejected, as soon as my mind activity started and my emotions started flaring up, is this why we say we are not this and not that? to bypass this? 

[tsuki]

It may have been too rapid for you. Still, now you know there's more.
If emotions stopped you, you should do more shadow work.

[Druid420]

Enlightenment starts with your diet. 

Edited June 11, 2019 by Druid420

[Aakash]

@tsuki LOL MY SHADOW WORK IS SAYING GOODBYE TO MY PARENTS AND LIFE ! 

@Druid420 yeah that was it, it was awareness of awareness 

does that dissipate into pure awareness when you go completely through

[Druid420]

Pure awareness is when reality dissolves. 

It is all a big illusion. 

Edited June 11, 2019 by Druid420

[Aakash]

@Druid420 i see which is exactly what it felt like if i went fully through, its basically like going to a place of no return. because your perspective changes to pure awareness and isn't from the perspective of you. So i'm guessing the more you disconnect from the mind, the less you identify with it.

[tsuki]

12 minutes ago, Aakash said:

@tsuki LOL MY SHADOW WORK IS SAYING GOODBYE TO MY PARENTS AND LIFE ! 

Keep doing shadow work until it merges with your everyday experience. 
It's about surrender. Only through surrender you can fall down/up there.

[Aakash]

is surrendering basically the idea of no surrendering, its like you let it happen to you. 

like the idea is to remain there at all times, 

Edited June 11, 2019 by Aakash

[tsuki]

You need so much surrender that it will literally kill you.
You won't be able to go there unless there is no you.

Edited June 11, 2019 by tsuki

[Aakash]

and how far on the journey are you ? 

LOOOL i finally understand what it means to die @Shin 

Edited June 11, 2019 by Aakash

[tsuki]

There was no journey to begin with.

[Shin]

1 minute ago, Aakash said:

and how far on the journey are you ? 

LOOOL i finally understand what it means to die @Shin 

You can't understand it, you either die or you don't

Everything else is a belief

[Aakash]

@Shin LOOOL! i understand those panic attacks that you've been having in bed and those days where your not motivated to get out of bed from reading your journals, it literally makes sense now

some solid advice, definately if you try to understand it with the brain you get out of it and does that include planning how your going to live your life because thats believing there is a "you" to plan it? 

 

Edited June 11, 2019 by Aakash

[Shin]

1 minute ago, Aakash said:

@Shin LOOOL! i understand those panic attacks that you've been having in bed and those days where your not motivated to get out of bed from reading your journals, it literally makes sense now

some solid advice, definately if you try to understand it with the brain you get out of it and does that include planning how your going to live your life because thats believing there is a "you" to plan it? 

 

Yeah, now you know you have no choice and that it's only a matter of time.

Be ready or not, that's your problem

[Aakash]

literally only a matter of time! you can't unsee it once you've seen it because its literally like NOW the access point is literally in the NOW, YOU CAN'T MISS IT

have you done it or are you still trying?

 

Edited June 11, 2019 by Aakash

[tsuki]

lol, time.
What is time?

[Aakash]

LOOL! okay last question: it seems to me that you can't talk about it past this point , like there's nothing you can say about it at all, its literally just you and your experiences and the practices, until you don't need the practices anymore? 

[tsuki]

There is no me, no experience and no practices.
The last step is to give up the embodiment of giving up.