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[Shin]

 

Ever felt that everything is taking care of ?

That everything that happens in your life, whether you label it as good or bad, beatiful or ugly, painful or ecstatic supports you towards greater and greater union and love ?

When I look back, every events, no matter how insignificant led me where I am now.

I've been down so many times in my life, and everytime, one way or another help came in some form or another after.

Nowadays, it's almost instant.

I literally close my eyes, go through the pain and let it all go, and the week, sometimes even one day after I'm already being lifted up by life.

So much coincidences that I wouldn't believe it a year ago.

 

I was just never conscious of it before, but now that I can see the pattern, I'm ready to take everything in.

I really just don't care what will happen anymore, there is too much faith now.

Whatever happens is exactly what should happen for me to become whatever I will become, there is no doubt anymore.

 

I just wish you could all have the same faith

There really isn't anything to be afraid of.

It's all taken care of.

 

Just let it go and move on please

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Edited June 12, 2019 by Shin

[mandyjw]

@Shin

[DrewNows]

4 hours ago, mandyjw said:

@Shin

@Shin 2nd this boyfriend ?

[Shin]

17 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

@Shin 2nd this boyfriend ?

Get on the waiting list

The server is currently full

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[mandyjw]

The server is infinite, silly. 

[tsuki]

Die, die, die, die, die 

Then give up your faith.

[mandyjw]

I'm already dead, I gave up my faith already, the war has already been fought. You stand over me with a knife but I'm not afraid. 

[Shin]

Everyday I cry knowing I have to face this.

No lie.

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[mandyjw]

@Shin  

Face what, there's nothing here. No face to face. 

[Shin]

The name of the song I just heard was

Melt away

 

MELT AWAY

 

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME ??????!!!!!

 

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Edited June 12, 2019 by Shin

[mandyjw]

 

[Shin]

[mandyjw]

@Shin My kid is sick so I can do this ALL day long. 

You guys are all so nihilistic, black holes and melting and nothingness. 

[Shin]

4 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

@Shin My kid is sick so I can do this ALL day long. 

You guys are all so nihilistic, black holes and melting and nothingness. 

That's easy to say until you face it yourself

[tsuki]

@mandyjw Have you ever prayed out of love for someone to die?

Sometimes we wish to euthanize a sick relative so that they don't need to face many years of debilitating pain.
"I" and "other" are a sickness. It is not nihilism. It's compassion.

Edited June 12, 2019 by tsuki

[mandyjw]

@tsuki I did tonglen for my Grandmother, the night she died. It bounced back and I received a feeling of peace and well being stronger than I was able to give. An hour later my mom told me that she was gone. Everyone wanted her to hurry up and die. She was inconveniencing everyone, she stopped sleeping and started seeing dead people and she got mad at people for not understanding her reality.

Grammie just needed to finish her vision quest.

All in good time. 

[tsuki]

@mandyjw And there it is, grammie as someone other than you.

[mandyjw]

@tsuki

You're as blind as a bat my love. So was Grammie, by the end. 

[tsuki]

@mandyjw Pfft. That stung pretty good.

I am nothing, I know nothing. Thank you.

[Shin]

10 minutes ago, tsuki said:

@mandyjw Pfft. That stung pretty good.

I am nothing, I know nothing. Thank you.

Are you dead yourself ?