The Way of The Shroom

[Shroomdoctor]

So I have updated my plans for the first quarter of 2019 and decided to keep myself responsible through doing monthly updates on my goals. If you wish have a look at my vision page for 1/4 of 2019. The next update will be on February the 1st. 

 

@Nahm @Shin @Charlotte @Psyche_92@aurum@Max_V

The full Vision Page: 2019 Planning Part 14.pdf

 

Edited December 20, 2018 by Shroomdoctor

[Shin]

[Shroomdoctor]

@Shin I edited one thing. It should work now?

[Shin]

That's great, we'll be there for you  

[Charlotte]

@Shroomdoctor  well done dude! Actually putting in the work and trying to create order when your feeling as low as you say, that's bloody brilliant. ??

9 hours ago, Shin said:

we'll be there for you

X2 ❤️

[Shroomdoctor]

@Shin @Charlotte Thank You. This actually means a lot to me. If I show this stuff to friends and family I either get no response or something like "you're crazy".

 

<3 

[Psyche_92]

44 minutes ago, Shroomdoctor said:

This actually means a lot to me. If I show this stuff to friends and family I either get no response or something like "you're crazy".

Goodluck. I don't share any of my goals with my family anymore. They won't understand and they would only project their limiting beliefs and fears on me. Maybe you need to do the same.

Edited December 21, 2018 by Psyche_92

[aurum]

@Shroomdoctor

Love it man, keep pushing.

[Charlotte]

@Shroomdoctor you know we always love you mate ?❤️

 

[Shroomdoctor]

New plan. Gonna post weekly updates.

[Shin]

Work more on what needs to be done rather than not.

It works better for me.

Like if you cut all you recreational activities, you will tend to be less productive than if you just focus on doing the things you want to do.

In time you will have less and less time for «useless entertainment» anyways.

[Shroomdoctor]

@Shin Well that might be good advice. Gonna cut the "no entertainment" thing out then. Also I know I cant do everything like that since the first day, so I will slowly work my way up. 

I already feel like I cant do it...

 

[Shroomdoctor]

I have cut down to the bare essentials: Meditation and NoFap. I am feeling quite depressed at the moment, a lot of suicidal thoughts and anxiety. It takes me around 3-4 hours to sleep. I cant even do easy tasks. I don't know how I would be able to do anything this year. I don't even know if I am able to keep the meager pizza delivery job that pays my bills, and as I have spent all my saved money on i don't know what I don't even have a safety net. I sincerely hope that my daily meditation and Nofap will somehow get me into a position that I can make some forward strides. I dont know how my life has spiraled this much out of control. 

 

 

[Shin]

 

Edited January 6, 2019 by Shin

[Shroomdoctor]

can i give up now ? 

[Shin]

NOOOOO !!!!!!!!!

 

JUST 

DO

IT 

!!!

 

 

 

[Shroomdoctor]

Feeling especially bad today, wondering why anybody would like being alive.

 

[Shin]

Come on you can do it ?

 

[Shin]

Don't give up

 

 

 

[Shin]