The fact that I am not a creative person makes me sad...I don't want to live anymore

[Never_give_up]

I tried so hard to make art using my imagination. But the only thing I can is to copy things from life or internet pictures (and I am not good enough in that either). I really wanted to become an artist but nature didn't give me the right genes. I am talented in informatics (I don't know informatics, we did informatics in high school and I just was really talented at it), the only thing that I am talented in. But I don't like informatics just cause I am good at it. I like art.

I really wish I was someone else. Not a low IQ autistic uncreative guy. I am powerless, when others get creative ideas my own mind is just blank.

I had no meaning in life, art became my meaning. But I am not good at it. So I have no meaning in life now that I am going to do drawing just for a hobby. 

All I can think is Leo's video The radical implications of Oneness in which he said ''in another life you will be mentally retarded''. This is the life he was talking about, and I can't do anything to change this situation... why am I even living? Can I do anything at all to change this situation?

[Sincerity]

Hey man, there’s nothing wrong with it being just a hobby. Also, I’m sure you’d be able to create something that would feel personally meaningful to you. It doesn’t necessary have to be „wacky creative”, right? Like, what inspires you in life, what would you like to express through art? Perhaps try making something like that, and ultra creativity is not a must.

I can hear you’re frustrated but let me assure you: you’re not „mentally retarded”. I’d suggest you try crying out your frustrations and vent out to the world, it’s probably all stuffed inside you now, so best let it out. You’ll feel better then.

Also, you know, best artists steal. Hell, nothing wrong with copying too since you’re at the stage where you’re learning. Accept yourself, the place you’re at as a being is really not that terrible man. You might just need a slight change in perspective. You are really enough.

Edited 1 hour ago by Sincerity