How I realized I'm Infinite

[EmiHyen]

I took some edibles since I wanted to use them to brainstorm ideas for a script I was working on and let my mind run loose.

Then, at some point, I needed to pee 💦

I got up, and while walking to the bathroom, I caught my whole body in the mirror. Something about it triggered an intuitive contemplation exercise.

I began picturing the billions upon billions of cells inside my body. There were too many to classify or even fully comprehend, just an endless mass of living matter.  The cells were all merging, uniting, dissolving into one another. The scale of it overwhelmed me, and I became obsessed with the thought that all of it together formed my body.

Where did I exist in all of that? Within each tiny cell, or only as the final result of their union?

Then I thought, well, there are molecules inside my cells. So I started imagining trillions upon trillions of molecules inside the billions upon billions of cells inside my body. I was using all the power of my imagination.  The numbers became so ridiculously high that everything started feeling absurd!

Then another thought. Inside those "molecules" were "atoms".

The number of atoms inside the molecules inside the cells was so stupidly immense, so completely absurd, but my imagination kept pushing further. The amount of tiny living things was overwhelming, and I started to feel intensely dizzy.

There had to be something inside atoms too, I thought. And inside those, more things. And more after that.

At some point there was no more room for labels anymore. Fuck science. Not “cells,” not “molecules,” not “atoms.”

Just layers inside layers inside layers. Beings inside beings inside beings.

Consciousness inside consciousness inside consciousness. Infinite Being. Infinite consciousness 💦

It hit me like consecutive slaps meant to wake someone up.

Everything is united = Everything is One = Everything is INFINITE

That explained reality so well! And that warm, orgasmic tingling feeling of insight rushed through my body.

And then I turned my eyes toward my entire present experience, and my mind did the same thing with everything inside my awareness. And HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

Here it is! I’m not inside or outside of something. THIS is me. THIS is where I have always been. Nowhere!! Absolute. I felt like my room had dissolved into an endless void of imagination. And I was everywhere. Infinite, everywhere at once. And I felt so conscious :DD

I didn’t know an insight could feel that powerful. It was so experiential, so intimate. Absolute Intimacy. Spiritual Orgasm. Infinite Love. I felt deeply shaken by it.

And the best part?

I didn’t even have to pee anymore 💦👖

[Hojo]

This is beautiful.

You are unified with something that isnt even there.

 

Edited 3 hours ago by Hojo