I hate how my mom can hit me and get away with it

[Onecirrus]

I hate how I can't leave because I'm poor, and because no one else on the planet really cares about me. I hate that I'm forced to be the more mature party and can't fight back or defend myself or else I'm going to jail. 

I hate people. I hate how I have been physically, verbally, and sexually abused and exploited by people in my life. Dealing with the wilderness of human society is the worst part about life. The only person who loves me is an imaginary person I created.

I don't want your advice, I guess I'm just venting. 

[Hojo]

I grew up in very toxic family. I just keep breaking the rules and getting attacked until one time my mom freak out so hard she threw stuff at me couldn't handle it and kick me put of the house. You gotta stop putting up with shit. GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU.

Say fuck you mom im not letting you hit me anymore. You will remain a cuck slave until you do it. Reality doing something to you for you to stand up for yourself. It will be brutal but nessesary.

Your spiritual path starts when you do this.

Sometimes we are cursed with bi polar people who are supposed to love and take care of us and we never get to feel it. The love you are looking for cannot come from another human ever.

 

The people who never leave home will never awaken. They never get into states where the qualia of 'home' dosent exist. This qualia is something that needs to be broken cause its not real.

If you dont get rid of this idea your just fking around. 

Edited 9 hours ago by Hojo

[Natasha Tori Maru]

In my experience - people who commit these acts do not get away with it.

This depends on your definition of 'get away with it'.

These individuals have a terrible inner world/existence. Their own minds are their enemy. Our actions not aligning with who we are - a mother - fracture your internal integrity. This causes internal dissonance, self hatred, distress and negative self image (and a myriad other issues). I would hazard a guess and say your mothers mind is a cage of self flagellation and internal self denigration. She will not be aware of this, but it will manifest in profound distress.

I am so sorry you are going through this.

I too, was hit, abused and tortured by my mother and stepdad.

But the path you are taking - to be the bigger person and more mature - you maintain your inner integrity. This is priceless. Your peace of mind and crystal diamond clean integrity will be the key to healing and bouncing back 

All things change, all things must end. You won't be in this situation forever.

[Jirh]

It's an unfair world. It already hurt me a lot, so I hate it too. And it hurts me to see someone get hurt and not be able to do anything about it.

Hope you overcome this. Stay strong. We're together in this pit.

[Rishabh R]

Ask yourself - Is it worth caring about the negativity that surrounds me ? 

And then act based on the answer .