I'm quiting psychedelics until I'm 40

[TheGod]

It's been like 5 years since I started tripping, ever since I've been doing it consistently, the longest I would go without tripping was 6 months or so. 

Now, I reached the point where I noticed that I actually avoid life with spirituality and psychedelics. 

Ultimately, survival won't ever fulfill you. Life purpose is an ego construction and will never satisfy you, neither will you get satisfaction from chasing money, having family or becoming famous, because these things have hidden negative sides of duality and they are impermanent. It only looks that these things are designed to fulfill you, but the only thing that can do it is God. 

That's why I have developed some sort of an addiction to 5MeO-DMT. Nothing in life that I had experienced would ever make me as joyful and satisfied as breaking into infinity of Love, pure ones and awe, magical bliss. 

On the other hand, every time I would breakthrough, I would always choose to come back. And believe me, ego doesn't make that decision it's God. 

So basically when you're identified as Ego you want to get God but when you become God you want to come back as ego. I verified it in my direct experience multiple times. Ultimately, since God is so god damn good and one, it want to experience how to crave things and need something or someone. 

See the only reason you pursue awakening is because you want God, but God has always wanted to be you (small ego). 

Anyways, I am 28 and I reached the point where I don't know what is going on. All I know is that I can't be playing this games with 5MeO-DMT trying to chase God but ultimately coming back. 

My plan for now is to forget about psychedelics for 10 years and then we shall see. 

 

[Ramasta9]

This is more honest than most people are admitting about psychedelics, maybe today is a day of honesty but its refreshing to see  

Indeed, when you surrender to Being, God is felt as Being, yet when too restless or invested in mind/ego, its fervently seeking God, which is merely the struggle to surrender to Being. Shake the body up a bit, go for a nice run or big dance, activate the whole body, then resting in being is easy.

The medicines can only do so much, we must apply and live the realizations to truly allow them to grow and bloom within us.

A little tip, don't make plans, don't quit or not quit, because this too can backfire, rather just be and align with what feels natural to you, everything else will balance out in divine timing. And we don't always need to tell people our plans, rather show them our results.

And we don't always have to have a big ego-death trip, sometimes a little nudge is all we need to return to being or presence.

I feel psychedelics, especially those made in a lab or synthetically, are too easily accessed today. Some of the more powerful healing experiences have been the journey to find them, grow them, time, patience, care, self-nourishment ect.. that when you do the medicine, it becomes the integration of all that hard work, and vice versa, like going to the amazon, living with the people there, learning their ways, working on the land, your body, your health and when the time is right, dropping in with the medicine.

Less chance of abuse this way. All the best.

 

 

Edited 18 hours ago by Ramasta9

[OBEler]

@TheGod so you are sick of the chasing game ego vs god?

Maybe try to become as near to God as possible in your limited human form. Or explore other different areas in spirituality (body awareness, empty mind etc) with or without psychedelics.

I feel you have great potential. You archieved much in your young age.

[TheGod]

14 hours ago, Ramasta9 said:

ike going to the amazon, living with the people there, learning their ways, working on the land, your body, your health and when the time is right, dropping in with the medicine.

Less chance of abuse this way. All the best.

This sounds good but I wouldn't do any psychedelics given by a shaman, it's too risky and I don't know what I am consuming. 

But living there would be an interesting experience 

[TheGod]

8 hours ago, OBEler said:

@TheGod so you are sick of the chasing game ego vs god?

Maybe try to become as near to God as possible in your limited human form. Or explore other different areas in spirituality (body awareness, empty mind etc) with or without psychedelics.

I feel you have great potential. You archieved much in your young age.

I'm sick of mySELF not wanting to wake up and myself trying to wake up. 

I'll be mainly focusing on meditation and achieving a no-thought state for more prolonged periods of time. 

Trying to push myself on psychedelics has become counterproductive and I feel intuitively that if I keep pushing I won't find myself in a pleasent state of mind. 

Maybe I am just not ready to fully wake up yet or maybe full awakening is a delusion because it's impermanent. 

Recently, I would have a breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT but only to find myself coming back into my default state almost immediately. It hadn't been that way before, I guess it's a sign for me to take a pause and fully integrate all of the things I have learned into daily life.