Zenterus

I finally experienced a facet of Solipsism!

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What a mind trip. 

 

I've been aware of Leo's teachings on this subject for a while now and while I understood it on a logical level, I truly wanted to experience it for myself.

 

Yesterday, I tried some weed edibles. I swore off psychedelics for a while ever since a really bad trip I had a year ago, but I've been using edible weed as an aid to my self reflection and inquiry work and it's been working great for me. Lots of insights into my behaviour, insecurities and ways of being.

 

However, yesterday, the edibles hit me way stronger than I anticipated. I was GONE.

 

My mind was twisting in all these weird ways, I would panic then calm down then panic again. I was experiencing massive anxious ups and downs as well as intense feelings of "Shit, man, Im high as FUCK"

 

Anyway, to cut to the chase, there came a moment when I put on Leos forgiveness video as a way to move away from feeling anxious towards a more intentful way of being, such as forgiving people who have hurt me.

 

While trying to watch the video, my whole visual field felt like it was losing pixels. Like shit went from 1080p to 240p and Im consciously trying my best to mentally increase the quality of my mental field. 

 

In the process of doing so, instead of achieving influence over my visual field, I ended up popping out of the character that is me.

 

It felt surreal.

 

Almost like when you're playing a video game while sitting super close to the screen, thus being super immersed in it, but then your eyes hurt and you decide to take a step back and realize that you're in a room playing the video game rather than you being in the video game.

 

It felt like that on an emotional level, where all of a sudden my entire visual field felt like a flat screen that I was fully immersed in rather than something that exists outside of me and where I exist within.

 

I wouldn't say i experienced non duality or even God. But I truly came to see that all I'm seeing is really all there is because I'm literally the reality around me. Im not a human nor anything separate from my environment, but actually I am the environment itself. I am all that there is.

 

And then, the most mindblowing thing happened. I actually begun to be aware of the fact that not only am I being but actually I'm literally actualizing the reality that I'm experiencing myself, second by second, minute by minute.

 

Basically, what I came to realize was that every moment that I was experiencing, I was creating with my certainty. Meaning that I could literally impact what I was experiencing based on how much I believed it to be true. So if I wanted to be on Mars right now, I could if I believed it was true right now.

 

So it cant be that Im wishing to be on Mars and then bend reality to make it happen. No. Its more like, the moment I REALIZE the truth that I am on Mars right now - not as a belief or conviction, but as straight up FACT - then i am on Mars.

 

In other words, I am creating the reality that im experiencing because I believe it to be true.

 

Everything 'outside' of me is me because I am the experience. There is no other or me or anything. I am the experience and there's nothing else besides that.

 

Funny enough, that realization brings me peace. I thought it would be this super scary thing, but I feel present than ever as a result of it. 

 

The present experience is all there is and any additional labels and narratives I place on it is merely a story that Im creating for it.

 

Insane.

 

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You got it.


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6 hours ago, Zenterus said:

What a mind trip. 

 

I've been aware of Leo's teachings on this subject for a while now and while I understood it on a logical level, I truly wanted to experience it for myself.

 

Yesterday, I tried some weed edibles. I swore off psychedelics for a while ever since a really bad trip I had a year ago, but I've been using edible weed as an aid to my self reflection and inquiry work and it's been working great for me. Lots of insights into my behaviour, insecurities and ways of being.

 

However, yesterday, the edibles hit me way stronger than I anticipated. I was GONE.

 

My mind was twisting in all these weird ways, I would panic then calm down then panic again. I was experiencing massive anxious ups and downs as well as intense feelings of "Shit, man, Im high as FUCK"

 

Anyway, to cut to the chase, there came a moment when I put on Leos forgiveness video as a way to move away from feeling anxious towards a more intentful way of being, such as forgiving people who have hurt me.

 

While trying to watch the video, my whole visual field felt like it was losing pixels. Like shit went from 1080p to 240p and Im consciously trying my best to mentally increase the quality of my mental field. 

 

In the process of doing so, instead of achieving influence over my visual field, I ended up popping out of the character that is me.

 

It felt surreal.

 

Almost like when you're playing a video game while sitting super close to the screen, thus being super immersed in it, but then your eyes hurt and you decide to take a step back and realize that you're in a room playing the video game rather than you being in the video game.

 

It felt like that on an emotional level, where all of a sudden my entire visual field felt like a flat screen that I was fully immersed in rather than something that exists outside of me and where I exist within.

 

I wouldn't say i experienced non duality or even God. But I truly came to see that all I'm seeing is really all there is because I'm literally the reality around me. Im not a human nor anything separate from my environment, but actually I am the environment itself. I am all that there is.

 

And then, the most mindblowing thing happened. I actually begun to be aware of the fact that not only am I being but actually I'm literally actualizing the reality that I'm experiencing myself, second by second, minute by minute.

 

Basically, what I came to realize was that every moment that I was experiencing, I was creating with my certainty. Meaning that I could literally impact what I was experiencing based on how much I believed it to be true. So if I wanted to be on Mars right now, I could if I believed it was true right now.

 

So it cant be that Im wishing to be on Mars and then bend reality to make it happen. No. Its more like, the moment I REALIZE the truth that I am on Mars right now - not as a belief or conviction, but as straight up FACT - then i am on Mars.

 

In other words, I am creating the reality that im experiencing because I believe it to be true.

 

Everything 'outside' of me is me because I am the experience. There is no other or me or anything. I am the experience and there's nothing else besides that.

 

Funny enough, that realization brings me peace. I thought it would be this super scary thing, but I feel present than ever as a result of it. 

 

The present experience is all there is and any additional labels and narratives I place on it is merely a story that Im creating for it.

 

Insane.

 

You should next start trying to change the reality around you then since it’s just you. Change your avatar and become a lion or a giraffe that would be sick!

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6 hours ago, vibv said:

You got it.

Lol originally you said we were all fractals of god but now you have contradicted yourself.

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35 minutes ago, theoneandnone said:

Lol originally you said we were all fractals of god but now you have contradicted yourself.

Where's the contradiction?

It all fractalizes in the one.

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13 minutes ago, vibv said:

Where's the contradiction?

It all fractalizes in the one.

Cosmic solipsism?

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Just now, theoneandnone said:

Cosmic solipsism?

Solipscosmicircus ;) ✨


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What you are starting to realize is that you are a cosmic Mind imagining reality.

That is God.

God is physical imagination. That means whatever is imagined hard enough becomes physically real. And there is no reality outside of your imagination of it.

Mind IS reality.

You ARE reality.

And of course you are imagining people out of whole cloth.

Edited by Leo Gura

You are God. You are Truth. You are Love. You are Infinity.

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2 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

What you are starting to realize is that you are a cosmic Mind imagining reality.

That is God.

God is physical imagination. That means whatever is imagined hard enough becomes physically real. And there is no reality outside of your imagination of it.

Mind IS reality.

You ARE reality.

It's not how hard, it's how genius ✨

The Grand Design is kind of higher geometry, an energetic setup of cosmic proportions. Nothing is random.

IT IS

  1. Compact (Only One Mind)
  2. Efficient (Minimal possible suffering)
  3. Robust (You are totally free and can't break it)
  4. Timeless (It is eternal&impermanent at the same time)
  5. Accessible (If you know how it is easy to connect to the higher, and it becomes easier and easier)
  6. Creative (Everything is improvised out of pure Divine Creativity, nothing is planned BUT STRUCTURED!)

And 7. TIME TO PLAY!

But vibv, how can we access all the worlds from here!?

By experiencing them through works of art on a level that nobody even dared to dream of yet.

And that is why the artwork of the future will be WORLDBUILDING.


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11 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

What you are starting to realize is that you are a cosmic Mind imagining reality.

That is God.

God is physical imagination. That means whatever is imagined hard enough becomes physically real. And there is no reality outside of your imagination of it.

Mind IS reality.

You ARE reality.

And of course you are imagining people out of whole cloth.

Do you mean this as a universal truth that anyone can directly realize with enough consciousness work, or is it simply how your awakening revealed itself?

How can i tell the difference between a universal insight and my mind’s interpretation of its own realization?

Also, something I keep hearing, my girlfriend and many spiritual people seem to demonize anything that comes from “the mind”. 

But if, as you say, Mind is reality, I find it hard to see what’s truly outside of mind, or if that distinction even matters. How do you see this?

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25 minutes ago, Gigsi said:

Do you mean this as a universal truth that anyone can directly realize with enough consciousness work

Yes.

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How can i tell the difference between a universal insight and my mind’s interpretation of its own realization?

The Universe IS your Mind.

You have to realize that you are the final arbiter of truth. If you cannot self-validate truth then no one else can for you.

How do you know that 1+1=2 is true? You have to take stand on it. There is no way around that.

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Also, something I keep hearing, my girlfriend and many spiritual people seem to demonize anything that comes from “the mind”.

1) They are stupid.

2) They take mind as only conceptual. Mind is also the physical world.

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But if, as you say, Mind is reality, I find it hard to see what’s truly outside of mind, or if that distinction even matters. How do you see this?

Nonduality means all distinctions collapse. The boundary between world and mind is imaginary. All boundaries are imaginary.

"Outside" is imagined by Mind.

There is not anything unless you imagine it. If you imagine an outside it will seem like there is an outside.

Edited by Leo Gura

You are God. You are Truth. You are Love. You are Infinity.

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1 hour ago, Gigsi said:

But if, as you say, Mind is reality, I find it hard to see what’s truly outside of mind, or if that distinction even matters. How do you see this?

By opening up to the greater mind that encompasses it.


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