Quitting smoking awakening

[Carl-Richard]

5 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

Boy do I know that method....

But were you doobs or bongs? I was bonging on man... and the time period was around 33yo so recovery was a bit different. All weekend, every night of the week after work. Chronic. 

Started with doobies and quickly graduated to the most MacGyver-looking homemade pipes you could ever imagine and then later bongs, when I realized efficiency was key (with doobs I would frantically vacuum clean them as I could not stand seeing them go up in smoke on the wrong end ).

It was a weird cultural thing that my closest friend group were doobie heads while a more peripheral one were bong heads / flutists (pipe boys), and there was like some subtle elitism in the doobie group connected to the process of "rolling" and it being like a badge of honor to be able to do it well.

It is also a bit more stealth, stylish and less crackhead-looking (so much so I one time thought it was a good idea to roll it into a cigarette and spark one with one of my friends after a concert while causally sitting on a bench right in the middle of a pretty central city park at night, and we heard somebody walking by who said "holy shit it smells like fucking weed in here". And then when they left, I was like "yeah we should probably leave" 🙈).

 

5 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

So glad I quit. My beloved crazy artist grandad, who raised me, passed away from emphysema. Tobacco smoking since he was 14. I saw him slowly suffocate to death over the course of 2 years with nothing to be done but a slow succumb. I stayed with him and watched him pass on in hospice. 

He taught me, helped my artistic skill flourish, and showed me what NOT to do. Even if it was a hard lesson. And confronting. His last words to me were 'Promise to always do the art, and create and build' 

So I did. And do  

🥹

Edited 12 hours ago by Carl-Richard

[Natasha Tori Maru]

14 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

Started with doobies and quickly graduated to the most MacGyver-looking homemade pipes you could ever imagine and then later bongs, when I realized efficiency is key (with doobs I would frantically vacuum clean it as I could not stand seeing it go up in smoke on the wrong end ).

It was a weird cultural thing that my closest friend group were doobie heads while a more peripheral one were bong heads / flutists (pipe boys), and there was like some subtle elitism in the doobie group connected to the process of "rolling" and it being like a badge of honor to be able to do it well.

It is also a bit more stealth, stylish and less crackhead-looking (so much so I one time thought it was a good idea to roll it into a cigarette and spark one with one of my friends after a concert while causally sitting on a bench right in the middle of a pretty central city park at night, and we heard somebody walking by who said "holy shit it smells like fucking weed in here". And then when they left, I was like "yeah we should probably leave" 🙈).

A rehabilitated veteran of the scene I see.

The doobie elitism is real.

The feral 'skullfuck my lungs' bong/shame mode is real.

One of my (ex) people Carl <3

Edited 16 hours ago by Natasha Tori Maru