Career getting hard with spirituality (as of now)

[funkychunkymonkey]

I work as an asset protection detective I’m pretty much a guy who gets paid to catch thieves. When I got the job it literally is my dream job, the action and thrill all that stuff. But now as I become more conscious I find myself more nervous making apprehensions and not wanting to fight. I still love the job and I don’t wanna give it up. I just feel some tension between being my more spiritual lovey friendly self and the me I gotta be at work which is WAY different . I would love to hear some perspectives on this topic I think it would be intresting. Maybe I’m just getting tired of it  

[Staples]

What part about it doesn't sit right with you?

Being spiritual doesn't mean you have to be lovey dovey all the time. That's nuts.

[funkychunkymonkey]

@Staples it’s the part where I gotta fight… not every shoplifter goes peacefully. You wouldent believe some of the madness, homeless people with needles, some people dedicate and spit. It’s a really tough job. And I don’t have that same energy of being hungry for a fight anymore. Burned that karma so to speak  

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Hmmm could be a few things.

Could be you are naturally gravitating away from the 'fun' of the thrill and adrenaline, and seeking more peace (very natural on the spiritual path). You might begin to feel the consequences of actions being out of alignment with personal truth ( a big issue for most, as the consequences aren't as apparent as they would be, like if you stuck your hand in the fire). This fractures your integrity (you are more brittle and less resilient) and spoils experience.

Could be some attachment to self & ego - worry about how you are perceived (outside our control really).

Loss prevention is interesting though - I love profiling and body language reading. I used to work managing big box multi-million dollar retail stores. It was a big deal. When confronting people I did begin to get that horrible 'rising throat tension' in anticipation. Do you get that also?

 

Edited August 26 by Natasha Tori Maru

[UnbornTao]

You can always inquire into what you are, beyond any particular character or behavioral pattern you're engaged in. In ancient China, there were enlightened warriors who fought and killed in battle.

We can distinguish between what one is conscious of and how one lives life. The things you could do prior to awakening remain the same - the difference lies in consciousness of what you are. 

Please don't take the example out of context.

Edited August 26 by UnbornTao

[Staples]

2 hours ago, funkychunkymonkey said:

@Staples it’s the part where I gotta fight… not every shoplifter goes peacefully. You wouldent believe some of the madness, homeless people with needles, some people dedicate and spit. It’s a really tough job. And I don’t have that same energy of being hungry for a fight anymore. Burned that karma so to speak  

Then maybe you don't love the job as much as you thought you did. It's good to accept that and do something else if that's the case. It's fine to not want to risk getting into fights with dangerous people.

That sounds like a job only a person who wants to fight could do.

Edited August 26 by Staples