I became angry because my eyes had become really bad.

[Behind20]

The last three weeks are so different than the last three days. I could barely see anything so I became mad. Clearly. And I still was being banned or constrained by the whatever when I wasnt born like this. Whoever fuck this is idk. They keep on wanting to have power over me. And I also wanna destroy my glasses /spectacle. 

The urge to do this idc. 

Its better if I don't need it at all. Like a few days ago. But its worthless I wanna break it. 

Edited Friday at 12:16 PM by Behind20

[ChrisZoZo]

Who is the “they”? 

[Behind20]

@ChrisZoZo  the one who's watching me illegally. 

 

I don't . I don't wanna be in p

Remmeber when I said about the cctv my intention to have it put outside and the next thing that happened is they put in on my face directing it to me in the room*. If I put my thoughts out outside. 

I wanted to do that to direct it to the sky and something bad already happened to me. Of course I hadnt done it. But why they had to do that instead of me just because I mentioned it the day before. Sticking their nose into my life. why do they have to do that? And I wont leave my house without having any cctv inside the house. The outside had long been unusable. It didnt work anymore. For a year? 

 

*If I don't do it they will do it. 

Edited Friday at 01:34 PM by Behind20

[PurpleTree]

Yea of course.

[Hojo]

If you dont know who they is then you dont know their intentions.

[Behind20]

@ChrisZoZo the one who's watching me illegally. 

@Hojo 

And of course I know who. 

Edited Friday at 01:39 PM by Behind20

[Hojo]

@Behind20 i would call the police and document it if someone is following me everywhere. If you haven't seen them then how do you know your friends are pranking you.

[Behind20]

3 minutes ago, Hojo said:

@Behind20 i would call the police and document it if someone is following me everywhere. If you haven't seen them then how do you know your friends are pranking you.

Theyre inside my house

[PurpleTree]

1 minute ago, Behind20 said:

Theyre inside my house

And how should we help you?

[Hojo]

@Behind20 So someone you dont know is inside your house and you set up a camera outside your room and they put it towards your bedroom. If they are your roommates I would do the same thing.  if they don't live in your house then call the police. If you are renting a room you dont get to put cameras outside your door thats an invasion of privacy to the other people.

Edited Friday at 02:21 PM by Hojo

[Joshe]

When they say “I became angry because my eyes became really bad”, they mean they saw something really bad and/or were kept in the darkness. And they want to destroy their glasses so they don’t have to see it anymore or because they don’t need them in the darkness. Something really bad might have happened to them and they disassociated. 

This person sounds like a mentally unwell hostage. They “won’t leave their house” because they can’t. And outside unusable = they aren’t allowed to go outside. 

This is either a troll or someone in need of serious help. @Leo Gura Not sure how you handle things like this. 

Edited Friday at 03:46 PM by Joshe

[PurpleTree]

36 minutes ago, Joshe said:

When they say “I became angry because my eyes became really bad”, they mean they saw something really bad and/or were kept in the darkness. And they want to destroy their glasses so they don’t have to see it anymore or because they don’t need them in the darkness. Something really bad might have happened to them and they disassociated. 

This person sounds like a mentally unwell hostage. They “won’t leave their house” because they can’t. And outside unusable = they aren’t allowed to go outside. 

This is either a troll or someone in need of serious help. @Leo Gura Not sure how you handle things like this. 

It’s not that serious it’s just some mental stuff. I worked with people who "saw such things" for a while.

[ChrisZoZo]

@Behind20 go to someone you trust about this and work through it with them.

Edited Friday at 04:21 PM by ChrisZoZo

[Joshe]

45 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

It’s not that serious it’s just some mental stuff. I worked with people who "saw such things" for a while.

Could be. I hope so. 

[Behind20]

I would even thought @Hojo to be a part of them.

They cut me off or ban me from a lot of things so that I had to be in public so that they could see me.  writing this

 

God given is but I went back and all things bad had happened. 

Should I write it fully? what if they're watching me? 

 

When I was writing this I only want a 

Can I even say these? 

 

 

Lt m put it clearly , cctv? That was the last immeadiate thing I could think of at the top of my state now (that is not so good like you could say you can un alive me because of how much I'm tired or exhausted right now (eyes & above) . ) totally utterly tired but I couldn't stop or do anything about it and things are just stacking up. one after another. (You think I got the will to continue this thread? No.) But I can't stay still either. Of course I am not ready 100% or at all but the time is coming? Short term mind / thinking as if I hadn't already lost it. 

4 hours ago, Hojo said:

@Behind20 i would call the police and document it if someone is following me everywhere. If you haven't seen them then how do you know your friends are pranking you.

Friend? That was a few years ago. (My mind would go between year and then coming back to now.  That why I said I'm better dead). why can't it be just immediate thing?  - stacking up things - forgotten - bad. - and on top of that my eyes could barely even still working (am I exaggerating? Nowho knwos. ) 

Think of ...  An old person. 

None of these , none of everything ive ever written shall come out of my mouth. none. 

 

@Hojo life are too silly for me these days (that immediate things are happening to me) so I'd wanna put (or I search for all the cctv that are in my state /city (outside cctv) to see what happened in the sky that moment. (But there aren't any. Cctv. Online. That I could look for. ) So I thought I wanna put one outside in case if anything happened.

But this just passed by. Until some day ago. When I bring it up , without ever telling anyone. I havent but I'm about to. And then ,  as if I hadn't been summoned already everyday , it happened. I've been surrounded (from front and back , or left and right) however you wanna see it. And it happened. I was pulled. My thought was taken. Maybe , my headache had been caused by the hair oil im using. Because in this dream , I saw three of those up in the air floating. And then I pull it back down (inside my room) its happening inside the house. I pull it back down and take it out from the luggage /suitcase. I dont remember anything else . And these things are still like floating. and before this , I saw a cctv screen right above my head at the corner nook of the room.  Ceiling. Up. it was , looking at me. And outside was that. i wouldnt get any of these or all of these if (idk.) and then , also it was about 2024. 3? Idk. that memory was brought or summoned too . (Idk why seriously.) So as soon as i woke up i went to x to ask her to do that. And it was fine. Though im sick. sickening. unresolved thing? (Because we cant act like nothing happened.) And act like nothings happened (so I was a bit sick. (Sickening.)) so i just do it. And somehow , closing my eyes would be better. Felt better. (I said im tired even after waking up.(morning.))

So i was just sleeping on my mom's bed waiting for her saying that i wanna do the laundry (eventhough I actually didnt.) wanna. It just appeared on my dream and had been brought back or someone had summoned that memories 

 

Backward?      Way.   Backward.    

And of course I did things that are out of the ordinary *not what wslas usual* because that dream freaked me out so I went back 

They had summoned me and then my mom and dad summoned them and that how it goes. For a moment , truth can be seen and then it ended. Turning back to normal or whatever. But the sorcery was done and can be seen.   I can choose not to do it at all but they keep on making me part of it. Without me ever wanting it. to be involved. in their shi. But I was used anyway whether I wanted to or not. Things had gone really backward. they too were freaked out and then gather or had to be together. (Among themselves.) And at one moment they had to leave their child to me alone. because of the sorcery. So all these while i was the child unattended by any of my parents. Huh? And it would be a moment , when i turned away that they would took their child ,in a second and was lost from the scene. so they too were freaked out but had to leave their child to make the sorcery work. Idk. Idk. This is some deadly deadass ancient old type of sorcery. (Wtf im not interested) But things that they learned or whatever while being in --- (x) 

 

This shouldn't be it but I'm weak.   (To fight that which they should do or leqrn in x) I'm on my deathbed.

I mean , *to fight that which they learn in x . I'm on my deathbed. 

 

And maybe they are born like this and I wasn't. (Because they do it all too easily . ) the sorcery. 

If I were 

Edited Friday at 06:07 PM by Behind20

[Hojo]

@Behind20 i don't live in your country. I don't know who you are and have never been in your house.

[Behind20]

If I were to fight it I would also had to go against the biggest org in the country.

Of course I had lost the battle if I hadnt things would just have been heavenly. 

Edited Friday at 06:45 PM by Behind20

[Someone here]

@Behind20 boy ..girl ..non-binary or who knows ...stop talking like a retard .and also stop talking to these three retards . Actually sit down ..relax ..and write a coherent paragraph with sound grammar and describe what ..is ..the ..proplem..EXACTLY? 

[Hojo]

You speak like that user sabth.

[Someone here]

Its not that she (probably a she ) speaks like sabth .she is just sabth .she is a girl that experienced rape .I'm deeply empathetic with you but come one if you want serious help there is people here like princess Arabia or Natasha or razard or Emerald or Carl etc who can help her .but she MUST first quit playing autism and put together three fucking coherent lines .

Edited Friday at 06:28 PM by Someone here