Different Everywhere I Go

[jimwell]

Shika-chan is the type of girl I feel compelled to impregnate. 

But this post is not about her. It’s about why all or almost all people from both the Northern and Southern Hemispheres have summer as their favorite season. According to her, summer is different from the other 3 seasons. It’s also the most active season because people tend to go outside and have fun.

When I used to stroll through my regular winter walks in Japan, I often wondered why people stayed inside Conceptually, I knew it was because of the cold, but it never truly registered in my mind because I love the winter cold. With my down jacket insulating my body, the contrast of warmth around my torso and the crisp chill on my face became an enjoyable experience. Also, I became more active and productive in winter than summer ever did. I loved going outside precisely because of that invigorating cold. It rejuvenated my body and mind, spurring my energy and focus. I used to end my long walks with push-ups and pull-ups in the park and I noticed that I would naturally add an extra set during winter.

I also loved the fact that I always found myself solitary. My usual walking paths weren’t in bustling city streets but in quiet suburban roads and parks. I barely saw people outside in winter, making my walks feel more spiritual. I feel as though I were solitary in the world and in the universe, which is probably the case at the highest level, because in the end, there is only God. Who else could exist but God?

I have always been very different from the crowd since I turned around 20. As a kid and a teenager, I was normal and similar to everybody else, except for two moments: when I was 8 or 9 and asked my mother where money came from and who created it, and when I had a “schizophrenic” experience of my human life being a dream and that my parents were illusions pretending to be real. But overall, I was a normal kid. I watched and played ball games. I watched dumb TV shows and admired dumb celebrities. I was also a serious Christian, and my worldview was that of Stage Blue with a bit of Orange.

But I changed when I turned around 20, without any effort on my part. In fact, I hated becoming so different and felt ashamed of it. I thought I was lost and had gone crazy.

My question to God is “Why did you drop me on Earth?”. I feel as though I’m an alien. Even on this forum, which is supposed to be filled with non-normies, I still feel different.

[EternalForest]

- First of all, TV is amazing, don't feel dumb for watching it and don't feel bad for loving great art. I've said this many times on the forum, and I'll say it again: Breaking Bad holds more life wisdom than 99% of self help books.

- The season you prefer doesn't make any more or less normal. Summer is popular because yes, you can do outdoor activities and the sun feels good but personally I always preferred winter as well growing up. Snow makes everything more beautiful and winter walks are fuckin peak.

- Your solitary and thoughtful nature is your strength, not a weakness. I enjoy your posts and value your presence here, and look forward to reading more from you. Take care, much love  

[Princess Arabia]

Everybody thinks they're different. If someone says they're the same as everybody else, then that's different. 

[meta_male]

18 hours ago, jimwell said:

My question to God is “Why did you drop me on Earth?”. I feel as though I’m an alien. Even on this forum, which is supposed to be filled with non-normies, I still feel different.

I know what you mean. But blending in with the forum normies sounds pretty boring anyway Use your alienation as distinction instead of weight. Difference is magnetising.

[jimwell]

On 8/21/2025 at 1:58 AM, EternalForest said:

First of all, TV is amazing, don't feel dumb for watching it and don't feel bad for loving great art. I've said this many times on the forum, and I'll say it again: Breaking Bad holds more life wisdom than 99% of self help books.

No, it’s not. Most of the time, TV shows and movies are dumb and a waste of time. But I do see intelligence and beauty in a few movies.

 

On 8/21/2025 at 1:58 AM, EternalForest said:

The season you prefer doesn't make any more or less normal. Summer is popular because yes, you can do outdoor activities and the sun feels good but personally I always preferred winter as well growing up. Snow makes everything more beautiful and winter walks are fuckin peak.

My preferred season does contribute to my uniqueness. When everybody celebrates summer while I celebrate winter, it makes me feel “less” normal. Oh! I miss snow... "Let it snow! Let it snow! Let it snow...!".

 

On 8/21/2025 at 1:58 AM, EternalForest said:

Your solitary and thoughtful nature is your strength, not a weakness.

Yes, they are. But I need to clarify that I’m not purely introverted. I’m as extroverted as I am introverted. When I socialize and date, you’d think I’m a social butterfly and the ultimate player, because I am. I was purely extroverted, a player, and had mastered socializing and dating since I was a kid until my late 20s. And I still have it inside me. It’s just that, at this point in my life, introversion is more sensible than extroversion. Soon, I’ll be more extroverted than introverted, because that’s what will propel me toward accomplishing my most important ambitions. There’s a season for everything.

 

On 8/21/2025 at 1:58 AM, EternalForest said:

I enjoy your posts and value your presence here, and look forward to reading more from you. Take care, much love  

 Thanks!

[jimwell]

On 8/21/2025 at 2:31 AM, Princess Arabia said:

Everybody thinks they're different. If someone says they're the same as everybody else, then that's different. 

Everybody also says they are good and truthful.  You can't take them seriously.

In the West, being different is perceived as cool. But in the East, it’s perceived oppositely; being different is bad, weird, even pathetic. But their perception doesn’t affect me, because I know who I am and what is good.

 

On 8/21/2025 at 3:40 PM, meta_male said:

Use your alienation as distinction instead of weight. Difference is magnetizing.

I see it. I feel comfortable being different and solitary. Yes, there are times I feel it as a burden. But I love the way I am.  

[Princess Arabia]

5 hours ago, jimwell said:

Everybody also says they are good and truthful. 

No they don't. That's an assumption. People don't go around saying how good they are and that they don't lie, only a few.

[cetus]

On 8/20/2025 at 9:02 AM, jimwell said:

My question to God is “Why did you drop me on Earth?”. I feel as though I’m an alien. Even on this forum, which is supposed to be filled with non-normies, I still feel different.

I certain circles it is a belief that our spiritual self knows it needs to improve certain areas, so we bring ourselves here to grow.