The Purpose Of A Girlfriend Is To Dream Deeper Into The Matrix

[Emerald]

21 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Emerald

I too, have watched Teal Swan for a while.

I feel like she struggles to respect most people.

Men included.

She won't surrender unless she can completely respect a man. And I feel her ego prevents her from seeing others as equal or above.

But this is just my impression.

Yes, I agree with that assessment.... and I think this difficulty respecting people comes from a lack of appreciation for ordinariness.

And it's challenging, I think, because she has a lot of great points about how people tend to use humility to avoid their own greatness... and to try to be "good" whilst sacrificing so much potential.

And there's a lot that 90% of people could really benefit from hearing, because people's identity of humility can and does hold them back from their full potential.

But for someone like Teal Swan who has such a strong polarization into extraordinariness and such an aversion to ordinariness... it creates this difficulty just relating to people on a common, eye-to-eye level.

It's like disliking humanity to the degree that you try to become a special and beautiful alien.

[Leo Gura]

5 minutes ago, Emerald said:

It's like disliking humanity to the degree that you try to become a special and beautiful alien.

[Emerald]

Just now, Leo Gura said:

Did you feel called out or something?

[Leo Gura]

15 minutes ago, Emerald said:

Did you feel called out or something?

I feel understood

Edited Wednesday at 12:09 AM by Leo Gura

[Natasha Tori Maru]

/dead

cant stop laughing

read the above in a meek tone

[Natasha Tori Maru]

@Emerald

We agree.

I particularly enjoy dissecting her while watching her synchronisation workshops.

You can see the absolute pleasure and glint in her eyes when adoration is thrown her way.

Nom nom nom

[Leo Gura]

11 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

You can see the absolute pleasure and glint in her eyes when adoration is thrown her way.

Her whole commune is designed for that.

She is terrified of just being alone. Big red flag for a spiritual teacher.

She feeds off the adoration of her followers like a catfish off the lake-bed.

Edited Wednesday at 12:17 AM by Leo Gura

[Emerald]

1 minute ago, Leo Gura said:

I felt understood

Well, takes one to know one, I suppose. 

Even in childhood, I used to fantasize that I was a supernatural being... as I was always trying to set myself apart from others.

Part of that was a reflection of a difficulty with belonging... of being different in a bad way and feeling outcast and disconnected.

And the other was this driver to be different and superlative in some way... and to diverge either in quality or in kind from others.

And my adolescent identity followed suit with that... as I was always trying to be a special snowflake and avoid common humanity. And that embrace of my inner alien and the pride in my divergence enabled me to develop a lot of special skills and qualities that I otherwise wouldn't have developed.

But the re-integration of ordinariness has been at the heart of my inner work since 2021... when Ayahuasca showed me how everything I had ever wanted is on the other end of integrating ordinariness.

The medicine kept bringing me back and forth between two states...

One state was my usual MO, just exaggerated... which was polarization into extraordinariness to the exclusion of ordinariness. And the sense of disconnection and alienation was very palpable (a feeling I hadn't been cognizant of since childhood). It was like being a puzzle piece that had gotten taken up out of the puzzle and was floating in thin air, with all the weight of existence resting squarely on my head and shoulders.

Then, the medicine would bring me back into the integration between both extraordinariness and ordinariness... and I felt connected with humanity, with nature, and one with the universe at large. And the existential weight was lifted from me, and I could relax and exist in this highly connected state.

And the plant teacher kept toggling me back and forth between these two states until I understood what it was showing me.

Then, it put me in this "scene" that was like I was at the precipice of connection... almost like a line. And I had all these ordinary collective phrases flitting through my my mind like: community, family, church, relationship, etc.

And I felt this deep aversion to all of these words, as it was always what I was trying to avoid. But I sat there shaky on the edge of the decision to enter the realm of the collective ordinariness... but fearful to do so.

So, I know that one of my biggest growth arcs comes with the integration of ordinariness... as it frees me up from being the nail that sticks out and bears the entire weight of the universe. But it's difficult after 25+ years of consciously trying to be an alien and feeling such a strong aversion to all things ordinary and average.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

2 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

She is terrified of just being alone. 

Core fear for her. She should drive into that. Lots of opportunity for growth.

If I fear something I drive into it. Its an indicator there is ego there. And, usually, tasty delusion to unravel.

[Leo Gura]

1 minute ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

If I fear something I drive into it.

That cockroach omelet is still sitting on the windowsill

[Emerald]

8 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@Emerald

We agree.

I particularly enjoy dissecting her while watching her synchronisation workshops.

You can see the absolute pleasure and glint in her eyes when adoration is thrown her way.

Nom nom nom

Yes, I've noticed that. And while I really enjoy her work, it's not a helpful quality to have for a teacher to revel in adoration from fans.

It just adds to the illusion of being some different kind of human being. And it causes people to disown and project their own power and sovereignty onto the teacher that does that.

She'd be a lot more effective if she were to take praise with a grain of salt and re-direct people to recognize their own power and specialness.

Also, I don't know how she stands it.

I have a modestly sized YouTube audience (a little under 70k subs), and I met with a coaching client a couple of years ago. And he was putting me up on a pedestal and calling me "Goddess" and stuff like that.

And I just felt bad for him as I could see his vulnerability. And I felt really uncomfortable with having that kind of "superlativity" projected upon me.

So, if people are giving me too much praise, I'm just like "Oh no! I'm doing a bad job at empowering people and helping people embody their own sense of sovereignty!"

[Basman]

On 17/06/2025 at 1:11 AM, Leo Gura said:

I am exhausted just imagining what it would be like to date her.

The only way to date her is to be her man-servant and yes-man.

You'd look great in a maid outfit <3.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

3 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

That cockroach omelet is still sitting on the windowsill

...Doesn't miss a beat 

She's still pondering how much it will nuke her system  

Fucken bitch, so discriminating

[Natasha Tori Maru]

4 minutes ago, Emerald said:

So, if people are giving me too much praise, I'm just like "Oh no! I'm doing a bad job at empowering people and helping people embody their own sense of sovereignty!"

I would react this way.

Sometimes when you give someone power with words and assistance, they do not realise the power came from themselves. They think you gave them power, so you must have it. And lets face it, most people worship power in some form or other!

That's not to say you are not powerful - I have seen your channel, and it is a force!

 

[Emerald]

1 minute ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I would react this way.

Sometimes when you give someone power with words and assistance, they do not realise the power came from themselves. They think you gave them power, so you must have it. And lets face it, most people worship power in some form or other!

That's not to say you are not powerful - I have seen your channel, and it is a force!

Thank you so much! I'm glad you like my channel!  

It definitely is like that. And it's important with having an audience and the power that comes with that to detach somewhat from things like praise... and criticism as well. Really, that's the double-edged sword where the degree to how seriously you take one of those is the degree to how seriously you take both of those.

But it's sort of like in the Wizard of Oz... instead of seeing the man behind the curtain and realizing their own power... people can get caught up in the illusions of "Oz the Great and Powerful."

And there's value in playing the role of the Wizard of Oz, as long as it works in service to others realizing their own power... like how the Wizard of Oz helped the Scarecrow realize he was intelligent, the Tin Man realize he was heart-centered, and the Lion realize he was courageous. (which was clearer in the book than it was in the movie)

But that takes a lot of responsibility and the development of good judgment to play the role of Oz the Great and Powerful in the instances where necessary without getting caught up in the illusion one's self.

[integral]

53 minutes ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

You can see the absolute pleasure and glint in her eyes when adoration is thrown her way.

This is a common social adaptation when receiving compliments.

Someone compliments you, you act happy.

What do you feel she's not wearing a mask?

Edited Wednesday at 12:59 AM by integral

[Emerald]

3 minutes ago, integral said:

This is a common social adaptation when receiving compliments.

Someone compliments you, you act happy.

What do you feel she's not wearing a mask?

I've been to 3 of her synchronization workshops over the course of the past decade. I've gone pretty much every time she does an event in Florida.

And you can tell that she really revels in praise from the audience.

And it isn't an act just to look gracious, as that looks quite different. It's clear that it really means something to her.

[Leo Gura]

8 minutes ago, integral said:

Someone compliments you, you act happy.

It's WAY more than that with Teal.

She has set up an entire commune of loyalists and yes-men to fed herself social validation and play as their queen.

She lives in a self-constructed bubble. A Teal Swan fiefdom. This is a dysfunctional structure for her and her followers.

Edited Wednesday at 01:07 AM by Leo Gura

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Just now, integral said:

What do you feel she's not running a mask?

I think I do not look at behavioural traits in isolation.

I look at them, and contrast them with the pattern of display. I fit this against words. Movement. I have watched a lot of Teal (as well as Leo, Emerald) so I tend to pick up on things over time. Reading body language is an art, and you have to watch over a span of time to know someone's tell. It's not just 'When you look down and left while speaking, it is a tell they are lying'. Each person has their own baseline. And their own tells.

Back to your example:

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Someone compliments you, you act happy.

Typically ones reaction to a compliment is met with a smile or some jubilation as you describe. More commonly when compliments are rare for that individual. Or you happen to hit an area they have a lot of pride in.

There is a numbing effect over time, where the new normal is to receive compliments. You generally see less reaction from the individual. This is not the case with Teal. Coupled with the fact it is adoration she really reacts to with a lot of uncensored body language, facial expression and tone. She is usually quite controlled. It is when someone breaks their control I pay attention. In that space you find the truth of the person. This is when I see her ego pop out.

I have a lot of confidence in my ability to read others in this way - the early part of my life, my survival depended on my ability to read people in a flash, adapt and pretzel myself into what they needed to calm them. Much of my ability to pick these things up is subconscious. It is a learned trait. One born of a bad situation, that has been an excellent tool in my personal and professional life.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

@Leo Gura @Emerald

Yes these points are more concrete than my woo woo reading