Schizophonia’s Journal

[MarkKol]

Real French people live in Ile-de-France.

[Schizophonia]

3 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Luckily I have no sleep issues. The only thing is that I can sleep for a long time on weekends and it can feel like I’m wasting time

I’ve read that sleep was correlated to testicles size.

I didn’t notice change myself but if it’s true you must have big ovaries !

 

Ok i stop

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People don’t notice without looking closely on fingers

Yea

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It can be but I feel clearly that I don’t have anxiety believe it or not 

 

Maybe, i don’t want to argue.

Edited June 15, 2025 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, MarkKol said:

Homosexual French people live in Ile-de-France.

It’s true 🤔

[Sugarcoat]

15 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

I’ve read that sleep was correlated to testicles size.

I didn’t notice change myself but if it’s true you must have big ovaries !

Who knows 

16 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Maybe, i don’t want to argue.

Same. I’m not here to prove myself

[Keryo Koffa]

11 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

The more morbid I am, the less problem I have with women, and the more masculine I am in general, but that can be dangerous for someone who represses mood problems.

If what i say is comprehensible.

Edited June 15, 2025 by Keryo Koffa

[Schizophonia]

2 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Yamete kudasaiiiii

[Keryo Koffa]

19 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Yamete kudasaiiiii

Edited June 15, 2025 by Keryo Koffa

[Schizophonia]

 

Edited June 15, 2025 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

These days i play a bit by modulating my persona, my ego, in different directions 🤔.I will do a topic about it next week when i will have access to a computer.

 

Big ego (basically more attached) leeds to a more feminine energy under different forms, it makes me more anxious, more sensitive, more submissive etc.

Less ego makes me more masculine vibe, but so also more morbide.

 

Low ego and « high frequency » (wired) turns me into a very « bloody » persona; like agressive and enterprising, who wrote very stiff with very expressive emojis like 😂😜, a fealing of high blood pressure in the body especially the face, but also dumber; it feels a bit like being on PCP; it seems it even gives me BDSM fetish lol.

 

Low ego and « low frequency » (more dissociated) turns me into a « masculine intellectual », the kind of romantic and rustic guy dry but chill, who writes rather with this kind of emojis 😹😅🙂who wear shirts with rolled up sleeves, some cigarettes and drink wine, and talk about food sex and intellectual subject.

The persona is cooler to me for some reasons but it’s actually more morbide; I feel less motivated, more prone to suicidal ideation (I’m not even suicidal at the base); It’s a bit the « country boy’s  masculinity ».

[Keryo Koffa]

The feminine urge to make puns, there's no sugarcoating of this growing schizophronia.
Given the exploration of morbidity, I'd recommend G̵̗͔̼̓͒ą̴̜̉͋n̶͔̜͂t̵͈́̽z̸̙̐

Edited June 21, 2025 by Keryo Koffa

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

The feminine urge to make puns, there's no sugarcoating of this growing schizophronia.

So now when it's not me who annoys @Sugarcoat with my lame jokes in pm it's you lol.

 

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Given the exploration of morbidity, I'd recommend G̵̗͔̼̓͒ą̴̜̉͋n̶͔̜͂t̵͈́̽z̸̙̐

Thanks.

I was looking for something less heavy to read than my usual stuff so maybe I'll take a look.

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Given the exploration of morbidity, 

I will soon do a more thoughtful topic on this.

[Schizophonia]

Insomnia is about attachment 

Sleep hygiene is not effective in curing insomnia because it doesn't address the underlying psychological cause.

You don't want to become dependent on sleep hygiene and sometimes medication. You want to be able to have an easy relationship with sleep; to be able to go to bed and fall asleep even when conditions aren't ideal (late exposure to blue light, stress, caffeine, etc.)
To be able to nap in the middle of the day like you did when you were a child.

Contrary to popular belief, stress in itself isn't necessarily a sleep deterrent; it can even make you want to sleep as a way to "take refuge somewhere."

The main cause of insomnia is the tendency to maintain an ego, a particularly dense self-concept that requires a lot of energy and therefore alertness and prevents the triggering of the VLPO system, the urge to fall asleep.

You have to imagine that your consciousness is like a "clamp" that clings to concepts through your imagination.
Thoughts arise, or rather tend to arise, and you have the choice between clinging to them and sinking into the process of constructing a thought, or, on the contrary, "letting them slide."
The more you let them slide, the easier it will be to fall asleep and the more naturally it will come. You must imagine that your attention is a clamp, and that the thoughts (it could be sleep anxiety, philosophical or sexual ideas, the recipe for an apple pie; it could be anything) are too heavy for you to cling to.
"I'll give up, I'm lazy."

However, this can be difficult, because accepting a de-densification of your ego when you're used to "clinging" too much can trigger narcissistic rage. You must therefore train yourself in your daily life to "not cling" and to face life's challenges (work, relationships, etc.), and this will become your new identity.

You can't on the one hand "cling" to things in everyday life, and at the same time become morbid enough to sleep easily.

[Schizophonia]

 

[MuadDib]

On 6/11/2025 at 7:23 PM, Schizophonia said:

 

 

[Schizophonia]

Mhh it's so hot i can barely sleep this week (almost 50 degress); it makes me ruminating and more dysthymic in general that enrich the vitious circle; i don't have motivation to respond to people.

From a non-dual perspective, it looks like a desire to move towards more holistic forms of intelligence, because the loss of energy prevents you from jerking off to conceptual and shaky things, because it's just too tiring.

 

[Schizophonia]

Interaction is an identity positioning tool.

 

[Schizophonia]

In everyday life we feel like we are someone contemplating and adapting to an objective reality which surpasses us.

From a idealistic (monist) point of view, it's an illusion and the opposite is true; consciousness, the "projector" that we could call god, is the ultimate substance or at least primary to mater/limits; the whole universe is the creation of this consciousness. Religion can be dumb but atheist are also and maybe even more; god is beyond limits so trying to debunk or even prove god with science would be like CJ in GTA saying that science proved cars pop at x frequency and things like that and all these scientific deductions are probably the proves that there is nothing greater beyond this world. Who decided of low of universe ? God ! What generates consciousness given that we are supposed to be basically biological robot ? When do we fall from an objective world to a subjective world ? Is my computer alive ? IT'S SIMPLE SUBJECTIVITY, CONSCIOUSNESS, GOES FIRST !

 

Edited July 5, 2025 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

 

[Sugarcoat]

@Schizophonia this is better music: