Schizophonia’s Journal

[Sugarcoat]

1 minute ago, Schizophonia said:

God punished me for enjoying too much all these new photos and videos 👺

I was gonna ask you what were you thinking when you did it but maybe I’m too much LOL

 

[Schizophonia]

7 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

I was gonna ask you what were you thinking when you did it but maybe I’m too much LOL

 

👀

[Schizophonia]

I notice more and more correlations between my exterior world and my inner dialogs; i can contemplate non duality.

My mother typically is almost like a perfect replication of my inner dialogue about love/sexuality, my emotionnal world in general.

Edited Thursday at 09:32 PM by Schizophonia

[RendHeaven]

you got insta or yt?

[Schizophonia]

10 hours ago, RendHeaven said:

you got insta or yt?

I can send my insta 

[Schizophonia]

My sleep has been poor this month, because I was too stressed or whatever, and that kick-started the process even though I no longer have sleepless nights, but these days have been better, even much better, by applying Neville Goddard's advice.
No worries about sleep hygiene or medication; here, we're working on a more holistic scale and eliminating insomnia by removing the very idea of ever having been insomniac, and it works! It even works very quickly.
Of course, there's no need to resort to Neville's mystical paradigm; a skeptic who prefers to stick to a down-to-earth, meta-logical paradigm could talk about neuro-linguistic programming or whatever.
Of course, it's much harder to say than to do; the ego has taken to complaining about being insomniac (in this case). The ego is the supreme capitalist who wants to continue using a damaged and dangerous but still profitable nuclear power plant and, if possible, reuse the nuclear waste, not for environmental reasons, lol, but for business; the ego doesn't want to have to throw all that away.
Of course, the ego is also the one who wants change, but mine has a particularly strong conservative bias.

 

At the same time I'm going nofap again; I don't see the point of simply ejaculating without at least one loving partner, it's a significant waste of energy for a stupid little orgasm lasting a few seconds, even smoking is more profitable.

This morning I almost broke down after just one day, lol, looking at pornographic images, but in the end I stuck it out.
I must be lonely or something, I'm missing things and I'm avoiding the pain by numbing myself with orgasms.